(Minghui.org) I had a quick temper and lacked a woman’s gentleness. Running our business with my husband, I felt I had to be “strong”. I argued with the customers in our store and fought with him at home. The constant verbal and physical fights at home left me deeply scarred. I was also very antagonistic towards my husband’s parents and younger brother. The favoritism my husband’s parents had towards their younger son made me angry and bitter and I blamed my husband for being a weakling. I felt as if his entire family was against me.
In 1997 my husband’s friend told him about Falun Dafa and he began to practice. He stopped arguing with me and stopped talking back whenever I scolded him. I was not sure about Dafa at first but after seeing the positive changes in my husband, I thought, “I’m going to take a look at that book!”
I finally read Zhuan Falun during the winter of 1998. It took my breath away. The spiritual discipline and moral principles expounded in the book resonated strongly with me. I learned how to conduct myself and as a result my relationship with my in-laws improved greatly.
Unfortunately, the persecution of Falun Dafa began in 1999 and everything changed. Preoccupied with our business, and afraid that we’d be targeted for persecution, we slacked off with our Fa study and doing the exercises. Our faith in Dafa slowly weakened. I slipped right back into being an ordinary person and started fighting again with my husband and my in-laws.
January 16, 2005, is a special day for my husband and me because we resumed practicing Dafa, thanks to compassionate Master’s arrangements.
Not long after, I had three dreams. In the first two dreams, I went to a school where Master was lecturing to a class. But, a locked gate prevented me from entering. In my third dream, I arrived extra early for the class and managed to find a seat. There were still many empty seats when Master arrived. Master looked at me, smiled, and started his lecture. I was so happy that I woke from the dream, smiling. I believed the dreams were hints that I was being introduced to Falun Dafa in 1998. However, my real cultivation journey was about to begin.
One day my husband and I rode his motorbike to another practitioner’s place for Fa- study and to exchange cultivation experiences. On the ride back home, while sending righteous thoughts I saw a wonderful vision of heavenly maidens casting flowers.
“Then, at what level do I open your celestial eye? I will open your celestial eye directly at the level of Wisdom Eyesight. If it were opened at a higher level, your xinxing would not be adequate. If it were opened at a lower level, it would severely disturb the state of ordinary human society. With Wisdom Eyesight, you do not have the ability to see things through a wall or see through a human body, but you can see the scenes existing in other dimensions. What benefits does this have? It can enhance your confidence in the practice. When you indeed see something that everyday people cannot see, you will think that it certainly exists.”(Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
When my mind became tranquil while sending righteous thoughts I could sometimes see into other dimensions.
After I resumed practicing, I apologized to my husband’s parents. “Dad, Mom, I now practice Falun Dafa. I will act in accordance with the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. I will be kind and benevolent towards everyone and will first look within myself if I come across any conflicts. I will do my best to look after you from now on.”
They were really touched by my sincerity, and my father-in-law said, “That’s great!” His opinion of me completely changed. He could not stand me before, but now he’s like a doting father.
“Of course, while cultivating in ordinary human society, we should be good to our parents and look after our children. Under all circumstances, we must be good and kind to others, not to mention to our family members. We should treat everyone in the same way. We must be good to our parents and children and be considerate of others in all respects. Such a heart is thus unselfish, and it is a heart of kindness and benevolence—it is compassion.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
A few years ago, my husband’s younger brother lost money in a business venture. His parents paid off his 200,000 yuan debt and on top of that gave him another 100,000 to start another business. My husband and I did not have any complaints.
I looked after my mother-in-law when she was hospitalized three times in one year, mainly due to stress over my brother-in-law’s financial troubles. He did not even phone them once during that time. It really broke their hearts. All I could do was to console them and say that perhaps he was very busy with his business.
My mother-in-law said, “Surely he’s not too busy to make a phone call? He always had time when he wanted money! I have had it with him. You’ve never received one single cent from me but now you look after me when I’m ill.” She was happy when I told her, “Mom, I’m a Dafa practitioner, it’s only right that I take care of you.” Now my husband’s parents discuss their matters with me, and they trust me. I have also gained my brother-in-law’s respect.
Before I began practicing, I had tinea on my neck which was cured using a home remedy. After I started practicing Dafa, a few spots of rash appeared on the back of my neck. They were very itchy and my constant scratching caused the rash to spread and bleed. I usually scratched in my sleep and sometimes the itchiness woke me up. I tried stopping myself from scratching by wearing cotton gloves. The condition finally became unbearable. At first I thought my body was being cleansed with Master pushing my karma to the surface layer of my body, so I continued to put up with it. However, due to my lack of understanding of the Fa, the condition persisted. In the end, I had to resort to conventional treatment to get rid of it.
About two years ago, the tinea re-surfaced. An alarm bell rang for me this time - nothing happens by chance – it must be an opportunity for me to prove my faith in Master and Dafa. The first thing I did was to study the Fa and then I searched hard within myself. I discovered many attachments including a quick temper, impatience, a combative mentality, jealousy, dissatisfaction, showing off, a forceful personality, recognition-seeking and so on.
My husband and I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate all evil elements interfering with me. My condition improved for a little while but soon relapsed. I had this thought, “Sending righteous thoughts does not seem to help. I might as well treat it with conventional means.” I knew immediately that was not right so I canceled that thought in my mind. “That thought did not come from me, it was forced upon me by the old forces. I do not accept any arrangement made by the old forces, not even the itchiness. I will only accept Master’s arrangements for me and deny any other arrangements. Only Master has any authority over me. I have complete faith in Master and Dafa!”
My condition continued to go up and down. My husband said, “Sending righteous thoughts does not seem to help. Is it because you lack faith and instead you’re relying on me?” I replied, “That’s not true. My faith is strong.”
I reminded him of what Master said,
“The old forces wouldn’t venture to directly persecute Dafa disciples at present—none of the larger beings that assume a form would venture to do that. Then what sorts of things are doing that now? Things like worms, bugs, bacteria, and all kinds of foul things like that. Sending righteous thoughts is extremely effective in these cases! They are annihilated in large batches. But there are a lot of them, given how big this cosmos is; and the cosmos consists of many layers. So after you have wiped these things out, shortly after, before long, they might infiltrate again, and you need to eliminate them again. So you need to keep sending righteous thoughts like this, and persist with it for some time, before you will see obvious results. Don’t lose confidence just because, after feeling good following a while of sending righteous thoughts, things don’t seem to go well again. I can tell you that they are using this approach to wear you down—to whittle away at your strong sense of conviction. So you need to be alert to these things.” (Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference)
My husband said, “Well, we will persevere with sending righteous thoughts until your condition goes away.”
We persevered for more than a year. My tinea went away and this time for good, all thanks to Master’s support and encouragement.