(Clearwisdom.net) Two weeks ago, I was unable to get on the Internet to visit the Minghui website. I started to get worried and looked within to check if I had done anything wrong or if there was any attachment that I had yet to discover. I came to realize that the intention of browsing the Internet was not pure. I like to read news about everyday affairs. When I turn on the computer, I do not go straight to the Minghui website. Instead, I read about news on stocks. Although I don't invest in stocks, I own some structured deposits. As the share prices fluctuate, the value of my structured deposits are affected. Thus, I look forward to the increase of the share prices so that I can redeem my deposit sooner and reduce my financial losses. I know that my attachment towards money should be eliminated. A practitioner should not have the attachment to personal gain and profit. I tried to be firm many times, but I could not bear to incur any losses. This is already taking the path arranged by the evil old forces. They like to grab hold of a practitioner's attachments and use them as an excuse to pull the practitioner down in his cultivation. I sent forth righteous thoughts, but I still could not calm down. I was not able to concentrate. I was still restricted from accessing the Internet and this lasted for a few days. How was I going to make truth clarification materials? How was I going to print Minghui Weekly for my fellow practitioners? I was so frustrated.
In the afternoon, I exchanged my thoughts with fellow practitioners in our small Fa study group. Fellow practitioners said that recently the blockade on the Internet has been very severe. They said that they also had not been able to access the Internet. (This was acknowledging the arrangements of the evil old forces.) After hearing this, my heart, which was suspended in anxiety, suddenly dropped. So it was not only me! All of us were having trouble. The CCP was causing us trouble, so I must eradicate it! After going home, I sent forth righteous thoughts for a long period of time and also increased the frequency. Later, I turned on the computer while calling out to Master for help. If the first attempt did not work, I would try a second time and if it still did not work, I would try again and I would not give up. I did not believe that the evil could block me. Suddenly in a flash, the Minghui website appeared before me. "Thank you, Master! Thank you, Master!" I saw Master's photo and also read experience sharing articles from our fellow practitioners. I was so moved that I cried. I quickly downloaded and printed the booklet with instructions on how to circumvent the Internet blockade.
In accessing the same website, with the same software, why is it that some practitioners were not interfered with and could still access the Internet? Is this not a gap? Is it because we did not believe in Master one hundred percent? With regards to the interference and persecution by the old forces, why must we first acknowledge it and then eradicate it or cleanse ourselves?
Didn't Master tell us,
"Of course, each one of our Dafa disciples says that we don't recognize the old forces' arrangements, but that's not something you just say--you have to follow the requirements of Dafa and the Fa-rectification. "I absolutely will not acknowledge any of those things you arranged in the past, old forces. I don't even acknowledge you." When your righteous thoughts are very strong you can purge it and you can reject their arrangements. (Applause) And that's because we absolutely cannot acknowledge them." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.")
I saw the selfishness I possessed. When I heard that everyone could not access the Internet, my first thought was not of whether Dafa's website will suffer losses or whether fellow practitioners' truth clarification efforts will be interfered with. The first thing I thought of was that it is not "me" who cannot access the Internet, thus it was as though it was none of my business. If we did not have loopholes, would the evil dare to interfere with us? Cultivation is a serious matter. Every step we take is very important and a determining factor for the next step. Thus we must eradicate the arrangements of the old forces fundamentally and not only pay lip service to doing so.