(Minghui.org) Master said:
“You put in the effort and your teacher will handle the rest.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
During my cultivation, I profoundly experienced what Master Li, the founder of Falun Dafa, said in the teaching above. Below are several examples.
This happened four years ago when my daughter-in-law took my granddaughter back to her mother’s house for a few days. One night after 9 p.m., she called and asked me to make some fried chicken wings for her family. She said that my son would bring the wings to them when he visited them the next day. There was only one bag of chicken wings in the refrigerator, and the store was already closed. Since the wings took more than 10 hours to marinate, it would be too late to buy more the next day. So I had to make wings for her large family from this one bag.
The next day after frying the chicken wings, I looked at the tempting wings, and thought, “I worked on these for a long time. They will have all the chicken wings, and I won’t get even a bite? No, I have to eat one.” At that time I did not realize that I already had jealousy.
I picked up a wing with chopsticks, then thought, “There isn't enough for her family already; if I eat one, won’t there be even less? I’d better not eat it.” So I put it back.
I was still upset and thought, “I have to eat one.” I picked one up again, then realized, “What am I doing here? Am I so greedy? Why am I so attached? Let it go.” I uttered, “Don’t eat it!” and hurriedly put the chicken wing back and sealed the container.
As I was standing in the kitchen after my son left with the wings, an amazing scene appeared: Emanating from my chest, a bright and spacious window as big as a wall opened up, and I was jumping out of this window. I shouted, “Master, this is my jealousy. I will let it go! I have let go of it!” I was so excited. I can’t find words to describe how bright my mind was. This state lasted for three or four minutes.
An older woman in her 90s lives upstairs from me. Her son is a fellow practitioner, and he often comes to stay with his mother at night.
One night last spring, when several of us were preparing to study the Fa, her son came down to talk to my husband. So we invited him to join our group Fa study.
When he read the Fa, he read precisely and spoke at an even pace. I could easily calm down when it was his turn to read. After we finished reading together, he shared some good cultivation experiences of improving his xinxing.
As he came more often and we talked more about cultivation, I gradually and unconsciously developed a feeling of admiration for him. For example, I felt he had passed his xinxing tests well, he had a good understanding of cultivation, he treated his wife well, he could do the sitting meditation for a long time, and so on. Sometimes when I heard him coming out of his mother’s home in the morning, I’d open my door and let him in and chat for 10 to 20 minutes in the kitchen. I did this off and on for more than a month.
One morning when I heard him close the door of his mother’s home, I wanted to open my door and chat with him again. Suddenly I realized: “My always wanting to talk to him delays him from doing his business. And I am always praising him for his good cultivation state. However, if he develops zealotry, won’t it do him harm?”
“It is the presence of emotion, as people simply live for it. There is love for family members, romantic love, love towards parents, emotions associated with relationships, and the affection that goes with friendship. People act for the sake of emotional bonds, and emotion follows you everywhere you go. Everything human about this world stems from emotion, from likes to dislikes, from joys to sorrows, love to hate. And so you will have problems in spiritual practice if you don’t manage to free yourself of it.” (The Fourth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
Thinking of Master’s Fa, I took my hand off the doorknob and said, “Master, I have to let go of this emotion. I don’t want it.” As soon as the words left my mouth, I felt a large mass of gray matter, as big as a soccer ball, come out of the left side of my chest and fall to the ground. Then it disappeared. From that time on, I had no more emotion or thoughts about this practitioner.
My sister-in-law’s son got married last March. The day before the wedding, her friends and I went to help her with the preparations. My sister-in-law kept complaining about another relative even though others told her to stop. I wondered why she kept complaining.
I realized that it wasn’t a coincidence that I saw this situation. I asked myself, could it be because I also have complaints about someone? I looked inward and realized that I indeed had complaints about my daughter-in-law. When my daughter-in-law gave birth to my granddaughter, her mother came to my house and said she’d take care of her daughter’s postpartum confinement. But she didn’t do any of the work. I had to cook all the meals every day, and I had to cook a separate meal for my daughter-in-law. My daughter-in-law’s mother and sister stayed at my house for 100 days. When I think about it, at times I still resent them for all the things they did.
I said in my mind, “Master, I have to let go of my resentment for my in-laws.” At this point, my sister-in-law also stopped talking about her relative.
The next day, when I was doing the Falun Standing Stance exercise, my hands lifted up on their own along with the exercise mechanism. When I was sending righteous thoughts at midnight, there was a small Falun that jutted out from my left side to the celestial eye area and kept rotating there. Several other Falun were swishing around my head from left to right and from right to left. I think this was probably Master helping me to clear my resentment for my in-laws.
Words cannot express my gratitude to Master. I will repay Master’s grand mercy with my actions. I will let go of all my attachments, cultivate myself well, save more people, and follow Master to return to my true home.