(Minghui.org) I had pain in my legs and back for more than 20 years, but as a Falun Dafa practitioner, I wanted to help others to understand the truth about the persecution of the practice. This created a conflict for me.
The more I wanted to go out and save people, the harder it was to walk. The harder it was to walk, the more I wanted to go. I could hardly lift my legs--it was as if they weighed a thousand pounds. This lasted for many years.
During this time, I was also very sensitive to cold and had to wear warm clothes even in the summer.
I enlightened that it was my duty to go out and save people and that my conditions were due to persecution by the old forces. I realized that there were several reasons why the old forces were able to persecute me: I seldom studied the Fa and was not diligent; I looked forward to the end of the persecution; I had a strong attachment to accomplishing tasks as well as other attachments.
But I also realized that I should diligently cultivate myself.
One day, my legs hurt so bad that I simply could not walk. I then enlightened that, as a Dafa disciple, Master had already purified my body, and my cells had been replaced by high-energy matter. I was a cultivator walking on the path to divinity, and I should not be constrained by lower-level principles. Why did I always treat myself as an ordinary person? Why were all my thoughts those of ordinary people? Would a God be afraid of cold and pain? How could I ever upgrade myself if I did not let go of ordinary notions?
After I realized this, I drew cold water to wash my hands and feet. This time, the cold water didn't bother me.
Then I enlightened that it was also a human thought that I could not lift my leg or walk. A divine being does not have such thoughts. I sensed that I had not overcome my condition because I had acknowledged it.
Master said,
“Whether it is protrusion of the lumbar intervertebral discs or osteophytosis, after you remove that thing and clear out that field, you will find it instantly healed.” (Zhuan Falun)
Master also taught us,
“The level of Gong is as high as the level of Xinxing.” (Lecture in Sydney)
Thus, I denied the status of not being able to walk: “I'm Master's disciple. Master has given me the divine power of Buddha Fa. How is it possible that I cannot even walk?” With this thought, I immediately relaxed. The pain in my legs and waist has never returned.
Master said,
“Under the effect of righteous thoughts, everything around you, as well as you yourself, will undergo changes. Yet you have never thought to give it a try. The old forces as well as the interference from the evil elements are precisely exploiting the gaps in your thinking. That’s what they have been doing all these years. All along the old forces have been directing rotten spirits and the factors of the evil Party to do this, causing you to fail in your efforts to save people.” (“20th Anniversary Fa Teaching”)
Why had I not firmly applied divine principles for so long? It was because I did not completely believe in Master and the Fa. When we truly have faith and replace our human notions with divine thoughts, miracles will occur.