(Clearwisdom.net) Today when reciting the Fa, I came across Master's following words:
"We have to dig all of those out, drive them all out for you, and completely get rid of them at the root." ("The Second Talk" from Zhuan Falun)
I was shocked when I suddenly found one of my problems: Even when I realize where I am wrong, I am not willing to resolve to correct it. I have truly not done well. Cultivation practice is serious. I repeatedly cover up my actions and extol myself without really cultivating. That is deceiving myself!
All things that are not good must be completely removed by their roots. I knew before that I should dig them out by the roots, but today when I was reciting the Fa, the word "completely" suddenly stood out. It was so big that it made me realize that I have been been too lax with myself, and that I have not held myself to a strict standard. When dealing with matters, I was not judging them from the standpoint of the Fa. Instead I was judging by my own preferences. When I needed to strive forward I could do it, but when I could relax I would take it easy and enjoy my time. I was insensitive while sending forth righteous thoughts and doing the exercises. When I wanted to do something, I would, but otherwise I would not. I was very far from meeting the standard of a real Falun Dafa disciple, and I had not enlightened.
Reciting the Fa today, it was like a blow from a hammer knocking me awake. I realized that a genuine god abides by his or her pledge, and my pledge is: "Be a genuine Dafa disciple, assimilate to the Fa, and help Master in Fa-rectification." Therefore, I should do what a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple is supposed to do, do it well, listen to Master's teachings, and completely defer to what Master says. This is abiding by my pledge and fulfilling it.