(Minghui.org) With the outbreak of Covid19 in 2020, there was lock-down placed in every province. People had no choice but to stay at home. In order to kill time, many people had nothing better to do but watch television. For the same reason, I took out the truth-clarification USB drive given to me by another practitioner and put it into my computer.
After I opened it, I clicked on the movie titled “Coming for You.” When I saw the footage of the Lord Buddha leading gods to come down to the human world for saving all sentient beings, a sudden heat wave rushed into my brain. I suddenly became teary-eyed and felt extremely sad. Then I cried for the entire day. I knew it was Master waking me up since I was lost among ordinary people.
My hometown is in Hebei province. In summer 1995, my mother dragged me along to watch a qigong video, which was organized by people from another village. They also did an exercise demonstration.
I remembered when I first learned the fifth exercise, I could sit for half an hour. When I did the sitting meditation, I saw a big eye in front of me, which was the celestial eye that Master opened up for his disciples. In my dream, I also saw golden flowers falling on me. From that time on I felt Dafa’s preciousness and beauty.
I had just graduated from junior high school. I had to attend school in another city. When moving there I took Zhuan Falun with me. I planned to use my spare time to study the Fa. But, since I was too attached to enjoying myself, I didn’t treat Fa-study very seriously, but ended up wasting my time during the three years in that school.
After I graduated, I experienced the beginning of the persecution of Falun Gong, which was launched on July 20, 1999. The depraved people slandered Falun Gong. Because I didn’t take Fa-study very seriously, my enlightenment quality was poor. I also had concerns about this cultivation practice.
Not until August 2003, when my mother was arrested by people from the 610 Office, did I come to realize that it was because of my many loopholes that she was arrested.
My mother told me that the environment at the brainwashing center where she was held was terrible. They force-fed practitioners and deprived them of sleep. When they saw practitioners doing the exercises, they tortured them. There were also evil people trying to “transform” practitioners daily.
However, given my mother’s faith in Dafa, she quickly changed the environment. As a result, evil people stopped force-feeding practitioners, as well as swearing at and beating practitioners. Practitioners could read Falun Dafa books and do the sitting meditation. In addition, those who were responsible for “transforming” practitioners have changed their attitudes for the better. That month, my mother had a breakthrough and was released. I knew it was my mother’s steadfast righteous thoughts and compassion that changed the environment. The power of Dafa is truly tremendous!
After I got married and had my own family, all sorts of trivial things trapped me in ordinary people’s sentimentality. My husband and I always fought with each other. Our frequent fights, my competitive mentality, resentment and other attachments made me gradually forget that I was a practitioner.
My mother was also impacted by our behavior. She felt pain for the life I was leading. Later, she passed away due to serious illness karma. I was very sad. Without my mother to depend on, life still needed to carry on, so I borrowed money to open up a small store. After being in business for three years, with my business going well, I bought a house and car. After that, I immersed myself in fame, self-interest and sentimentality, forgetting all about my cultivation in Dafa.
Not until the Covid19 disaster was I forced to stay at home. This gave me the opportunity to watch what was on the truth-clarification USB drive. I finally woke up and began to understand the importance of the Fa and urgency of our cultivation. Our practitioners shoulder such an important mission! Yet, I got lost in ordinary people’s big dye vat. When I thought about how I let Master and Dafa down, I felt extremely regretful!
One time, Master’s Fa enlightened me,
“Virtue can be transformed into gong and is one of the things that determine a person’s cultivation level and Attainment Status. If someone only seeks good fortune in human society, then he can exchange this thing with others for money and material possessions.” (“Teaching the Fa and Answering Questions in Guangzhou,” Zhuan Falun Fajie - The Law of Zhuan Falun Explained)
It has been more than 20 years since I was introduced to Falun Dafa. Before that, I converted the fortune of obtaining Dafa into ordinary people’s good fortune. Because I pursued ordinary people’s fortune and leisure, I forgot about the great historical vow that I signed with Master before coming down to this world. I forgot that I was a Dafa practitioner. I didn’t know a practitioner’s virtue was supposed to transform into gong, and in our cultivation to improve our levels until we reach consummation and return to our heavenly world. Looking at myself, I felt my enlightenment quality was so poor.
I couldn’t be this confused anymore, otherwise I’d lose this extremely precious opportunity, I had to quickly catch up. With the help of practitioners from my hometown, I found our local Fa-study group. Then, I joined them once a week and studied the Fa at home for the rest of the time. In my store, I clarified the facts to customers face to face as they had a predestined relationship with me, and gave them an amulet.
One time, I organized an event and invited more than 30 customers. I rented a minibus for that. I thought: For whoever came, they were people with predestined relationships with me. I must have them understand the truth and be saved. Thus, I walked to the front of the bus and stood right by the driver. I said, “I truly appreciated that all of you attended this activity. For us to meet is due to our predestined relationship. Therefore, I will share the phrase with everyone that will bring you good fortune - 'Falun Dafa is wonderful! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is wonderful!' When you often recite it, you’ll ensure your safety and receive good fortune!”
Sometimes when people had questions, I told them about the staged “self-immolation incident”, as well as the fact that Heaven will eliminate the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Since I only had a few copies of informational materials with me, I only gave them to customers who had questions. I suggested that they read them later. Before I got off the bus, I happened to have an amulet in my purse and decided to give it to the driver. He kept saying, “Thank you! Thank you!”
Seeing how so many beings learned the truth and had smiles on their faces, I felt grateful for Master’s compassion. It was Master who saw my wish that I wanted to awaken people's consciences and save them. Master gave me the courage to face more than 30 people and talk to them about Falun Dafa. Thank you Master.
Then, because of the pandemic, there were only a few customers coming to my store. I then got other practitioners to print informational brochures, and I went to the residential areas to distribute them. I went from the top to the bottom in every apartment building, and covered every household on each floor no matter how hot it was, and I ended up sweating a lot. I wanted to assist Master in the Fa-rectification, save more sentient beings, and accomplish my mission, I always felt wonderful. Being immersed in the Fa, the “hardship” was gone! I kept doing the three things every day. I understood that if one thing didn’t get done well, the other things would be impacted.
A few times in my dream, I was taking an exam. It turned out to be either I didn’t know the answer, or even though I knew the answer, I had trouble putting it down. When it came to submitting the exam paper, I was so worried that I cried in my dream. I enlightened that this was because I lacked diligent Fa-study, or I didn’t take to heart what I read during Fa-study. Although I was clear in my mind, I was still too relaxed to follow the Fa-principles in my actions, so Master enlightened me this way.
I was also grateful for practitioners who have provided me with all kinds of informational materials. Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners!
Due to my limited level, fellow practitioners, please kindly point out anything inappropriate. Heshi!