(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in 2004. I would like to write down for the families of Falun Gong practitioners how I became a practitioner.
My husband started practicing Falun Gong in the years before the persecution began. I supported my husband while taking care of our young child. He went to the park to practice the exercises every day. He was very diligent at home and was caring toward the family. When he introduced Dafa to people, I always helped him.
Soon after the persecution began, my husband went to Tiananmen Square to protest. He was arrested, so after that, he had to leave home to avoid even more persecution. Because of the intense pressure and the evil Communist Party propaganda, I developed resentment toward my husband. My daughter was very young, and it was very hard for me to raise her on my own, especially when she was sick. I am very traditional, and I did not want to get divorced. I lived a very hard life and got very tired of it.
In several years, I only saw my husband a few times. But oftentimes we argued and left each other with complaints and resentment. I was fully focused on raising my daughter. Financially, my husband could not help us in any way.
In 2004, I finally decided to get a divorce, so I took my daughter and went to my husband's place to live with him for a few more months and then leave him for good. Within those months, my husband took good care of us just like he did in the past. He played with our daughter and helped in the house. Sometimes, other practitioners visited us. One night, I saw my husband sitting in meditation. I became angry and threw something at him. Although we were about three meters apart, I still hit him. He started clarifying the truth about Dafa and the persecution. He told me some amazing stories, his own thoughts and experiences, and other practitioners' stories. He demonstrated the fifth exercise to me. In my heart, I very clearly understood my husband's kindness. I just did not want to show it to him. In my heart, I truly admired practitioners.
About half a month remained. After that, I would have to raise our child on my own. I did not know what to do. One day, when I was home alone, I picked up a Dafa book and started reading. After reading it for a while, I thought, "He always does the meditation exercise. I can do that, too." So I tried to sit in the lotus position. It was easy for me, so I started doing the meditation exercise. Immediately, I felt as though I was sitting in a bumpy car, so I stopped right away. When I resumed the exercise, it felt bumpy again. (Later my husband told me that was due to the energy current.) I thought, "Is this for real?" From then on, I read Dafa books regularly.
Those days were very good, and I read the books one by one. My husband took over all the housework. Our daughter behaved very well, too. I read Master's lectures one by one. I only stopped when it was time to eat and time to go to sleep. Sometimes, I was full of tears. Sometimes, I was so thrilled. Sometimes, I fell into deep thought. Sometimes, my thought karma stopped me. When I did not understand something, I went to ask my husband. He said just ignore the thought karma and keep reading, and that it was interference. I read all of Master's lectures within about a week. I wanted to know more. So I went on the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom) and read fellow practitioners' experience sharing articles. I was deeply touched by their righteous thoughts and actions. I asked myself, "What would I do if I were a veteran practitioner?" As long as I melt into the Fa, I can break through the challenging times with righteous thoughts and actions. I can offer salvation to sentient beings.
Soon after that, I became a Falun Gong practitioner. Master protects me. Watching the lecture videos, a screen showed up on the wall. The table, my skin--everything was golden. The size of the screen expanded and shrank. I could see it with my eyes open or closed. Within ten days, I had watched the videos and read the Dafa books and articles on the Minghui website. I have become more and more clear-minded. As I looked at people on the street walking by, I felt grateful and fortunate to have obtained the Fa. I should catch up with the advancement of Fa-rectification and be more diligent with my cultivation.
A week later, as I walked into the living room after dinner, I saw some scenes in other dimensions with my eyes open or closed. After five minutes, the scenes were gone. I knew Master was giving me a hint to catch up. Later, our daughter obtained the Fa, too. I played Master's lectures for her. I helped her recite Hong Yin and Lunyu. A huge change occurred within a very short period of time. Fellow practitioners were surprised and happy for me.
I have cultivated for four years now. Sometimes I have done well, and sometimes I haven't. I know that is what cultivation is all about. When I fall, I need to get up immediately and continue the journey. I obtained the Fa late, so I cannot slow down. Even if I fly, I still cannot catch up with the veteran practitioners who have practiced for ten years. I seriously told my husband and my mother-in-law, "You were so selfish. Why did you not tell me what this truly is? Why did you not tell me with patience what the Fa was about? When you told people about the Fa, you always focused on the perspective of improving one's health, which did not apply to me. Why didn't you tell me about the Fa from my perspective?"
I wrote this article because I wanted to tell fellow practitioners that, with patience, you should put more effort into clarifying the facts about Dafa to your families. At home, you should follow the principles of a Dafa practitioner. Please avoid having them tell you one day, "Why were you so selfish! Why didn't you tell me about this great Fa earlier?"
I was able to become a practitioner within a very short period of time. I think others can, too, so I have started paying attention to people around me. I know how they think about practitioners because I have been there. I know what their attachments are, especially people similar to me. Master arranged for me to get to know a woman with a child. She used to be a flight attendant, and she believed in Buddhism. I started having conversations with her. Later she read Zhuan Falun and other lectures. She understood the truth and started practicing Dafa. We formed a Fa-study group and are diligent in cultivation together.
Anybody around you might have a predestined relationship with Dafa. They might just be living in a maze and waiting for you to tell them the truth to awaken them, which includes the family members you live with every day and night!