(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings Master, Greetings fellow practitioners!
I am glad to be here presenting my experience-sharing paper today at the New England Fa Conference. I am going to talk about some experiences in my cultivation. Hopefully, you will gain something from my sharing, and I also hope this presentation can help me improve in my future cultivation.
Master has pointed out,
"...today's mankind has come to this point with karma rolling on top of karma; besides sickness-karma, a person has other kinds of karma as well. So people have hardships, tribulations, and tensions in their lives. How could they only pursue happiness without paying for karma? People nowadays have so much karma that they are soaked in it, and they will encounter unpleasant things at any time and in any situation. Bad things await a person the moment he steps out the door." ("Sickness Karma" in Essentials for Further Advancement)
Every time I encountered a tribulation, it came on suddenly and I was not prepared for it. On June 16 of this year, I went to stay at a fellow practitioner's house. We planned to do some work in the field on the Mountain the next day. Because of my inattention, I jammed my right foot on the steps to her fireplace. My foot was numb but I paid no attention to it. Later, my foot started to swell and hurt. I found I was not able to wear my shoe. My toes turned blue and my foot was badly swollen. I worried because during the next two days I would need to be working in the field. But I remembered I am a Dafa disciple; we are protected by Master and the Fa. So I told myself I must overcome this tribulation. Two practitioners came to take care of me that evening. I studied the Fa and did the exercises with them. The next morning my foot was much better; the swelling was not so bad and the pain lessened. After breakfast, we started to work in the field. I was able to perform some easy jobs like weeding and cleaning the ground. That evening I continued to study the Fa, do the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts. I was fully recovered the next morning. I then was able to work in the field at my full capacity. I knew it was Master who had healed my wound and helped me recover so quickly. How divine Dafa's power is.
Another thing happened to me on the evening of July 8. One of my index fingers was hit by a heavy falling window. It bled a lot and the gash was 1 cm long near the joint. I wrapped the finger quickly with a kitchen towel. It was quite painful and I had to keep walking back and forth in the kitchen to distract myself from the pain. I said to myself that I would be okay. I remembered Master said that the thought at that moment was crucial (not original words). And different thoughts would lead to different outcomes. When my son-in-law looked at my cut, it was big and the nail and nearby skin had turned blue while bleeding. He phoned my daughter and asked her to take me to the hospital. I told my daughter that I was okay and that my finger had basically stopped bleeding. Although it still bled when my pulse beat and my finger was badly swollen, I was not afraid at all. I knew I was a Dafa disciple and I would be all right. On the third day after the incident, I tried to write letters and mail copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party to China. I felt my work was slower but not affected very much. On the fourth day, my finger improved. After seven days the swelling was gone and the wound was getting better. I have now fully recovered from it.
I looked inward and found my loopholes had been taken advantage of by the evil because I hadn't done the three things well. I didn't read a full lecture of Zhuan Falun every day. And I often missed sending forth righteous thoughts twice in one day. I sometimes fell asleep when trying to get my little grandson to fall asleep and thus was not awake for righteous thoughts in the evening. In clarifying the truth, I only sent three copies of the Nine Commentaries to China daily. I used to make phone calls to China to encourage people to quit the Chinese Communist Party. But I made fewer and fewer phone calls gradually. I felt it was difficult to clarify the truth over the phone and I was feeling lazy about it. After the two incidents, I realized I have to remind and alert myself constantly. No matter how busy I am, I must do the three things well. Otherwise, I will be ashamed to be given the name of Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple.
During November, a court hearing was going to take place. The case was regarding Dafa media, and many disciples were planning to go there to send forth righteous thoughts. I wanted to go as well. But I could only make it to one of the four days of the hearing because I had to take care of my little grandson when he didn't go to daycare. I asked my daughter to find out if the daycare center could change days for my grandson but the principal told her that they could not. I went to the hearing on Tuesday. That evening my daughter told me the daycare center needed the kids to be there on Wednesday to take photos. I therefore was able to attend Wednesday's hearing. That evening, my daughter told me that the daycare center had made a mistake; the photos would be taken on Thursday. I therefore was able to make it to the hearing three days that week. This made me think of Master's words in a poem,
"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide"
("The Master-Disciple Bond" in Hong Yin II)
I knew it was all Master's arrangements. I truly thanked Master in my heart.
I remembered one thing that happened when my elder grandson was a 3rd grade student. One day he suddenly behaved very strangely, with his head turning to one side continuously and his eyes kept rolling back in his head. He said his eyes were bothering him. The doctor prescribed some eyewash for him but it didn't work. When he returned home from school, I told him that Falun Dafa was good; many people have re-gained their health through practicing it and even those who didn't practice at all got cured by just quietly reciting the sentence "Falun Dafa is good." I suggested that he recite "Falun Dafa is good," "Zhen Shan Ren is good" 30 times. He followed what I said and felt much better afterwards. On the morning of the third day, he had fully recovered. This really showed the miraculous power of Dafa.
My younger grandson has suffered from irritable dermatitis. He would feel extremely itchy if he ate wheat, legumes, peanuts, meat, eggs, etc. One day he wanted to eat some nuts. He was crying hard so I agreed that he could try one. After half a minute, he started to feel itchy. A rash developed on his face and all over the body. He couldn't bear the itching and was crying hard. I told him that we should go to Master's picture and asked him for help. I confessed to Master that I should not have let him try a new food and now we had learned a lesson. After we did this, my grandson stopped crying and fell asleep. The next morning, the rash was completely gone and his skin was as beautiful as if it had been changed into brand new skin. I felt Dafa was so amazing and I have encountered many similar experiences.
I used to have a good friendship with an ex-colleague. I tried to make phone calls to her several times, but no one answered the phone. Later on I tried again and her husband picked up the phone. He told me that she had died of lung cancer three days prior. He was busy preparing for her funeral. I felt sad. If I had phoned her earlier, she might have been saved. I phoned her husband again later on and encouraged him to quit the evil party in order to save himself. He withdrew from the Party's Youth League and Youth Pioneers immediately with an alias. He also encouraged his family to quit the CCP. His five children and their spouses and his four grandchildren, in total 14 people, all made a declaration to quit the CCP. I was truly happy to see that his whole family had been saved.
Sometimes I would experience interference when making phone calls to China. Someone was monitoring the conversation. When I mentioned the Nine Commentaries, and quitting the CCP, I would hear an echo. When encountering this situation I would talk about the truth more thoroughly so the monitors could also hear it. I told them the importance of doing good deeds and accumulating virtue. Sometimes the noise would stop then. If the monitors could hear the truth, it was also an opportunity for them to be saved.
At the end of last year, my sister called and asked me to stop making phone calls to China. She suggested that I only practice at home. She also mentioned that I still received 2,000 yuan pension every month. She hinted that if I kept making phone calls, I might lose the income. Later I learned it was the CCP who was behind all this. They would like to stop me from making phone calls to China by threatening to stop my pension. My daughter told my sister that she would support me here if I lost my income. I also told my sister that I would do what I should do at any cost. No one would be able to stop my cultivation. I stressed to her that all that I had been doing was for the purpose of saving people.
Due to various reasons, I often missed the best two time slots to call China. There was also some interference blocking me. But I would insist on making phone calls to China. As any phone call that gets through would make a difference. And I wish to save as many people as possible. Recently, through phoning China, I got information about two of my previous students. One is now residing in San Francisco and the other one is in Los Angeles. After I made phone calls to them, both of them withdrew from CCP's Youth League and Youth Pioneers. They also made declarations for their parents.
Reviewing all my years of cultivation, I felt I have improved my xinxing. But I am still far away from Master's expectations. Also, I still have a lot to learn from fellow practitioners. Sometimes I have frictions with my daughter and do not always control my temper well. But every time I study the Fa, I am able to take things lightly. I am still not patient enough with my younger grandson. I also have a strong pursuit. I wish that my elderly grandson would start cultivation and this has become an attachment. To sum it up, I have to study the Fa more and do the three things well. In doing so I hope I won't feel any regret when one day I look back at the process of my cultivation.
I will conclude my sharing with Master's poem,
"'Tis not that the journey of cultivation is painful,
Karma from generation upon generation is blocking you.
Steel your will,
eliminate karma,
cultivate xinxing,
And become a Buddha who keeps forever the human body."
("Cause and Effect" in Hong Yin)
Thank you Master. Thank you all.