(Minghui.org) An officer from my local community center called me on a Friday in late May this year. She told me to go sign an agreement at the judicial department of the local neighborhood administration office. When I asked what the agreement was about, she said she didn’t know, but that it was a good thing because I would not be under surveillance once I signed it.
Though she didn’t tell me, I knew that they wanted me to sign the three statements as part of their “Zero-Out” campaign, in which every practitioner on the government blacklist is pressured to renounce their belief. My first thought was that I should take this opportunity to clarify the truth about Falun Gong. Specifically, I would not have the chance to see the head of the judicial department if this opportunity had not been offered to me.
But my fear gradually got the better of me after I hung up. Why were the other practitioners just told to go see the community center officers or the officers came to see them, but I was told to see the head of the judicial department? Was it because those practitioners didn’t sign and, in order to meet their quota, the officials were trying to deceive me into signing?
I would definitely not sign any such statements, but I would definitely go see them to clarify the truth.
Master Li (the founder of Falun Dafa) said:
“Wherever there's a problem, that is where you need to clarify the truth and save people.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. II)
I felt that I shouldn’t wait for them to see me because the head of the judicial department would not come to me. He would send his staff members to see me instead. He had much fewer opportunities to listen to practitioners’ truth-clarification in person. I knew that I should take this opportunity to let him know the truth.
I looked within and asked myself why I experienced more pressure than other practitioners. The reason was that I’d failed the same test again and again and the old forces took advantage of my loopholes.
I gave up cultivation after I was persecuted in 1999. I was discouraged and frustrated. So I started to read novels online for comfort. I read a lot of novels and developed a lot of thought karma. After I picked up Falun Dafa again, I came across a lot of interference from thought karma. Because my main consciousness was not strong, my attachment to comfort and the thought karma controlled me and pushed me to read those novels again.
I didn’t study the Fa, practice the exercises, send righteous thoughts and clarify the truth. I wasted a lot of precious time. Thanks to Master’s hints, I then cultivated diligently for some time. But, when bothered by thought karma I started to read novels again.
Every time I was awakened, I regretted it and cried in front of Master’s photo. But, then I made the same mistake again. I was arrested twice for distributing truth-clarification materials. The old forces took advantage of my mistakes.
On Saturday, the day after I received the call, I shared with another practitioner about my situation. She said, “The officers in the judicial department are actually police officers. Maybe you shouldn’t go if your heart is not firm.”
I told her that I wanted to save the head of the judicial department. “Then you should go,” she said, “you shouldn’t have had those concerns. Don’t always think that you will be persecuted. What time will you go on Monday? I will send righteous thoughts for you.” I became less scared at her home.
The thought of officers in the judicial department being police officers lingered in my mind after I returned home. My fear became stronger and covered up my righteous thoughts.
Finally I thought to myself, “I don’t cultivate diligently and I have big omissions. The evil in other dimensions might persecute me. I’d better ask for the phone number from the community center and call the head of the judicial department.”
I practiced the exercises on Sunday morning. I felt the elements of fear in my dimensional field disappear. I felt calm when I thought of clarifying the truth to the department head. I had no fear. I realized that Master had removed the fear for me, and encouraged me to clarify the truth in person.
I thought: when my fear rose, I wanted to take a detour, and thought that making a phone call was safer than talking to him in person. I wanted to protect myself. This was selfish. Clarifying the truth in person could have a better result than making a phone call. He is waiting for the truth. I must go.
I had an unrighteous thought before I left home on Monday morning. I prepared in case I might be arrested. I changed to my casual clothes and flat shoes. I sent a message to my husband: “I decided to go and will call you before 12 p.m.” Even so, seeing my heart to save people, our compassionate Master was still looking after me. I felt calm and serene.
On my way to the judicial department, I felt a bit relieved because two groups of practitioners were sending forth righteous thoughts for me. We formed a whole body and the energy and the power was huge.
I thought I would be all right because Master was protecting me. But on second thought, I was seeking Master’s protection, which was not righteous. It was selfish. I shouldn’t imagine the result. I should let Master arrange things for me.
When I arrived at the building, I noticed a man standing at the entrance. He was over 6 feet tall and had a strong and fierce look (later on I realized that because I had fear in my heart, I thought he looked fierce). I knocked on the door of the judicial department but no one answered. I asked the receptionist, who said that the man at the entrance was the one I was looking for, and he must have gone somewhere.
I felt fear again. Since he was not there, it might mean that I shouldn’t have come, and Master would let me return home. I instantly rejected this thought. This was not a righteous thought. This was not what Master wanted.
I sat on the sofa in the lobby and sent forth righteous thoughts. He came back after 10 minutes. I followed him into his office. I asked him some questions first and then talked to him about Falun Dafa, the persecution, and the importance of distancing oneself from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). I’d carefully thought about what I should say the night before. During the whole process, I was polite and respectful. I paid much attention to his feedback. I avoided using words that might provoke him. I was calm and spoke slowly and softly.
There was some interference while I was talking. His office phone and his mobile rang quite a few times. He answered the landline briefly but didn’t pick up his mobile phone. One of his employees came into the office twice and he asked him to leave. He seemed more interested in listening to my talk. I talked for an hour. He understood and agreed to withdraw his membership in the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
I was amazed. Thank you, Master, for your compassion. Thank you, fellow practitioners, for sending forth righteous thoughts and helping me. Master has paved the way and is waiting for practitioners to save sentient beings with righteous thoughts.