(Minghui.org) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 2013, and although it has not been a smooth journey, my belief in Dafa has never wavered. I would like to share my cultivation experiences.
I was a person keen on saving face and protecting myself. I also had a bad temper and lots of resentment.
Before I cultivated, I often had conflicts with my husband. He is a businessman and back then he had a bad habit of drinking alcohol and spending half of the money he made on women, eating, and drinking.
Sometimes he wouldn’t come home for several days when on a drinking binge. Once I was so furious I donated his bed covers to a disaster relief site.
He was especially abusive toward me publicly, and I was so angry that I became physically ill as a result. Negative emotions made me slide further down into the lower waves of society.
I was out for revenge, and I became abusive toward him. Now I really regret how I behaved at that time.
I wanted to die but I was afraid of dying. I often thought, "What on earth do people live for?"
I had some contact with religions and some small worldly paths, but I found that they were not what I was looking for. When I felt most desperate, a friend sent me a copy of Zhuan Falun and a few DVD's that explained the facts about Falun Dafa.
When I first saw the banner reading, “The world needs Truthfulness-Compassion- Forbearance,” I was very moved. I felt that these three words were great and that I should read the book.
I read Zhuan Falun three times and I cried each time. After I finished the book and understood it more deeply, I spoke to Master Li’s picture (the founder), thinking in my heart, "Master! I also want to return to my true self.”
Tribulations from Family
My husband and my son were atheists, due to the brainwashing of the Communist Party culture. After I understood the truth, I tried to persuade them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), but they would neither quit nor read the materials I showed them.
Whenever the subject of my learning Dafa came up, they became very angry.
One day before the Chinese New Year I asked my husband to help with the housework and played an audio of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party for him to listen to, but he started to harshly criticize the speaker after 10 minutes and refused to help me. I sent forth righteous thoughts to him, and after a while, he was no longer criticizing.
I invited some practitioners to my home to help explain to my husband how Dafa is a good practice. He then agreed to let me practice and my heart was very light.
But less than half a month later, he wanted a divorce after he got drunk one day. He also tried to shout in public that I practiced Falun Dafa. He cursed me, staggered, and hit his head on the wall; then he rolled around on the floor as if he were killing himself. I told him seriously: “Even if you died I would still practice!”
In the past, I would have tried to stop him when he drank too much, but this time I didn’t do anything. He saw that it didn’t scare me, and then he left in the middle of the night and didn’t come back for a few days.
Staff from his workplace called to try and persuade me not to practice so that my husband would not fight with me. I said firmly, “I am determined to cultivate Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.”
Later he came home as if nothing happened. He even initiated a conversation with me. But not long afterward, he got drunk again and acted out even worse than before. He abused me and threatened me with a knife and that he would jump off the building.
This time I maintained my xinxing very well and didn’t complain. Every morning before he went to work, I intentionally played the Nine Commentaries recording.
This time he did not curse me. The more he listened, the more he felt that it was very true that the CCP is too vicious. Later, he even listened to the Nine Commentaries before going to bed, and he also quit the Communist Party’s Youth League and Young Pioneers groups. He is no longer against my cultivating.
Compared to how my husband behaved, my son reacted more severely. He constantly threatened and frightened me, and even regarded me as an enemy.
Once he tried to take my Dafa books from my room. I stretched out my arms and said sternly, “I would fight to my death with whoever dared to touch my Dafa books!”
He saw that it didn’t scare me, so he left. This incident happened not long after I started to practice Falun Dafa, so I didn’t know that this was a test to see if I was determined.
Master said:
“If this sentimentality is not relinquished, you will be unable to practice cultivation. If you are free from this sentimentality, nobody can affect you. An everyday person’s mind will be unable to sway you. What takes over in its place is benevolence, which is something more noble.” (Zhuan Falun)
Thinking of Master’s Fa, I let go of my worry for my son. Though I let it go, however, I still had some resentment toward him. Maybe Master arranged an opportunity for me to awaken him. One day my son came home, and I stayed in bed and didn’t greet him.
He seldom came home, but this time he said, “Mom, I believe there is reincarnation.” I was inspired and told him not to believe in the communist’s lie of atheism.
Later I played the Nine Commentaries for him, and after he listened, he said, “I need to quit the CCP.”
Helping to Awaken People Is Our Mission
I joined the journey of helping Master to awaken people. Since I started cultivating I didn’t have fear and used all the different ways to let people know the truth, like sending messages, distributing materials, clarifying the truth face to face, etc.
At first, only a few people quit the CCP. Later, I gradually learned how to say and do these things better after hearing the sharing of practitioners and reading more truth-clarifying materials. I was soon able to help more people to quit the CCP.
One day when I distributed desk calendars and tried to persuade people to quit the CCP, 16 people quit in an hour.
The second day I had a dream: I was racing on a bicycle on a freeway, riding very quickly and climbing up a slope, when my bicycle took off from the ground and floated. After I woke up I felt I did the right thing, so Master was encouraging me.
I encountered all sorts of situations while I talked to people about Dafa. Some people were verbally abusive, some tried to report me, some took my picture or a video, and others said, "I would quit if you gave me 20,000 yuan.”
My heart was not moved when I met such situations, and I felt they were very pitiful. One person even called me names.
I said to him, "Sir, have you ever gone abroad? Have you read the Nine Commentaries? Do you know what Falun Dafa is?”
I went on to say, “China is not the Chinese Communist Party; Jiang Zemin is the real culprit. He persecuted Falun Dafa. Did you know this?”
He was quiet after hearing that.
I went to the market one morning to talk to people about Falun Dafa. I saw many people circling around someone. I went closer and found an elderly man sitting on the ground. He couldn’t get up, but nobody dared to help him. I told him in his ear, “You recite with me: ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.’”
He indeed recited it with me. I then held his arm as he stood up, and I talked to him about Dafa and he quit the Communist Party. People who were watching were amazed. One of them said, “It’s a miracle!”
I took the opportunity to talk to that person as well, and when he thanked me, I told him to thank our Master.
Master Watches Over Us All the Time
Once I took my grandson to school and we needed to cross the street. My grandson said it was okay to cross the street because there were no people or cars.
But when we started to move our motorcycle into the middle of the road, another bigger motorcycle crashed into mine. My motorcycle was bent 90 degrees.
People around were scared and shouted, but my grandson and I stood on the ground safely. I remembered very clearly that when the two vehicles crashed, my body was lightly moved aside.
If I hadn't been moved like that, my life and my grandson's life might have been taken away. I know Master saved us.
Master told us:
“But although you can’t see me in person, as long as you practice cultivation, I’m actually right by your side. ”(“Teaching the Fa in New York City” from Lectures in the United States)
Once I went to another developed area to talk to people about Dafa. A man and a woman stood by the road, so I stopped to chat with them. The man didn’t listen and grabbed my clothing, saying, “Do you know who I am?”
I replied, “I didn’t know, but no matter who you are, you should listen to the truth and secure your own future.”
He was furious. He locked my motorcycle, took away the key, and called the police. The woman asked him for the key, but he would not give it to her. The woman urged me to leave.
I tried to push the motorcycle, but it was very heavy. The woman was gentle and knew the police car would arrive soon, so she kept urging me to leave.
I forgot to ask for help from Master at that time, but Master still watched over me. Under the situation of not having a key and wanting to push the motorcycle away, the light on the motorcycle turned on, and when I sat on it and tried to start it, it started and I drove away.
The two people looked at me leaving, with the man still holding the key and looking very confused!
I could not hold my tears back on the way home while I talked to Master in my heart: “Today I didn’t do well and made Master worry. Thank you, Master!”
With Righteous Thoughts, Resist Evil
Because I was involved in the tide of suing Jiang Zemin in October 2015, four policemen came to harass me. Each wore a mini video camera on his chest.
We had over 40 Dafa books, a music player with content of Dafa that was charging, and many copies of software to help unblock the internet.
Under Master’s protection, none of these men touched my things. I wasn’t scared at all, and I told them my experience of becoming healthy after cultivating.
I told them that the “Tiananmen Square self-immolation” incident was a fake, and I gave some examples of officials incurring retribution after persecuting Dafa.
One police officer remained arrogant. He saw my “Falun Dafa is good” pendant on the ceiling, and he pointed to it and said loudly, “Falun Dafa is good…”
Before he could say anything else, I said, “Yes, Falun Dafa is good! You will be blessed if you say this sentence, but please say it more quietly because this is my home.”
His voice suddenly became faint and he asked me, “Did you go to Beijing to appeal for Falun Dafa on April 25, 1999?” I said, “I didn’t make it to that event, but if I could have, I would surely have gone.”
One policeman was recording me and another asked, “Do you still practice?” I said that I did. Another officer made a check mark in his notes and then they all left. Afterward, I was a little fearful because I did not know what the notes meant.
While sharing with other practitioners, they said, “A check mark means you did everything right!”
Cultivating Dafa Brings Blessings to My Family
Since I have been practicing Dafa, my husband's temper has improved. He conducts his business following the requirements of “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.” He also quit drinking alcohol and now smokes much less.
When people in the community heard that my husband no longer drank, they could hardly believe it. My husband indeed quit drinking, seemingly out of the blue.
Since he has understood the truth about Falun Dafa, he always tells people that the CCP is not good. He's also read Zhuan Falun three times.
Sometimes my behavior isn't the best. When a conflict suddenly arises, I forget I am a practitioner and start to argue with my husband.
However, he always says to me, “Zhen” (Truthfulness), and so I immediately realize my own problem and stop arguing with him.
Sometimes I also complained about my husband to our son. Master then had my son say to me something like, “Don’t you cultivate Truthfulness- Compassion-Forbearance?" I would then suddenly become clearheaded and feel ashamed.
