(Clearwisdom.net) I am a Falun Dafa disciple that has been forced to leave my home and also one that took the wrong path for a time. From the Fa, I understand that participating in group Fa-study is very important for Dafa practitioners to improve together and do the three things well. But I am in a new environment and not very familiar with the local practitioners, so I cannot currently join group Fa-study and sharing. After genuine cultivation and looking inward for a period of time, one day I saw a sharing article in "Minghui Weekly" about treating the Minghui/Clearwisdom website as a group sharing environment. I suddenly realized that Master was using this article to give me a hint.
I submitted my first sharing, and, though I hardly expected it to be, it was published. The editor even changed my article a little bit by adding that "transformation" was wrong. Actually, there had always been a bad thought in my mind: though I knew that being "transformed" was wrong, I justified it with the thought that in that kind of evil environment, there was nothing else I have could done. Some practitioners that I know also have this notion. When I saw the edited article, I immediately realized that how I viewed "transformation" was absolutely wrong.
I have continued to submit sharing articles again and again. I try to write down things that I have enlightened to and lessons I have learned. Sometimes the articles get published and sometimes they don't. Either way, I take it as an opportunity to find my shortcomings, improve my xinxing, and fulfill this cultivation environment of Dafa practitioners. Before, when I was at school, my writing skills were not very good, but I didn't let this human notion hold me back. When I write, I try to keep the words simple, I'm careful to watch my punctuation, I use full sentences, and I use characters correctly. I try to think of others--we should not make the editors waste all their time correcting our mistakes.
Writing a sharing article is an opportunity to look inward and cultivate oneself. If the article gets published, there may be things that have been modified. By thinking about why things have been modified, one can discover one's shortcomings. If the article does not get published, then one can look at articles covering similar topics, which are likely to be more clear and comprehensive; thus, one can discover one's shortcomings just the same. Either way, it is a good opportunity for improvement. One time after my article was published, I got feedback from another practitioner who had written about the topic from another perspective. This helped me see my shortcomings. Then, too, several times after my articles were published, I had the attachment of self importance and thought I was better than my fellow practitioners. After that, none of my articles got published and I realized I was wrong.
I really appreciate this opportunity Master has given me for group sharing based on the Fa. I personally like the "Fa Principle Discussion" and "Special Recommendation Articles" in the Minghui Weekly and Minghui Cultivation Corner. I attach great importance to sharing based on Fa principles. I have just realized that cultivation is guiding oneself with Fa principles and now I am clear about what Master meant by "take the Fa as the teacher." I used to be satisfied with my perception of the beauty of Dafa and did not live by the standard of the Fa. As a result, I headed down the wrong path.
Of course I have also learned some lessons. For instance, sometimes when I get online, I am moved by human attachments and search for things that I am interested in. Afterwards I feel very dizzy, or the MP3 that I use for downloading articles will have problems. Once I realize my mistake, everything goes back to normal. I have experienced this several times. Also, my printer's behavior pretty much reflects my xinxing. When I do not have bad thoughts in my mind, copies of the Nine Commentaries, stickers, and Divine Performing Arts posters all print well and look really beautiful, but whenever some kind of human notion emerges, the printer will immediately start acting up.
Now I know that as long as we have the heart to cultivate diligently, Master will help us do everything. I really value this group sharing environment that Master has given us, and I thank Master for giving me this opportunity to see my shortcomings. I constantly remind myself to look inward and to put myself in Dafa and among fellow practitioners. No matter what happens, I will look at it as a chance to discover more of my shortcomings. This way, I feel that I am improving very quickly.
I wrote this sharing article because I know that there are other practitioners like me. They do not have a group Fa-study or sharing environment and feel bad about it. They all hope that they can somehow assimilate into the group environment of Dafa practitioners. Actually, Master has already given us a very good group sharing environment--Clearwisdom.net. It is up to us whether we use it or not. We cannot just wait and depend on things around us to change. We must give up the attachment of depending on others, break the old forces' arrangements, and do the "three things" better.