My name is Xiaozhen, and I am 42 years old. When I was 28, I was diagnosed with lymphoma which had metastasized. The provincial hospital notified my family that I was in critical condition and only had 3 months to live. Hearing the news, my family and I were in enormous pain.
My mother-in-law saw I could not live much longer and she persuaded my husband to divorce me. My illness brought a great economic burden to the family, and the family's spirit was crushed. My four-year-old son suffered with us. Perhaps my mother-in-law could not see any hope, so she lost her good sense. She made the decision to let me die.
Looking at my son, my family, and facing death, I was beyond the point of despair. I felt it was even more horrible to survive than to die. I also made the decision to leave my home before my death came. I tried to commit suicide three times. I lost a lot of blood by cutting my wrist; I hit my head against the wall. But I just could not die (later I understood that Master was in fact taking care of me, and prevented me from dying.) After I finished chemotherapy I lost all my hair, and my face was greenish. I had to get a shot which cost over 100 Yuan every day, and I took other medicine. I was constantly nauseated.
A kind Falun Gong practitioner asked me to learn Falun Gong. But my mind was so distorted by pain that I could not understand others' kindness. I thought they were mocking me and tricking me. I was furious at the time. I said: “You are mocking me, how could I practice Falun Gong? I cannot even walk.” Those kindhearted people said: “It is for your benefit that we want you to practice Falun Gong. Learning Falun Gong really will help you.” At that time I did not listen to them, and sent them away.
A few days later, a few practitioners found me and advised me to learn Falun Dafa again. This time I wanted to give a try, so I followed them to watch Master's lectures. I really got into it. I thought what Master said is so right, and he answered so many of my questions. I wanted to learn more while I was still alive. So I stopped the shots and medicine. I did the exercises every morning and every evening, and read Falun Dafa books in the daytime. I also copied Falun Dafa books by hand. Sometimes I would sweat a lot when doing the exercises, but I did not stop. I just had one thought: that I needed to learn more while I was alive. After practicing for two months I noticed that my whole body had become yellow. Fellow practitioners told me, “It's a good thing. Do not pay any attention to it.” Later my hair began to grow back.
I went to the hospital for a test after three months. The result was that the cancer had disappeared! I did not believe what I heard. The doctor could not believe it either. He said, “How could you have cancer? You look so healthy.” I told the doctor: “Doctor, I was really suffering from lymphoma. You see the lab results of biopsy samples. I had been doing chemotherapy, then I began to practice Falun Gong. It cured me.” The doctor thought it was really amazing .
I thank Master with my whole heart for giving me a second life. I was given this life because I practice Falun Dafa. I must cherish it, and cultivate myself well. I am really so lucky. I cultivate very diligently.
I was shocked when the CCP (Chinese Communist Party) began defaming Falun Gong on July 20, 1999. I was completely unable to understand why such a good practice and such a good Master were being defamed. What sin had they committed? Falun Dafa teaches people to be good, following Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and paying attention to virtue. How could this be evil? I was determined to use my personal experience to tell people that Falun Dafa is good. So I went to appeal for Falun Gong. I was sent to a labor camp for two years. Because I did not understand the Fa well and could not let go of human attachments, I was afraid to lose everything, and ended up walking on the wrong path.
Compassionate Master saved me once again, and gave me the opportunity to make it up. Now I understand the Fa principles clearly and cultivate diligently in Falun Dafa again.
No matter how the CCP persecutes us, I will remain steadfast in Falun Dafa cultivation. My family is blessed by Falun Dafa, my son was admitted to a good university, and my family life is harmonious. After learning Falun Dafa, I learned to consider others first. I take care of all of the household work. I also clean the staircase in our unit. I have become cheerful, and can get along with anyone. I feel I am the luckiest person in the world. I am fortunate to be able to learn such a precious Dafa. I want to follow Master to the end. I will try to do well with the three things.
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