(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1998, and I have persisted to this day with Master’s blessing and protection. I would like to share my recent sickness karma experience.
Police arrested me because of my belief in 2019. I was detained in a detention center. One day, my systolic blood pressure was as high as 198, and my heartbeat was very fast. Because of my firm belief in Master and the Fa, I was released from the detention center after 15 days. But after that, my heartbeat remained abnormal – sometimes fast and sometimes slow.
Recently, I felt weak, my heart palpated, and sometimes I even felt as if I was going to die. One day when I was doing the second exercise, my heartbeat suddenly became fast and beat vigorously. I felt terrible, so I shouted in my mind, “Master, save me!” Then the heartbeat slowed down.
After finishing the exercises, I thought, “Why is it always like this?” I recalled that when sharing experiences with another practitioner, he mentioned that I always brought up my feelings. I wondered, why do I always mention feelings? Why can’t I understand the Fa rationally? How can I improve?”
“First, I’m a Dafa disciple, and I have no sickness; second, with Master’s protection, the evil entities can’t touch me,” I thought. “So what’s left? That’s a fake, nothing, just for me to improve xinxing.” Once I had reasoned it out in my mind like this, I immediately relaxed. It was truly just one righteous thought.
Master taught us,
“A true practitioner will look at things from a higher plane, rather than through a human lens.” (The Sixth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
“And so you will not be able to progress to higher levels of existence, or attainment, if they do not agree to it. Their reason would be that your character has not grown sufficiently. There is a standard for each level of existence, and you must meet it—by ridding yourself of bad thoughts and intentions and whatever is unclean in you—if you are to go there.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I realized that my different unpleasant feelings in the past were actually from ordinary human thinking, which did not meet the standards of Dafa disciples’ xinxing. So, the evil entities took advantage of this. The worse I felt, the worse it got. That was when I enlightened that those feelings were not mine. I didn’t want them and got rid of them. Then, everything went back to normal.
Given this incident, I realized that if Dafa disciples can truly regard themselves as cultivators, and believe that Dafa disciples have no sickness, all the manifestations of sickness karma are illusions. As long as we maintain righteous minds and completely deny the illusions, they do not exist and thus cannot affect us. Therefore, it is ultimately a matter of believing in Master and the Fa, and it is a matter of the cultivator’s xinxing.
So, I think that when faced with these illusions of sickness karma, one must improve one's xinxing.
Since I saw that many practitioners are suffering from sickness karma, I shared my personal experience in the hopes that it can be helpful to practitioners suffering from sickness karma. I would also like to thank my fellow practitioners, who often shared with me. In addition, the articles on the Minghui website enabled me to improve my rational understanding of the Fa and helped me to understand the issue. I am also grateful to Master for his compassionate care and blessings. In the future, I will definitely be more diligent in cultivation so that I will reach consummation.
Editor’s note: This article only represents the author’s current understanding meant for sharing among practitioners so that we can “Compare in studying, compare in cultivating.” (“Solid Cultivation,” Hong Yin)