(Minghui.org)
A little over 20 days ago, my left elbow started to feel vaguely chilled. That was quite abnormal.
Before I began Falun Gong practice, I had been diagnosed with rheumatism. My left elbow and left side of my back would be chilled to the bone whenever it was cloudy and rainy. They would also ache.
Falun Gong practice healed my rheumatism. Without my full awareness, my left elbow stopped feeling chilled.
When the chill feeling reoccurred, I didn’t pay it much attention. I even used my ordinary way of reason to think that it must be because we had stopped the heat so the house was a bit cool.
A week ago, my left elbow actually became swollen and painful. It was beyond the symptoms of rheumatism. The pain started from the elbow down, then it moved up, spreading to the back of my left hand and to my left shoulder. Sometimes it would even reach the left side of my back.
Then the pain would become so severe that twice my right knee also suddenly developed such pain that it could barely hold me up.
I experienced no improvement even after I resorted to sending forth righteous thoughts continuously.
When the problem became progressively worse, I had no choice but to calm myself down to look inward. After two days, I couldn’t uncover anything. I was greatly perturbed.
After dinner last evening, when I was patiently waiting for the designated 6 P.M. to send forth righteous thought, I noticed there was still a bit of time, so I turned on my computer to get on the Minghui website. While waiting for the web page to materialize, I habitually clicked on the Dynaweb. Right at that moment, a clear thought popped into my head, “left hand side attachment.”
That thought gave me the shock of my life. “Left hand side attachment!” Wasn’t the left hand side of the screen showing Dynaweb?
That thought not only cleared my mind of all perplexity, it promptly removed all the pain in my left arm.
I repeatedly said to Master in my heart, “Thank you, Master! Thank you, Master! I did wrong. I’ll right that wrong right away!”
Getting on Minghui but checking out Dynaweb first has been my long-standing habit. In other words, as soon as I found out I could break through the Internet blockade and get to Minghui through Dynaweb, I had been hooked on the news featured on Dynaweb.
When I first learned how to get on Minghui, I was very excited. I would check every piece of news I could find, including reports on truth clarification all across the world.
In recent years, I would first read the local news on Minghui, and then glance through topics of articles to see if there was anything I would be interested in. If yes, I would read them, if not, I would move on.
Eventually, the time I spent on Dynaweb every day far surpassed the time I spent on Minghui. Sometimes I would even read Dynaweb news into the wee hours.
I have shared my attachment to Dynaweb with other practitioners. What I found out was, quite a number of them are doing the same thing, and for a long time. Only a small minority are not hooked on Dynaweb.
In fact, I already knew I should not be attached to Dynaweb and had also read some related articles from fellow practitioners.
Now, I’ve finally enlightened to the fact that we really should not be so attached to Dynaweb. It truly is a waste of time. More importantly, even though Dynaweb news does not get involved with anything obviously sexual or pornographic or overtly about fame and gain, the contents still have plenty of those implications.
For example: the adulterous scandals of Jiang Zemin, the forecasts on Chinese and international stock markets, the candidates for the next leadership, etc.
In comparison to the news from the media controlled by the Communist regime, the news on Dynaweb is quite clean, with no dirty language or vulgar pictures.
However, from the perspective of Dafa disciples, this type of news can still bring about contamination, because we are cultivating our original, true selves and not anything superficial. When we expose our brains to something, our fields will be filled with that something.
Another thing, if we often read Dynaweb news, we are actually manifesting that we are lost and lonely, that we want to analyze what stage Fa-rectification is at through the changes in ordinary people’s situations. Sometimes, these changes will affect our righteous thoughts.
Aside from my attachment to Dynaweb, I also have another attachment: watching “Today’s Focus” on my cell phone. For that, Master had already tried to enlighten me in a dream.
In the dream, I pushed open a door and entered a large but not very clean room, although I couldn’t see anything particularly dirty. I walked in further. I opened a small door. Inside was a toilet. I pushed open another small door. Inside was another toilet. I continued to push open doors. I continued to find toilets.
That is so similar to my watching the news on my cell phone. I clicked on “Today’s Focus” with no intention to watch anything dirty, and there was nothing dirty at the beginning, but gradually, with every headline, pictures not so clean would keep popping out. Even though I didn’t want to see them, I saw them.
In addition, we should not watch television or micro-channels, for the same reasons.
Master had also tried to enlighten me about watching them, but I didn’t think I had a problem there.
In fact, I wasn’t attached to watching those, and I also didn’t have the time to sit down to watch them, but when my family is watching them, I might take a glance when passing by.
One day, I returned home after spending a day out clarifying the truth. My family was watching TV. I felt a little tired, so I sat down on the sofa with them.
A movie was on. It was very interesting, with an intricate plot. I got curious and before I knew it, I finished watching the whole thing.
That night, I had a dream. There were a great many people gathered in a large room waiting to take an examination. The room was as huge as a stadium.
Then, somebody told me I should go inside to tell everybody the exam was about to start.
I rushed to do the bidding. When I entered the room, I was surprised to see everybody sitting on a toilet. I looked at them without uttering a sound. I walked further in. All I wanted to do was find a toilet to sit down. I had completely forgotten I was supposed to call them out to do their exam.
I knew Master was enlightening me: Even for ordinary people, watching TV is like soaking in the toilet. It’s only that people are not aware of it.
As Dafa disciples, we can’t afford the time to watch TV. We need to grasp every moment to save sentient beings.
Whether it was watching a program on TV or on my cell phone or on Dynaweb, Master had tried to enlighten me. Each time, I would pay attention for a couple of days but had never taken it seriously, feeling it was no big deal.
Actually, that attitude is one of not respecting Master, not respecting Dafa. It is not taking Master’s merciful compassion as a matter of importance.
After the old forces had found loopholes in my cultivation and used pain to persecute me, I also thought about those practitioners who lost their lives after being overwhelmed by sickness karma.
Whenever one practitioner would be faced with any kind of sickness karma, other practitioners would gather around that practitioner to send forth righteous thoughts
The result is usually not ideal.
If the sickness is prolonged, the practitioner might even lose faith in Dafa, and become resentful toward Master.
If that practitioner is a diligent cultivator, the problematic situation would lead to other practitioners feeling uneasy and perplexed.
Master tells us consistently that arrangements by the old forces are not to be recognized. But, not recognizing is not just in words but in deeds.
In the process of cultivation, every practitioner will manifest this or that attachment, all of which will have to be cultivated away one by one; and, whenever our enlightenment or our willpower is not sufficient enough, Master will certainly be there to lend a hand.
If we can quickly rectify ourselves, any adverse situation will dissipate in the blink of a thought.
This is the reason why some practitioners experiencing sickness karma or other forms of interference, can, with a righteous thought, recover completely as if nothing has ever happened.
There are also some practitioners with long-term attachments who do not pay attention to Master’s enlightenment. Then, the old forces will take advantage of their loopholes so that when sickness or other karma shows up it is difficult to overcome.
Just like some practitioners have said, “If you don’t wash one piece of clothing today, there is only one piece of dirty clothing. But if you do the same thing the next day (don't do the laundry), now you have two pieces of dirty clothing. In a year, there will be 365 pieces of dirty clothing. How are you able to handle all these dirty pieces of clothing then?”
Master is compassionate. No matter what grievous mistakes we make, Master will try to enlighten us and continue to protect us within the Fa.
The old forces are vicious. They will find our loopholes and do their best to drag us down. They do not want us to succeed in cultivation
With that realization, I cut off all my attachments to Dynaweb, to news on my cell phone, to TV, and to any and everything ordinary people enjoy watching.
Only a week has past, but I am already experiencing tremendous changes in my body.
I used to feel drowsy whenever I picked up Zhuan Falun to study. I would even fall fast asleep sitting in my chair.
Even when I could stay awake to read, my attention was not focused on what I was reading. It was as if there were a wall between me and the Fa.
I would study two lectures every day, as if I were dutifully performing a chore. There was no feeling of a genuine desire to learn from the Fa.
When sitting down in full lotus to send forth righteous thoughts every day, although there were times when I really meant to sit on a little longer, within ten minutes, I was ready to take my feet down so I could move on to doing something else.
As to clarifying the truth, my lips were moving but it was merely empty words coming out of my mouth.
Now, I truly have a desire to study the Fa. I have an intense feeling of hunger and thirst for the Fa. Every word in the Fa is to me like a magnet. I feel an attraction when I read the words.
Just today, I read through five lectures and still didn’t want to put the book down.
When I send forth righteous thoughts, my heart feels very peaceful. I don’t even want to stop.
When I clarify the truth, I still speak the same words, but I can now feel the sound that comes out of me has weight and the end result is better than before.
Different kinds of human notions and distracting thoughts no longer come up. Especially the entire day today, I feel my brain very peaceful, my body has obvious changes, my left shoulder does not hurt much, and there was no radiating pain, no pain during sleep, no pain while I was clarifying the truth.
I would like to remind fellow practitioners that we must not be attached to Dynaweb any more, or TV, or micro-channels, or news on cell phones.
In addition, attachment to sentimentality, to human pleasures, to comfort, and to various kinds of complaints, plus all manners of disrespecting Master and Dafa will bring on problems for us and might lead to worse consequences, which will interfere with our job of saving sentient beings and lead to our personal downfall.
The above is just a little sharing. If there is anything not within the Fa, kindly point it out to me.