(Clearwisdom.net) I am a veteran Falun Gong practitioner, as well as a person with a high level of education. Combined with the fact that I am a local celebrity, I have also been quite well-known among Falun Gong practitioners in my area. Because I didn't study the Fa thoroughly, I used to believe all the gossip about a coordinator doing Falun Gong truth-clarification work in our area. Because I didn't give her the benefit of the doubt, I stubbornly insisted that all the gossip about her was true. Consequently, thick layers of prejudice isolated me from her as well as the practitioners that worked closely with her. My prejudice prevented me from noticing anything good about her. I was increasingly convinced that she had been arranged by the old forces to be among Falun Gong practitioners in order to damage the Fa. I started to share my opinions about her with practitioners that were closer to me, which caused additional layers of partitioning between us. These barriers lasted for a few years.
Over the past few years, the coordinator and practitioners close to her often approached me and told me that my prejudice had overcome me and that I had followed the path that the old forces had arranged. I found their accusations offensive and thought, "It is you that are part of the old forces' arrangements. How dare you call me a stormy petrel?" One day, they came to me again to exchange cultivation experiences. Afterwards, I heard that they had sent forth righteous thoughts for a few days before they approached me. In hindsight, I was restless and sleepless during those few days. Later, I kept on studying the Fa diligently. Teacher's article entitled, "Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference," was a great help. I have since changed my opinion about the coordinator. I also told other practitioners to get rid of their prejudice against her. When I saw her again, I felt completely normal about her. I felt there were no longer any barriers between us.
However, I still felt that my cultivation state wasn't very good, and I encountered physical interference that resembled sickness karma. I had no idea what was wrong with me. After all, I thought I was a cultivator that was keeping up with the pace of the Fa-rectification as long as I was doing the Three Things Teacher requires of us. I had no idea how to harmonize with the one-body of Falun Gong practitioners. After Teacher published, "Pass the Deadly Test," we had a group sharing in our area.
One day, these practitioners visited again to exchange cultivation experiences. I entered the room and listened to their sharing for only a little while when I started to find their sharing repulsive. I began to feel restless and impatient. I wanted to jump up right away and leave, but I stayed and sent forth righteous thoughts to eradicate the interference in my heart. After 30 minutes, I felt a strong energy field in the room and no longer wished to leave. However, something near my right rear side spoke, "Why don't you stop cultivation practice all together?" It repeated these words a few times. I was on guard the very first time it spoke to me. I thought, "This is a severely degenerated being. No matter what, I shall persevere in my cultivation practice. I must not fall prey to its manipulation. This is something that has severely disturbed my cultivation practice. I must fight and eliminate it." A great battle between the righteous and the evil exploded in my dimension. I didn't hear anything that fellow practitioners were saying.
After I returned home, I stayed up all night. Finally I identified that deep down in my heart there were still layers of partitioning between fellow practitioners and me. Teacher said,
"In the Tao School, the great and small heavenly circuits are taught. We will explain what the 'heavenly circuit' is. The heavenly circuit that we usually refer to is the connecting of the two energy channels of ren and du. This heavenly circuit is a skin-deep heavenly circuit which accounts for nothing but healing and fitness. This is called the small heavenly circuit. Another heavenly circuit that is neither called 'the small heavenly circuit' nor 'the great heavenly circuit' is a form of heavenly circuit for practicing cultivation in meditation. Starting inside one's body, it goes around niwan and comes down internally to the dantian, where it goes around and moves up. It is an internal circulation. This is the real heavenly circuit for practicing cultivation in meditation. After this heavenly circuit forms, it will become a very powerful energy current which then brings hundreds of energy channels in motion via one energy channel, so as to open up all other energy channels." ("Heavenly Circuit" in Lecture Eight of Zhuan Falun)
My mind became clear all of sudden. I finally identified the root cause. I thought there was no longer any barrier between us, but it was phony. Essentially, I didn't genuinely eliminate that thought and that bad notion. This time, the core of my bad notion finally burst out onto the surface. I had to thoroughly eradicate it.
The following day I went to the coordinator and searched inside myself thoroughly. She helped me look inward, too. I finally eliminated all the layers of partitioning that had kept us apart for a long time. On my way home, something fell off my back onto the road. I couldn't identify what it was, but it sat on the ground crying and stomping the ground. (My Celestial Eye is open.) I finally realized that for the longest time it had made my body its habitat and it had kept me separated from the coordinator because my loophole in my cultivation practice had invited it in. It was the culprit that told me the coordinator was hard at work for the old forces. That day I finally drove it out of my body. All the partitioning between the coordinator and me was finally eliminated.
Afterwards, I slowly started to harmonize with the one-body of Falun Gong practitioners in my area. All the physical pain suddenly disappeared. My cultivation state made a 180-degree turn. I now know to be responsible for the Fa, for the one-body of Falun Gong practitioners, and for all fellow practitioners.
I decided to write this article in the hope that those practitioners who share similar problems will learn from my lesson and avoid taking the same detour in their cultivation practice. Let's eliminate all the layers of partitioning between fellow practitioners! Let's see through the evil, harmonize with the one-body of practitioners, improve our cultivation practice together, and fulfill our prehistoric grand pledge with the purest mentality!
Please kindly correct anything inappropriate in my limited understanding.