(Minghui.org) I just graduated from high school this year and finished the college entrance examination. I would like to tell you about my experiences.
People feel that the high school years are one of the hardest periods in one’s life. The college entrance exam is very challenging and in China it feels like a life and death struggle to get into a good university. As a Falun Dafa practitioner my focus is on studying the Fa; therefore, I felt that high school was easy. I did not compete like other students. During the college entrance examination, I was very calm and relaxed. In the end I achieved the highest score.
When I started attending high school, it was very difficult to study the Fa because I was in a boarding school. At the beginning, I brought a small copy of Zhuan Falun. Later, I changed to a smart mobile phone and I read the on-line version (the screen is only about two inches). Because the school forbade mobile phones, I could only read at night with a quilt covering my head.
I started out by reading one section of a lecture each day, and then two. Finally I was able to read one lecture a day. When I went home on Saturday and Sunday, I was able to read two lectures. In this way I read Zhuan Falun each week. By the end of my time in high school, I read all of Master’s lectures twice. During my first two years, my mother (also a practitioner) could not see me because of the persecution. I was also unable to contact other practitioners. I basically practiced alone.
Because the school did not allow us to use a mobile phone, and the dormitory was always monitored, I had to hide my smart phone. When I finally saw my Mom she bought me a smart watch which functioned like a mobile phone. I wear it on my wrist and I can read e-books. I can even study the Fa while I’m in a classroom.
I could now sit upright and show respect to Master and Dafa. At night when I had to lie down, I read experience sharing articles, the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, “The Ultimate Goal of Communism” and so on. This smart watch accompanied me through the rest of my time in high school.
When I was in the third year of high school, everyone was working so hard to learn and they were tired, sleepless and sleepy, and tormented by their scores while I was very relaxed and happy because Dafa was with me.
In my third year of high school I began to memorize Zhuan Falun. I memorized and recited one section each day. Because I was memorizing the Fa, my Fa-study was slower, but I gained a deeper understanding of the lectures. I was able to complete my homework. My grades did not drop and I was usually in the top ten of my class.
I felt that the repetitive studying and competition in school was all part of the Party’s abnormal stuff.
Master said:
“But indeed, the hard work that people put in can only change minor or little things in their lives. And in fact, it is precisely on account of all those efforts to change things that you may have made karma for yourself.” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
While the other students studied the textbooks, I studied the Fa. While the other students socialized and chatted, I studied the Fa. When the others took naps, I studied the Fa.
However, after I took the tests, I fell out of the top ten rank. I realized that this was a test to see whether I would remain firm. I didn’t change, I persisted in studying the Fa.
We took a mock college entrance examination before we took the real one. My scores were not satisfactory.
On the day of the college entrance examination, my mind was very calm. After the test, my mother told me to relax but I said I was not tense.
After the test, the students got the answer sheet and hurried to estimate their scores. I also looked at one question but I found that I did it wrong. Then I realized it was the attachment of pursuit. Everything is destined, so why I didn’t believe?
The scores were published at midnight and one needed to login to a specific system. However, the system server was performing badly. It took a long time to login and I was not anxious. After the scores were published, my classmates compared scores on QQ. I no longer use QQ and I had no desire to compare scores. I didn’t know that I had achieved the highest score until my classmates told me. It truly was as Master said, “One only needs to worry about putting in the effort of practice, and the rest is in the hands of one’s teacher.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
When my thoughts are righteous, Master arranges everything.
However, my score was not high enough to attend the national key university that my mother always wanted me to go to. But Master said:
“...in fact, they might become an attachment if they occupy the mind too much. If it weighs heavily in your thinking it would seem to be an attachment.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Master also said:
“Human beings acquire many notions in this world and are, as a consequence, driven by these notions to pursue what they yearn for.” (“Towards Consummation”, Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I realized that it was best to have no attachment to any university; otherwise it became another attachment. In fact, which universities are good, and which are not, are human notions. I asked myself, “Was I disappointed that I didn’t get into the ideal university? Was I sad? Regretful?” No, I was very happy.
Master said:
“Even if someone were to grasp all of mankind’s knowledge, he would still remain an everyday person.” (“What is Wisdom?”, Essentials for Further Advancement)
Why should I take studying ordinary people’s knowledge so seriously? I’m a cultivator. My focus is on saving people.
Because there is Fa in my heart and I’ve read many articles about truth clarification, I want to tell everyone I know about the persecution. Because my classmates have limited access to the outside world they are somewhat isolated. They just believe what our teachers say, which are stories that glorify the Chinese Communist Party. I always expose the truth and try to help them to think for themselves. My classmates and teachers were surprised by my range of knowledge.
When one teacher said that the national public property (land, minerals, etc.) is owned by all of us in the form of state holdings, I chimed in, “Doesn’t that mean they’re owned by none of us?” The teacher smiled awkwardly and was speechless. He no longer talked about how great the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) is. I also chose the right time to expose the bad things the CCP has done, including the persecution, to my classmates. I shared the Freegate software with them and encouraged them to look for the truth on the Internet themselves.
As Dafa disciples, we are in the leading roles of this play. Everything in ordinary society is there to give us the conditions to save people. When I compare myself to Dafa’s requirements, I have not done enough. I will continue to work hard, not relax, and be brave on the road of cultivation!
Fellow practitioners, please kindly correct anything I’ve said that’s inappropriate.