(Clearwisdom.net) In the past few years, Teacher has been by my side and leading me forward. The following is my experience from recent years.

Learning the Fa well and Eliminating Human Notions through Acting and Thinking Righteously

Teacher told us,

"Everything that ordinary people seek; everything that ordinary people want to gain; everything that ordinary people act on, say, and do--all of this is, for you, what needs to be cultivated away."

("Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan" March 26, 2006)

Last year, my sister-in-law wanted to purchase the house in which my child and I lived in. My mother-in-law owned this house and my husband did not have time to transfer the ownership to me before he died. She offered me 50,000 yuan. I thought that I should not solve this problem like ordinary people would, but I still hoped for a better result.

My child, who also practiced Falun Dafa, told me, "Mother, it's a good thing." Teacher had told me what to do through my child's mouth. Now, when I look back, it indeed was a good thing. Had I fought like my sister-in-law, wouldn't I have been worse than her? Then, I would not have been able to move up to a higher realm. After I gave up the house, my sister-in-law told me that I could live with her if I give up my practice. I told her that I would rather give up my life before I give up the practice.

In fact I had lost nothing. Teacher had shouldered my debt and karma. He only wanted me to remember what he had taught us, when being faced with a conflict to improve our xinxing. Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, Lecture Seven,

"Through this, it can be seen whether you can give it up. If you cannot let it go, it is an attachment. This method must be used to get rid of your attachment to self-interest. This is the issue. Because everyday people are not enlightened to this principle, they will all compete and fight before profits."

Cultivating to Selflessness

Being attached to self can only slow us down on the path of cultivation. It prevents us from seeing our gaps and looking within when conflicts arise. Last year, when I worked with several practitioners, I was surprised to find myself strongly attached to self. My attachments to jealousy, vanity, reputation, personal gains, and showing-off were exposed little by little during conflicts between me and practitioners I worked with. Thanks to the environment Teacher has given me, I was able to gradually and painstakingly eliminate my attachments.

Once I was upset by something at work because it made me lose face. On my way home, I couldn't stop to be resentful and bitter about it. But at the same time, I wanted to be a true practitioner. I spoke to Teacher in my heart, "Teacher, I do not want to care about my reputation; I do not want what ordinary people want." All of a sudden, I burst into tears and all the bitterness and complaints I had in my mind disappeared. This unbelievable feeling allowed me to realize that if I truly do not want things, which ordinary people want, Teacher will take away those bad substances that influence me and my xinxing will rise in level.

Only when we let go of self can we reach the realm of selflessness. Teacher told us in "Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature" (Essentials for Further Advancement),

"From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism."

After reading Teacher's words from Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan,

"If you can manage to handle things calmly no matter how wronged you may feel, if you can remain unmoved and not try to come up with some kind of excuse for yourself, then with many things you won't even need to argue."

I realized that all the conflicts and grievances I experienced before were insignificant. What would happen if I was really wronged? I will lose my human notions and enhance my xinxing. No one needs to know about me being wronged except the gods. Everything is truly like Teacher mentioned in: "To the Chicago Fa Conference,"

"Whatever you experience during your cultivation--whether good or bad--is good, for it comes about only because you are cultivating."

Doing The Three Things Well

During the past few years, I gradually understood the meaning of cultivation. I began to help with making simple information materials about Falun Gong and the persecution. I was not afraid when I went out to distribute them. Though I have not reached many people to tell them the facts of Falun Gong or to have them quit the Chinese Communist Party, I know now what I did wrong - I lacked compassion. I may even still not fully realize the importance of the work I do, but I know this will soon change.

I have recently come to realize that as long as I study the Fa with a sacred attitude, I will really be able to improve my xinxing. This is the only way to accomplish my mission of saving sentient beings. When our xinxing is as large as the sea and can accept water from all rivers, there will not be anything to stop us on our path of cultivation.