(Minghui.org) After reading three articles on the Minghui website about the harm of browsing ordinary people’s websites on cellphones, I decided to write my experiences down in the hope that fellow practitioners could learn from my lessons.

My husband was crippled by a serious disease. His mind is also slow. He has to ask me about everything. I used to get so bothered by his lengthy questions that I tended to pick on him. I repeatedly criticized him because I didn't cultivate my xinxing enough. I didn’t treat my husband’s problems as opportunities to improve myself. I focused on his mistakes and tried to change him. Feeling frustrated and disappointed, I started to play video games on the computer. My husband would sit next to me and watch me play. I also couldn’t persist in doing the exercises.

As the level of my xinxing fell, my body experienced abnormalities. My neck got thicker. I felt something strange in my throat. My neck and back became stiff. I happened to notice a health-related push notification on my cellphone one day, saying that the condition of your neck reflects the condition of your body. Before I started practicing Falun Dafa, I had surgery to remove a tumor on my submaxillary gland, and had a second surgery on it at the beginning of my cultivation. My doctor told me that I should have my neck checked if I ever felt any discomfort in my neck.

When I felt unsure about my condition, all kinds of illness symptoms appeared. My heart rate increased. I had repeated diarrhea. I couldn’t sleep for a couple of weeks. I was afraid of drafts and didn’t know that I had high fever. I followed the old force arrangements and went to a hospital.

I downloaded many articles on the topic of sickness karma and shared with fellow practitioners. They suggested I let go of all my attachments and leave it up to Master’s arrangements. I knew that medical treatments couldn’t cure an “illness” for the divine, but I felt that I didn't have strong or proper thoughts. I surrendered to fear and my faith was lacking. 

I tried to look within to root out my attachments. It was the only way to deny the old force arrangements. I found complacency and a lack of compassion and tolerance. I got upset easily and turned my nose up at others. Communist Party culture had influenced me. In addition, I also had strong resentment, lust, jealousy, fear, and an attachment to comfort. I didn’t do the three things well.

I calmed down and intensively studied the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts, and repeated the Dafa principles about a benevolent resolution. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the persecution and to deny the appearance of false sickness. I was determined to void any agreement I had made with the old forces and to walk the path Master had paved for me. I wanted to disintegrate anything in every dimension interfering with and persecuting me.

“fă zhèng qián kūn, xié è quán miè.” (“The Two Hand Positions for Sending Righteous Thoughts,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress II) 

I could feel that the beings in other dimensions interfering with me also long for salvation. I told them, “Don’t interfere with Dafa disciples’ cultivation. Don’t play a bad role. You may come to my world when I reach consummation.” In the meantime, I begged Master to strengthen me and for new opportunities to fulfill my mission as a Falun Dafa disciple. Fellow practitioners also studied the Fa with me and sent forth righteous thoughts for me. We felt strong energy while sending forth righteous thoughts. We felt as if merged into a field of comforting energy, even when there were only two of us. 

I had a strong feeling that Master was with me and was guiding me. The only way to not let him down was to solidly cultivate myself. I stopped relying on fellow practitioners and started to seriously cultivate myself. I paid close attention to my cultivation state instead of the appearance of false sickness. My symptoms gradually disappeared as I improved my xinxing. 

To summarize, my incorrect state had invited this trouble. I had allowed fear to gain the upper hand at the beginning. When you follow ordinary ways of thinking, you are an ordinary person. However, you are a divine being if you can break through the human mindset and view things from the perspective of the Fa. That is the dividing line between a human and the divine. 

Many imprisoned fellow practitioners have denied the persecution with their righteous thoughts, but many of us at home have relaxed ourselves and given into our attachment to comfort, which has left a loophole for the old forces to take advantage of.

Master told us,

“The old forces have been using the situation to do harm. You might be rather shocked by what I just said a moment ago. But, I said that because I’ve found that the old forces are using this situation to persecute our practitioners. When the old forces use this… As I said earlier, the wicked, low entities—and that includes low-level old forces—are truly evil. They don’t want you to succeed at cultivation, and want to persecute the life out of you.” (“2018 Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C.”) 

Cultivation is the most serious matter. We have to maintain righteous thoughts and cultivate as diligently as if we just started. 

Thank you, fellow practitioners! Please feel free to point out anything inappropriate.