(Clearwisdom.net) I am from a family with a history of cancer--two family members died of it. When I ignored an opportunity to learn Dafa, a tribulation fell upon me. But when I went back again to practice Dafa, Teacher removed my karma and tribulations. Since then, I've been a healthy person--I have benefited from and am a witness to Dafa's power.
Learning Falun Dafa
In January 1998, when I was at my elder sister's home, she told me, "You should learn and practice Falun Gong, a mind and body cultivation of the Buddha school." I said, "I'll learn it in January next year (1999) after I finish the busy work I'm currently involved in."
One evening in January 1999, I started learning the Fa and practicing the Falun Gong exercises. I didn't know anything about cultivation. I had just finished reading a few pages in the book Zhuan Falun in bed, when my child, who was in primary school at that time, wanted to go to sleep, so I closed the book and turned off the lights. In a short while, I heard a noise, as if a big box had fallen on the floor, and at that moment it felt as though there was an explosion and lightening in the left side of my head. I opened my eyes and noticed that the atmosphere was very quiet and peaceful, and I saw only weak light coming through the gaps in the curtains.
When I started to learn the meditation, I started with a single-crossed leg. One day, while sitting there with my eyes closed, something dark appeared in front of my eyes. As I looked and looked, all of a sudden, a big, round, shining eye appeared in front of me, and I was shocked. When I opened my eyes, everything was normal.
Afterward, in the process of studying the Fa, gradually I came to know:
"One should return to one's original, true self; this is the real purpose of being human. Therefore, once a person wants to practice cultivation, his or her Buddha-nature is considered to have come forth. Such a thought is most precious, for this person wants to return to his or her original, true self and transcend the ordinary human level."
"In providing salvation to humankind, the Buddha School does not attach any condition or seek returns, and it will help unconditionally. Accordingly, we can do many things for practitioners."
(Zhuan Falun)
In the early period after becoming a Dafa practitioner, Teacher was already taking care of me. As a person who grew up in an environment of atheism, I gradually developed a new view of the world, and it changed my way of thinking. Although I still had only a vague idea about cultivation, I always wanted to study the Fa whenever I had time.
Teacher Bestowed "Guanding" Upon Me
I didn't start going to the park to practice the Falun Gong exercises until late April 1999. After morning practice I found out that there was also a Fa-study group, which I joined. One time at the assistant's home, after studying the Fa, we started practicing the meditation. At that time, I wasn't even able to sit for thirty minutes in the single-leg lotus position, but after only a few minutes I felt a wave of heat coming down from the top of my head and going through my whole body. I felt very comfortable, knowing that Teacher was purifying my body, which I had learned about while studying the Fa.
One time after the morning exercises, I was going out of my front door, on my way to work. All of a sudden, my legs felt very light and energetic, something I had never felt before. This was of course my perception and I knew that I was very fortunate.
The Beginning of Interference by Evil Beings
Plainclothes police officers were monitoring and interfering with our final few activities in the park. After the persecution began in July 1999, the group cultivation environment, which I had recently joined, was destroyed. Everything I saw on television and read in the newspaper about the practice was nothing but lies. Although I didn't believe them, I was still poisoned by it, because I was still mindful about the daily news and didn't study the Fa well.
While hesitating at the crossroads, I began to cultivate by myself, and I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises alone. One day during lunch break at the office, as I lay in bed resting, I saw my main consciousness leave my body and I wasn't able to move. While practicing the third exercise, I felt as though my hair was standing on end. I was experiencing what was described in Zhuan Falun. How could I give up Falun Gong?
My colleagues in my department were all aware that I practiced Falun Gong. When everyone was forced to sign an agreement stating that practicing Falun Gong was prohibited, the boss sent someone to have me sign it, too. Although my colleague signed it for me, she did it with my consent. I realized this was a mistake, and I lost control of myself and cried in front of her for quite a while. In the following days, even though there were layoffs in my department, they kept me, but drastically increased my workload, and I had to do the work of three people. Every day I was busy at work, and I gradually forgot about studying the Fa and practicing the exercises, thus I changed back to and became worse than an everyday person.
Recalling what happened, at that time I was walking the path arranged by the old forces. I was not only pulled down, but was also dragged to the land of death, where I finally awakened.
Teacher Will Unconditionally Help You as Long as You Cultivate
In early 2003, because I was not feeling well, I went to the hospital for a check-up, and they found cancer. While laying in bed after surgery, I felt tired of my life and again I thought about the short but unforgettable beautiful time of my cultivation. I still wanted to cultivate! I thought that nothing could stop me this time! With merely this thought, I clearly saw a spotted, brown tree leaf fly off of my chest. At that moment, I comprehended that Teacher had once again cleansed my body as well as given me a hint.
After returning home from the hospital, I started to read Zhuan Falun eagerly and diligently. I still perceptually understood the Fa most of the time, and hoped so much that there would be a Fa study group and sharing. (At this time, I came to understand why Teacher stressed the importance of studying the Fa in a group.) Whenever I sat down to study the Fa with a quiet mind, I was able to feel Teacher making adjustments in my body. One time when I was studying the Fa until after midnight, my right ear suddenly had extreme pain, but the pain disappeared quickly. Before becoming a Dafa practitioner, I had suffered from ear inflammations for quite some time. But Teacher eliminated this problem for me, and since that time I no longer had pain in my right ear.
I met a fellow practitioner in 2004, who was just released from prison after serving a two-year term. I was greatly touched by what she said and how she acted with great determination and dedication. Her understanding of the Fa awakened me, and helped me learn what a real cultivator is. I on the other hand, was seemingly focused on getting more knowledge, acting like a scholar with a human mind. I subsequently spent lots of time studying the Fa and eliminating many human thoughts, determined to be a true Dafa practitioner. I was even thankful for this tribulation, which enabled me to return to Dafa and become a healthy person.
Being a Dafa Practitioner, the Family Benefits
One time when my son had a flu and fever, I said to him, "There are two ways to get rid of it. One is to take medicine and the other to silently recite, 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good'" He said, "I'll recite silently." My son was simple and pure, and he did what he said he would. I wasn't without worry at that time, for he was not a practitioner after all. What I had in mind was, "If he still has a fever in the morning, I'll have him take the pills." Yet the next morning his temperature had returned to normal. He said to me, "I felt a hot current coming over me that took my fever away." Apparently, my son has a karmic relationship with Dafa. Even though he'd been confused growing up under the so-called modernized education, he knew that Falun Dafa was good.
With Teacher's help, I Clarify the Truth and Help Save Sentient Beings
In the process of Fa-rectification, I have been taking part in exposing the lies of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) to save more people. One time as I was passing by a community near by our home, I saw some banners and posters that slandered Dafa. I realized that the posters were poisoning sentient beings. Thus, I gathered up and placed copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, along with VCDS and other materials, in a big envelope on which I wrote the responsible person's name, based on the list posted on the wall outside of the community. I went to the community twice, but the gate was closed.
As I was resting in the afternoon on a Saturday, I suddenly heard a phone ringing, so I went to answer it, but there was no one there. Funny thing was, I indeed heard the phone and didn't imagine it. Immediately, I thought about Teacher and remembered, "It's time for me to deliver the truth-clarification materials." When I arrived at the community, a person was just opening the gate, and I was able to successfully deliver the materials. The truth is, it's just like what a fellow practitioner had said, "As long as you have the wish, Teacher will make arrangement for you to accomplish it."
Teacher's Hint: Learn to Use Righteous Thoughts
I was arrested in 2006 and detained, which in my understanding, was because evil beings took advantage of my gaps. After returning home, while I was listening to Teacher's Fa-Lectures on an MP3 player and my family was watching television, I thought, "The television is too loud and is interfering with my listening to the Fa." The sound of the television immediately diminished right after my righteous thoughts, and my family was astonished. I understood that Teacher had given me a hint, "Dafa practitioner's righteous thoughts are very powerful."
Teacher said,
"If the wicked policemen and the bad people can't be dissuaded and persist in doing evil, you can stop them with righteous thoughts."
"But the premise is that you have strong righteous thoughts, no fear, and no human attachments, apprehension, or hatred; only when you're in that state will it be effective, and it will take effect as soon as your thoughts emerge." ("Stop the Evil Acts with Righteous Thoughts," February 15, 2004)
These are some of my experiences and feelings during my cultivation. As Falun Dafa is embraced around the human world, I wish that sentient beings will all be aware that "Falun Dafa is good!" and that they can understand the real facts about Falun Dafa. In addition, I hope they will benefit from Dafa and not miss this hard-to-come-by, everlasting good fortune.