(Clearwisdom.net)

1. My Prolonged Process of Becoming a Practitioner

I have not always been a diligent Dafa practitioner. Although I obtained Dafa in 1995, I did not then have a deep understanding. I also could not resist the temptation of Karaoke and ballroom dancing, which were very prevalent in society at the time. I gave up cultivation within a year and spent most of my spare time on ballroom dancing.

In 1999 when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the persecution of Falun Gong I was very perplexed: Why did the government want to oppress the people who cultivate "Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance?" Although I had stopped cultivating for four years, the Communist Party did not leave me alone. They collected names of people who had practiced Falun Gong, and my name was reported and put on the "Black List." At the time they started "three-help-one," that is three people (one of them must be a cadre) forcefully brainwashed me (or what they call "doing the mind-work"). They asked me to say bad things about Teacher and Falun Gong, and also asked me to write a "warranty" promising that I would never practice Falun Gong again.

I felt very peculiar. I had not practiced Falun Gong for a long time. Why did they fear that I would practice it again? Although I did not have a deep understanding of Dafa, I truly believed that "Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance" were good. As such, I firmly refused their unreasonable request to write the "warranty." Under the pressure from his superiors, one of the cadres in the Human Resource department of my work unit faked a so-called "warranty" in my name to fulfill his "assignment." A year later, this cadre and I were both transferred to the same department in another district. There was also a Dafa practitioner in that district. She learned that I had practiced Falun Gong before and that I suffered from hypertension, so she talked to me again and again asking me to start practicing again. But I did not listen to her. I was lazy and liked to sleep late in the morning. I also liked to play Mahjong. I was afraid to endure the hardship in cultivation.

In a wink three years had passed and something happened that really awakened me. The cadre who wrote the "warranty" in my name died in a traffic accident. This shocked me... for an active person like that to die suddenly. A person like me who has high blood pressure would have no guarantee to live a good life, either. I started to feel that life was meaningless.

Just as I was losing my confidence in life, the Dafa practitioner in my work unit lent me a hand. She told me the truth of Falun Dafa and showed me the Dafa materials. She told me about the various evil means the CCP used to defame Teacher, slander Dafa and persecute Dafa practitioners. She also told me about the heavenly rule of retribution. She brought two other Dafa practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts with me. They taught me how to meditate in the lotus position. I copied their movements and positions, but I could only do one leg folding. I did not know the formulas for sending righteous thoughts either, so I just did it with them without any thoughts in my mind. As such, I entered into the cultivation of Dafa again. It was already April 2003. Not only had I begun to cultivate myself, but I also began to validate Dafa, clarify the truth about Dafa and save sentient beings. I was not familiar with all of these things and had to start from the very beginning. With the help of the fellow practitioners, I learned very quickly.

I remember at the time, whenever I thought about cultivating Falun Dafa, all my hypertension symptoms would disappear. I checked my blood pressure several days in a row, and it all turned out to be normal. Later, I simply stopped checking. One month after I reentered cultivation, one afternoon all the hypertension symptoms reappeared suddenly. I quickly realized that this was the Teacher cleansing my body and eliminating my karma. So I did not treat it as an illness. The next morning I woke up feeling very relieved physically and mentally. All the uncomfortable sensations were gone. After this incident my xinxing elevated very quickly. I cleared out much unhappiness accrued at the bottom of my heart over a long time. I also actively resolved some conflicts I had with some people during the New Year and at the same time told them the truth.

2. Clarifying the Truth and Persuading People to Quit CCP

In November 2004, The Epoch Times published The Nine Commentaries of the Communist Party. I realized that our task of clarifying the truth and saving sentient beings was getting heavier, and that our time was running out. At that time I was very busy with my work. Often I could not send righteous thoughts at 12:00 p.m. and 6 p.m., nor could I do enough Fa study and the exercises. My home was a long distance away from my work place; so, I decided to quit my job. After quitting, I studied 5 or 6 chapters of the Fa everyday. In addition to the four collective times, I would send righteous thoughts 3 or 4 times each day. However, I ran into some hurdles in clarifying the truth and persuading people to quit the CCP. I did not have any acquaintances near my home, nor did I have any friends. So I went to seek help from fellow practitioners and asked them to take me along when they went to clarify the truth.

The local practitioners took me to the countryside. During this process of truth-clarification I eliminated many of my human attachments, and learned from fellow practitioners' many experiences. Later, I tried to talk with people myself. Sometimes people were persuaded quite easily. Sometimes, it was quite hard to persuade some people, but I did not give up. I would talk to people whenever I got a chance.

Later I remembered that I was well acquainted with many of my husband's colleagues, so, I started to look for opportunities to talk to them. In order to facilitate my door-to-door truth-telling, I brought with me the local specialties my mother-in-law had given me from her hometown. I would give these special products to each family, then tell them about the persecution of Falun Gong, and persuade them to quit the CCP. When my husband's colleagues got married, I also used the opportunities to visit their homes, give them gifts and tell them the truth.

Each of us Dafa practitioners is on our own path of clarifying the truth. We each have our own ways but, no matter what method we use, we are just walking on the road paved by Teacher in the format arranged by Teacher. We are just doing what has been prearranged. Whenever we have a pure heart and are solely thinking of the benefit to others, the outcome is usually good. However, if we are only trying to complete our task thinking: "I have told you the truth, it is your own business to choose your future. It all depends on yourself whether to be saved or to be eliminated," rather than thinking that I should reach out to save you, then the outcome will not be good. Of course, there are people who, as Teacher has said, cannot be saved. For some people, even if you have done everything for them, even if you took out your heart for them, they would still not believe you and still refuse to quit the CCP. I have met a lot of these people, but I am not discouraged.

My understanding of the Fa is limited, and my level is limited. Fellow practitioners, please point out any inappropriateness with kindness.

January 22, 2008