(Clearwisdom.net) I want to share our local senior practitioners' truth clarification stories. Their painstaking, compassionate, fearless, and magnanimous spirit of saving lives has greatly inspired me!

One of my neighbors is a young man who went to a Chinese Communist Party (CCP) school to get a degree. He told me, "Once an old lady in her seventies came to our classroom to talk about Falun Gong. We told her that there were only students in the room and suggested she go to the room next door that was full of party members and cadres. She said calmly, 'No need to rush. I will make sure you all understand the truth first and then go to the next room.' Thus she stood at the podium and told us many Falun Gong stories before she went to the room next door."

The neighbor across from my apartment is an urban management officer. Once he told me, "Several of us were patrolling the street when an old man in his seventies came to us and said, 'Son, it's OK if you don't want to learn or practice Falun Gong. But don't ever try to oppose it. It is not good for you if you are against it. Falun Gong is the Buddha law. It teaches people to be good. It benefits the country and our people!' We all said to him, 'Yes, sure! We are not against it!'"

Another neighbor of mine is a street vendor. She told me that once an elderly man asked her, "Young lady, how old do you think I am?" My neighbor replied, "You are in your sixties." He said, "I am almost eighty. It is the practice of Falun Gong that makes me look younger. Now I have no diseases at all. Falun Gong teaches people to be good. What was said on the television was all fabricated. The 'Tiananmen Self-Immolation' was a set-up against Falun Gong."

Once, in the market, I saw a fellow practitioner in her seventies carrying a bag and calmly distributing Shen Yun Performing Arts DVDs. I also know a female practitioner in her seventies who goes to the streets to clarify the truth every day. I have often seen her in a crowd doing face-to-face truth-clarification.

Seeing these senior practitioners being so diligent and doing so well in clarifying the truth, I feel ashamed of myself. I have done some truth-clarification work, but far from what these senior practitioners have done. I am lazy and not as committed as they are. Sometimes I am afraid and I feel I'm not as confident and fearless as they are. Also, I am not as cordial as they are when clarifying the truth to people and I don't have enough compassion. When I meet people who don't want to listen or who don't believe, I will leave them alone and go on my way. However, these senior practitioners would patiently continue to talk to the person.

Looking inwards and deeper into myself, I find that I still have many attachments. These include laziness, not treating myself as a true Dafa disciple, forgetting my vow and mission, letting my postnatal notions control me, and only thinking of enjoying life and not hurrying to save people. Even when I go out to clarify the truth, I am doing it as if to complete a task. How can this mentality save people? For example, I have fear: I do not dare to openly clarify the truth on the street. I look around and become very rigid. Often what I say is not logical or clear. How can I save people like that ? Because of fear, I only dare to talk to the old, the sick, or the farmers. I avoid people with good education or status and young and middle-aged people. I think they are deeply poisoned by the CCP, so it is hard to clarify the truth to them and it can easily get me into trouble. I also don't have enough compassion for other people. When I meet someone who doesn't want to listen or believe what I say, I just think, "OK, just let him be," and give up. For those people who have joined the CCP, the Youth League, or the Young Pioneers, if they say that they don't want to quit, I stop right there. What I should do is patiently talk to them with a heart of kindness. When meeting someone who is really stubborn, I just think, "Maybe he is destined for elimination." These bad notions have restricted me, and have made me unable to clarify the truth and save sentient beings.

There is a big gap between me and the senior practitioners. If those senior practitioners can do it, why can't I? The key issue is that I haven't let go of my attachments. The bottom line is that I haven't studied the Fa well, I haven't treated myself as a true Dafa disciple, and I haven't followed Teacher's words. From now on, I must do the three things well, fulfill my vow and complete my mission. Let Teacher rest assured!

Because I am at a lower level, there may be something incorrect in my understanding. Please point out my gaps.

Original Article: March 11, 2010