(Minghui.org) I have cultivated Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. Before cultivation, I suffered from multiple illnesses and experienced no joy in life. Cultivating Falun Dafa gave me a second life. I also came to understand that the true meaning of life is to return to one's true origin.
I cherish the opportunity to cultivate Dafa and will persist until completion, no matter what difficulties I have to go through. I will fulfill my predestined mission and go home following Master (Falun Dafa's founder).
I liked to read novels ever since I was a child. Whether they were ancient or modern, Chinese or foreign, I read them all. I kept reading until I was in my 40s. As I got older, I became sick with multiple illnesses and my vision became blurred. I would have a severe headache when I read.
At age 45, I started cultivating Dafa.
Upon starting cultivation, I stopped reading novels since I came to understand that human sentimentality and desires are all attachments to be cultivated away.
I cultivated alone and was prone to boredom. Between reading the Fa and telling people about Falun Dafa, I often could not control myself and watched TV dramas. Once I had a dream, where I slid down a mountain like I was on an escalator. Upon waking from this dream, I dared not watch TV dramas again.
I knew I had strong attachments in this respect and wanted to discard them. So, fellow practitioners and I formed a Fa-study group in my home, which helped me stay on track with cultivation. We studied the Fa and shared our experiences together. In this cultivation environment, I read and memorized the Fa whenever I had time.
I was also actively involved in going out with fellow practitioners to tell people about Falun Dafa. With Master’s help and protection, I went through many difficulties, rejected the evil’s interference, and dissolved a dangerous situation with righteous thoughts. I experienced Master’s compassionate help and protection.
Once, fellow practitioners and I went to an annual exhibition to tell people about Dafa. There were many people at the exhibition, and I distributed many desk calendars with information about Dafa.
Probably because I developed zealotry, the evil tried to take advantage of my insufficiencies to interfere with me. When I handed a calendar to someone, he told me that he already had one.
When I turned around, I saw four policemen staring at me nearby. I knew that I was being followed. I kept calm, asked Master for help in my mind, and sent righteous thoughts. I then turned around and went to leave the scene.
As soon as I turned around, I felt as if someone pushed me and in the blink of an eye, I turned up in a store. Then, a few policemen hurriedly passed by in front of me.
I walked out of the store calmly and walked down floor by floor at a steady pace. On the way I kept telling people I met about Falun Dafa and the persecution, and advised several of them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
The practitioners at the scene got very anxious when they saw the policemen were after me. Together with other practitioners they went to my home. When they saw that I was safe at home drinking yogurt, they all felt relieved. We all thanked Master for protecting us. It was a really startling experience!
Cultivation is serious. Since I had a mentality of seeking comfort and a strong attachment to TV shows, the old forces took advantage of my insufficiency and persecuted me; they made me fall and interfered with my cultivation.
In 2018, my daughter and son-in-law installed internet TV for me and told me that I could watch TV shows for free. This trapped me again! When I was home with some free time, I would turn on the TV, first with the excuse of checking the weather forecast. Then I would continue to watch TV shows, thinking of watching for just a short while to relax.
However, as soon as I started watching, I would feel so relaxed and comfortable that I could not stop. I would watch for several hours, or sometimes, even for more than a dozen hours. I knew that I shouldn’t be addicted to watching TV and that it was an attachment. However, because I relaxed myself in cultivation, I could not disengage from watching TV.
Finally, one day in June 2020, the old forces persecuted me. That day, while sitting on a stool of less than a foot tall and watching TV, I suddenly fell to the ground as if someone struck me down from a high place. I felt a sharp pain from my shoulder blade to the bone below my right chest. It was so painful that I felt as if my heart and lungs were torn apart!
I suddenly realized, “Isn’t this tribulation brought upon me by the attachment?!” In pain, I hurriedly said to Master in my mind, “Master, I was wrong! I was wrong!”
At that moment, I also had a strong desire to sleep. However, I somehow thought that I should not fall asleep and that I had to stay awake! I immediately sat in the lotus position and meditated. After the meditation, I checked for my injuries.
My whole body hurt. My right hand and arm could move, but my hand could not bend backward. I felt strange and thought, “Why did I fall so hard while sitting on such a short stool? It must have been brought upon me by my attachment.”
I felt extreme regret in my mind for not being able to discard the attachment for such a long time, which caused me to have such a big fall in cultivation. I suffered the unbearable pain for more than a month.
Master taught us:
“I’d like to give you my take on what people normally refer to as “addiction.” In the medical sciences it’s believed that addiction occurs when the part of the nervous system associated with addictive behaviors is stimulated and develops to a sufficient degree. But that’s not it. What’s happening, then? Over time, that addictive substance accumulates, and forms inside of your body an identical version of you that comes to control you. Because it is composed of strong attachment, and has your appearance, it has an equally strong desire to control you; it was formed out of strong desires, after all.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference”)
I had wanted to get rid of this attachment for a long time, and fellow practitioners often reminded me. I also tried many times but kept failing. I even looked down upon myself for continuing to fail at discarding the attachment. Through learning Master’s Fa, I came to understand that I was controlled by those low-level spirits. I was in a dangerous situation!
I learned my lesson through this tribulation. I eliminated the evil spirit’s interference, discarded this attachment, and stopped watching TV.
I paid a heavy price for this unforgettable lesson.
“You will be made to abandon all those attachments that cannot be given up among everyday people. As long as you have them, all of those attachments must be removed in different environments. You will be made to stumble, whereby you will become enlightened to the Tao. This is how one goes through cultivation practice.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
After this tribulation, I followed Master’s teaching and kept looking inside for shortcomings. I compared my thoughts and deeds with the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
When I find an attachment, I immediately cultivate it away, as I know there is not much time left. I will read the Fa more diligently, get rid of attachments and improve my character in cultivation.
And I will do the three things with greater effort. I will cherish the opportunity of cultivating Dafa, cherish sentient beings, and live up to Master’s compassionate salvation. I will complete the sacred mission of saving sentient beings and go home with Master!
The above sharing is my personal understanding. If there is something not in line with the Fa, please kindly correct me.