(Minghui.org) The company my husband worked for went bankrupt soon after our daughter was born, and my husband couldn’t find another job. He sighed and complained all day long and became irritable. He sometimes even got into fights.
One day, he broke his arm after getting into a fight with someone. The police blamed my husband for starting the fight. My husband filed a lawsuit. Eventually he not only devoted himself to the lawsuit, but also filed lawsuits on behalf of his relatives and friends who were wronged. Because of his involvement in his sister’s lawsuit, he was retaliated against and was beaten so severely that he broke his leg. The police ignored his report. He had to pay the medical bill out of his own pocket. Without a penny of income, he couldn’t contribute anything to our family and entered a stalemate in several lawsuits.
I had to shoulder the responsibility of making money, raising our daughter, taking care of my in-laws, as well as the cost of my husband’s fights, lawsuits, etc. All my money seemed to be sucked into a black hole. Besides my day job, I worked a second job selling products, in order to make ends meet. My strength eventually fell short. With tears streaming down my face, I begged my husband not to continue like this because I couldn’t bear it any longer. However, he insulted me every time. Once I had a mental collapse, grabbed a knife, and tried to fight him. My mother-in-law held me back.
I turned to Buddhism to deal with my frustrations. I begged monks to dissolve my grievances against my husband, but it didn’t work. I diverted all my affection to my daughter, but it couldn’t ease my pain. I desperately worked to make more money, hoping to counter my agony with more income.
I finally realized one day that my health was deteriorating. I shivered in the cold and suffered severe pain in my stomach. The pain spread to my back. I couldn’t sit or stand, and didn’t even have the strength to make my bed. Doctors couldn’t find what was wrong. The pain was gone for a while, and then came back soon afterwards. Looking in the mirror one morning, I noticed that my skin was dark and rough, with many black spots! Good heavens! Was this me? My skin used to be fair and smooth. I was overwhelmed with despair. I wanted to end it all, even though I was only 26!
I quietly prepared to commit suicide. My daughter hadn’t reached kindergarten age. I tried to let her spend more time with her grandparents, so that they would get used to taking care of her after I died. My mother doesn’t have any income. I bought a life insurance policy with my mother as my beneficiary.
I made all the preparations. However, just before I decided to go through with it, one of my mother-in-law’s friends told her about the amazing health benefits of Falun Gong (also called Falun Dafa). My mother-in-law was deeply worried about me at that time. She immediately gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun and told me to read it.
I read the book with doubt in my mind, but found that my confusions about Buddhism were clearly answered by the book. I had a strong feeling that this was my salvation. I learned that everything has a predestined relationship and people should look within to find the cause. I read the book over and over and learned more and more. My notions gradually changed, and I found more peace in my family. Even my husband seemed to have calmed down. I was most amazed to find my stomach and back pain gone, and the dark spots on my face became lighter and lighter, and eventually vanished! My bad breath disappeared too. My skin looked fair and radiant again!
Master wrote,
“A wicked person is born of jealousy.Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion.With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.An enlightened person has no attachments at all.He quietly observes the people of the world deluded by illusions.”(“Realms,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
I decided to eliminate all the elements in my heart related to selfishness and anger, and to stop complaining about my fate and my husband. I wanted to treat others with understanding and compassion. This is the first thing I learned from the principles of Falun Gong.
I was reborn through my cultivation. My family benefited from Falun Gong, too. One day, my daughter had an accident in kindergarten and burned her hand. I didn’t blame her teachers, but showed them appreciation for their first aid. My daughter’s hand recovered quickly.
One day, a tractor ran over my daughter’s foot while she was crossing the street, but her foot was fine. She came home and told me what happened. We knew that Master protected her.
I happened to pass through Wuhan on a business trip in early 2020, when news of the pandemic was still being covered up by the Chinese Communist Party. Many passengers got on my train at the Wuhan stop. After I got home, I had a fever, cough, chest pain, and terrible leg pain. I felt so cold that I shivered, even though I wrapped myself in a thick blanket. I did the meditation for one hour, and recited Master’s teaching. After about two hours, I felt perfectly fine. I later realized that I was fighting Covid, but Master got rid of it for me.
Many things like this have happened to me. The Chinese Communist Party has poisoned people with its lies about Falun Gong. So many people have been deceived and missed the opportunity to cultivate. Every Falun Gong practitioner is risking his or her life to validate the Fa. Their only wish is to help more people benefit from Dafa and find eternal happiness!