(Clearwisdom.net)
When looking inside about the attachment to suspicion, I recently enlightened that I have been assisting the evil in making me a less effective Dafa disciple on my path of Fa rectification.
Without realizing it, I have been agreeing with the evil and many of the negative things that it instigates, including and especially when it distracts me with so-called “personal problems.”
Before I sat down to send righteous thoughts at one of the global times, I had a conversation with the evil elements and beings that seek to control and ultimately destroy me at a microscopic level. To my surprise, the evil answered back, and I broke through in seeing that the evil is not my true self and I can make it leave by denying it completely and reaffirming that there is only one true Fa, and I adhere to it with my whole heart.
Here is the conversation I had with the evil:
Evil: You are not a very good practitioner.
Me: I was chosen by Master to help rectify the Fa. I am a Dafa disciple.
Evil: But you have not been diligent in doing the exercises, so that makes you unqualified.
Me: No. I cultivate in Falun Dafa, which teaches me that I can look within to find my shortcomings and improve.
Evil: But this has been a long-standing problem which you have never managed to break through.
Me: My Master teaches that as long as the Fa-rectification has not ended, there are still chances to do well and improve.
Evil: But you have a lot of other attachments and have made mistakes on your path of cultivation. You are not qualified to clarify the truth to people, and what you say has no power.
Me: My heart and mind are firmly rooted in the Fa. I am a disciple of Falun Dafa and will continue to cultivate and improve. Your words have no power over me.
Evil: Other practitioners don’t respect you.
Me: What you say is an attachment to reputation, and is not the heart of a Dafa disciple. It is not my heart, it is not my thought, and I reject it absolutely.
Evil: Because you are not perfect enough, you are not among the body of Fa rectification period disciples. You are an outsider and don’t belong.
Me: I was chosen by Master to be a Fa rectification period Dafa disciple. I am my Master’s disciple and am part of the body of practitioners.
Evil: You are small and powerless.
Me: I am very powerful. My Master imparted to me the power to send righteous thoughts and eliminate evil thoroughly. If you do not leave, I will eliminate you and you will be sent down to hell for the role you have played in interfering in the Fa rectification.
The evil disappeared.
After the conversation, when I sat down to send righteous thoughts, I could see evil beings hovering above the city where I live and where Shen Yun has been performing for the last week. The evil was hanging out around Manhattan just to persecute people and try to destroy their chances to see Shen Yun and be saved. I saw that one of the chief reasons they were able to do this is practitioners’ attachment to suspicion—especially the suspicions that they, themselves, are unworthy. It manifests as being suspicious that Shen Yun is not worthy of people’s time and money, and it can can affect ticket sales and attendance. Suspecting that they are not good enough, not worthy, not powerful, incapable of assisting Master to rectify the Fa, not effective enough, don’t have the right intentions, aren’t perfect enough—I enlightened that all of these things reflect the attachment of suspicion, which is in itself a manifestation of fear.
The evil beings hovering over Manhattan saw me, too. In fact, they were incredibly startled to see me appear before them in the dimension where they were hiding. They started to murmur among themselves that a Dafa disciple could see where they were hiding. At that instant, some of them became very frightened. I told them very clearly, “You have tried to interfere with Shen Yun and saving sentient beings in the Fa rectification. If you stop what you are doing and leave immediately, you might have a chance to be saved yourselves and be a being in one of the Dafa disciples' kingdoms when the Fa rectifies the human world. If you do not leave right now and stop what you are doing, we will have to destroy you. But do not say that we were not merciful, because you have been warned.”
Instantly, a few of the beings disappeared, having decided to leave and not try to interfere with Shen Yun. Those who weren’t sure if they believed me or weren’t willing to leave began to disintegrate at a frighteningly rapid rate, turning into dust and blowing away.
Those who were behind them wailed and screamed, but also turned to dust and blew away, leaving nothing but the rags they were wearing to also turn to dust. Above those beings was another being who was larger and controlling them. I repeated the warning, but the being didn’t leave and it was destroyed. All throughout Manhattan, I could see a warm, glowing pink energy enveloping the city as the evil elements were destroyed.
Fellow practitioners, do not fear that you are not worthy of the title of Fa rectification period Dafa disciple. Put your whole heart into doing the three things well and be confident. Trust in Master, trust in the Fa, and trust in one another.
The above is my personal understanding at my current level. Please point out anything that is not appropriate.