(Minghui.org) Our local coordinator brought two young women to me in early 2007, wanting to rent a room. When I found out they were fellow Falun Dafa practitioners who were forced to leave their home given the persecution, I decided to let them live in my place for free.
The two practitioners started a truth-clarification material production site at my home, and I helped distribute the materials to practitioners.
They offered to teach me how to use a computer and print materials. I looked at the computer screen, and it looked alien to me. “Please don’t give me pressure!” I exclaimed. I was not confident that I could ever use a computer. “I’m happy to do other truth-clarification things,” I added.
After a while, one of them said: “Let me teach you step by step. Don’t worry!” She was very patient guiding me, while I took notes.
The next day, the practitioner suggested that I try using the computer by following my notes. I looked at them, but didn’t understand what I wrote. “I can’t do this. It’s really not for me,” I said. I wanted to stop.
The practitioner responded, “This is your cultivation path. It’s the vow you made before coming down to earth.” The practitioner words shocked me. Could it be Master saying this through the practitioner’s mouth?
Compared to the two practitioners who were forced to leave their homes and whose hearts were entirely on saving people, I felt ashamed. I was being selfish. I was seeking a relaxed and comfortable environment. Is saving people conditional?
I was determined to learn how to use the computer. With the practitioners’ help, I was able to help make materials.
It wasn’t easy at the beginning. About two minutes after I sat in front of the computer, I felt flustered. My muscles were tense, my eyes hurt, my stomach was churning and I wanted to vomit. These symptoms disappeared when I left the computer. The symptoms returned when I sat at the computer the next day, and the third and the fourth day.
I then became alert. This was the old forces interference trying to stop me from making materials! I made up my mind: Whether it is an immortal or a demon, they will not stop me from helping Master save people!
Master said: “What’s there to fear? My body would still sit there even with my head cut off.” (“Huge Exposure”, Essentials for Further Advancement)
Despite all the uncomfortable symptoms, I forced myself to continue downloading, printing various journals and materials, and making DVDs.
When we finished studying the Fa at our Fa study group, shortly after the 2020 Chinese New Year, a practitioner suddenly got angry with me, saying that the materials I printed were outdated and I should have added new content about the pandemic. In fact, those materials were made for her and another practitioner to distribute for the new year. For some reason both of them did not pick up the materials on time.
“Why do you blame me?” I responded sharply. When you were at home preparing for the new year, I was busy making these materials!” I was upset and felt I was being treated unfairly. “You only ask for materials. Do you know how hard I worked on making them?” I continued.
I got angrier, completely forgetting I was a Dafa practitioner, and said. “You make your own materials from now on. I won’t make them for you anymore!”
That night, I dreamed that I walked up to a fork in the road. While wondering which way I should go, a tall figure appeared in front of me, and said: “You must go straight forward. That’s where your goal is.” As I was about to thank him, the figure disappeared and I woke up.
I took a moment to think about the dream - isn’t it Master giving me a hint? Master saw that I did not look inward when a conflict arose with a practitioner. This was a good opportunity for me to improve. Why did I care who was right and who was wrong? Cultivation is the most important thing!
Two days later, one of the practitioners who failed to pick up the materials apologized to me. She said it was her fault, and she hoped that I would continue making them.
I looked at the other practitioner who criticized me and failed to pick up the materials on time. She sat there quietly and looked unhappy. I thought: “Why are you unhappy? You want me to apologize to you?” I couldn’t bring myself to do it.
I had another dream that night. I was next to a cliff. In order to reach the road, I had to climb either up or down. I tried to grab hold of something on the cliff, but it was made of dirt. I thought I would slide down to the road below. The dirt then spoke: “You cannot slide down. If you do I will bury you. Only going up is the right path for you!”
I dug my fingers and feet into the dirt, and slowly started to climb. I later reached a big tree root. I held on to it and pulled myself up. A man stood on the top, smiling at me. I smiled back.
I reached the top at last. I knew it was Master who guided me and protected me so that I would only walk on the right path. Under Master’s protection, I have been making truth-clarification materials at my home for 12 years. On the final path of my cultivation, I will walk straight and steady.