(Clearwisdom.net) Recently, I have been lagging behind in my cultivation. I want to do the three things well but something stops me from doing so. I want to cultivate diligently but I don't put it into action. I feel very upset and worried for myself and also for the sentient beings that cannot be saved. I have enlightened to many things but haven't done anything about them. My cultivation is not up to par. I think I am maybe just an average cultivator.
Perhaps my cultivation state is not good. I know that Master worries about me and has given me hints several times. In my heart I understand how important Dafa disciples' things are for the future, and what I will lose if I don't catch up quickly and eliminate the problems within myself. Recently I have not been able to get up early to practice the exercises with practitioners around the world because of interference from sleepiness and laziness. Sometimes I feel sleepy even when studying the Fa. To me, as a Dafa practitioner in the Fa rectification period who has to urgently do the three things well, this kind of interference is rather serious and even destructive. I cannot continue to be like this. I must break through such barriers, pass the tests and tribulations, and break through the obstruction of demon nature, return to my original true self, and be worthy of the title "Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple."
What does my so-called "bad mood" account for? Only human beings are attached to their moods. I can feel that our surroundings and weather change according to our mood. Today I again missed out on the morning exercises and I was not in a good mood. When I pushed open the door and looked outside, it was very foggy. It is very rare to have such weather in Northern China in the winter month of December by the Chinese lunar calendar. I thought it was directly related to my so-called mood.
When I woke up in the morning, one sentence was spinning around in my mind: "One thought determines whether you are a god or a human, one thought determines whether you are a god or a human, one thought determines whether you are a god or a human......"
"We have said that good or evil comes from a person's spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences." (Zhuan Falun)
Master's Fa jumped into my mind. The thought of a god or the thought of a human equates to whether the thought is good or bad, doesn't it? Maybe our compassionate Master was awakening me using the boundless Fa power: Whether you are a god or a human depends on just one thought. Master is urging me to advance quickly in cultivation.
With the boundless Fa, practitioners are able to judge whether their thoughts are of a god or a human. After studying Master's lectures, I have realized that looking inward like Master has emphasized repeatedly is actually the golden key. It is clear and concise and directly targets a practitioner's heart.
The above is my recent enlightenment. My reflection awakened me a great deal. I wrote this article with tears in my eyes. Many bad thoughts and obstacles were cleared away in the process of writing. Whether you want to be a diligent cultivator or just an average cultivator also depends on your one thought, the thought of a god or that of a human.
Thank you, Master, who is looking after us every minute, for your great, boundless, and profound compassion which is beyond description. I hope practitioners will not be as slack as I was and will be quick to look inward.
