(Clearwisdom.net) I am almost seventy years old and since I began practicing Falun Dafa my mind has never wavered in believing in Dafa, even during the hardships I encountered.

Successfully Passing through Several Occurrences of Sickness Karma

In the beginning of Dafa cultivation, I encountered a lot of sickness karma. Because my husband is a physician, I never let him know when I had symptoms. Coincidently I would experience it at night. Although I couldn't sleep during the night, I would be fine by the next morning. But once, during dinner, I suddenly had the signs of a cerebral embolism. I couldn't talk or move my body at all. My family took me to a hospital to have a CT scan. When we arrived at the hospital, we couldn't find a doctor who was available. After waiting for a while, I could talk and walk again but my husband still wouldn't let me go home. Instead he took me to an outpatient clinic. The doctor there said, "She doesn't have any illness. Go home." I never thought it was an illness. A cultivator needs to eliminate the karma accumulated over many reincarnations. I am thankful for Teacher's arrangement that I haven't strayed from my cultivation path.

The day I received the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, I was fearful and had difficulty breathing that night. I knew it was because I didn't have righteous thoughts that the old forces took advantage of my loophole. Right away I sent forth righteous thoughts. But it didn't help. I made myself stay awake to send forth righteous thoughts at midnight and found I couldn't move my body. My hands and feet were numb and I couldn't raise my hand but my mind was very clear. I normally didn't want to bother Teacher when I encountered some minor things, as Teacher has already paid too much for us and I didn't want Teacher worrying about me. But this time I felt I couldn't make it through, so silently in my mind I asked Teacher to save me and let me go home with Teacher. Then, all of a sudden, every thing became normal. I couldn't help shedding tears. I knew it was Teacher giving me a second life. I repeated to myself, "Thank you, Teacher." The next morning, I read the Nine Commentaries twice. I then understood the nature of the Chinese Communist Party, its history, and why we need to spread the Nine Commentaries.

After this encounter, I spent more time studying the Fa. And whenever I had a bad thought, I'd try to eliminate it to not let the evil take advantage of me.

Looking Within to Eliminate My Attachments

I was always concerned about saving face. I would rather bear the hardship myself. I never fight with others or say anything bad about others. But I was afraid of others saying bad things about me. If anyone said something about me, I would blush with shame and want to hide. I would suffer about it for many days and just cry.

I got rid of many of these attachments after I began cultivation, but I did not thoroughly eliminate them. Teacher has emphasized that we must get rid of the mindset of not being able to take criticism. My son criticized me many times and each time seemed to be more piercing. I didn't retort, thinking that I had to get rid of this attachment, regardless of whether what my son said was right or wrong. But I felt bad and my face swelled up. I thought it shouldn't be like this for a cultivator and I just blamed myself for not being able to pass the test. Later, I calmed down and looked within myself to find the reason. I was wondering whether it was because I didn't totally believe in Teacher and the Fa. Hadn't Teacher told us that we must eliminate all attachments? I began to read Teacher's articles. I felt every sentence I read was Teacher reminding me. I compared my behavior with what I read. I made up my mind to do as Teacher taught us.

As I truly understood the Fa principle, my mind was renewed as if a window was opened. It felt like a heavily tangled root being uprooted. I felt so relaxed.

My experiences have taught me that when I believe in Teacher and the Fa, any attachment can be eliminated. Believing in Teacher and the Fa is the essence of improving oneself.