(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Dafa in late December 1997, less than two years before the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) initiated the persecution against Falun Gong. I was detained and sentenced to forced labor several times, and released from the labor camp in 2003.
Becoming One of the "Flowers" Springing Up Everywhere
Thanks to a fellow practitioner's help, I started to make DVDs at home in 2004. I felt fear and pressure in the beginning, so negative thoughts periodically surfaced in my mind. Consequently, my DVD hardware broke down at the same time that I was creating Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party DVDs. I asked a fellow practitioner to repair it, but acted hastily to meet practitioners' demands for the DVDs, so I developed an attachment to doing things and ignored the importance of studying the Fa. Consequently, the quality of the DVDs I burned was not good; some were even inferior, yet I still didn't look inside and believed that these problems would disappear if I bought a new DVD writer. Once I noticed that the hardware worked well at times yet malfunctioned at other times, I understood that my cultivation state manifested in how well I validated the Fa.
Through studying the Fa, I realized that the DVD writer was also a living being, and understood that I shouldn't be surprised that it frequently stopped working, since I added bad thoughts to it. When I corrected my thoughts, my DVD writer ran normally. This experience helped me become clearer about the importance of every thought of a practitioner. From then on, I looked inward whenever problems occurred. I frequently sent righteous thoughts to the DVD writer, and communicated with it. Since then, the DVDs burned were of very good quality. The DVD writer seemed to have its own spirit. On many occasions, I bought some DVD packs and labels, and later discovered that the quantities matched each other exactly. I really experienced what Teacher said:
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master." (Zhuan Falun)
Explaining the Truth about Falun Gong, and Saving the World's People
I was released from the forced labor camp in 2003 and renewed my Dafa practice, but didn't dare to clarify the truth about Falun Gong. It was not until 2004 when Teacher's article "Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People" was published, did I step forward to explain the facts about Falun Gong. I didn't know how to start at first, but was determined to do it because Teacher told us to. I felt comfortable when explaining the truth about Falun Dafa, but it felt difficult when I tried to persuade people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I was afraid that people would disagree with me, so the effect was not good.
As I studied the Fa, I realized that my acquired notions were blocking me. I decided to change those notions completely, follow what Teacher said and save more people. In daily life, I never miss an opportunity to clarify the facts, though I often come across people who won't listen to me, don't accept what I say, or who even say some ugly words to me. I felt bad at first, and even thought, "Since you don't want to be saved, I'll leave you alone." When such a thought materialized, I realized that I was not compassionate. I thought, "I am a practitioner, I should treat them with compassion because they are all poisoned by the CCP. They are in a pitiful state." Since then, when I meet such a person, I say peacefully, "Maybe I was not explaining things clearly. If someone else explains the facts to you later, please listen to him carefully. Keep in mind, 'Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.' You will have a wonderful future." Some people said "Thank you" after hearing this.
I have been explaining the facts about Falun Gong and persuading people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations for several years. I have learned from experience that we can only save people when we study the Fa well, and have a compassionate heart. As long as we focus on the Fa, everything is done by Teacher. For instance, while I was writing this article, I had much to say, but didn't know how to organize my words. I was afraid of these difficulties, and couldn't find a practitioner to help me type my article and post it online. I thought that it would be great if a certain practitioner would come to help me. Just because of this thought, compassionate Teacher arranged for this practitioner to come to my home. Actually, such amazing things occur from time to time.
The above is my personal cultivation experience. Please compassionately point out anything inappropriate.
Thank you, Teacher! Thank you, fellow practitioners.