(Clearwisdom.net)

In October 1999, my company pressured me to renounce Falun Dafa. Under threats from my company and coercion from my family members, and in order to avoid becoming destitute and homeless, I wrote for my company a so-called "Guarantee Statement" of "not practicing Falun Gong" against my will. I even symbolically handed over some precious Dafa books and materials. Because I had not studied the Fa deeply, I thought it was simply a matter of playing some word games to deceive the authorities so that I would not be persecuted anymore. I still considered myself to be practicing and studying wholeheartedly. I even wrote letters to fellow practitioners to encourage them to follow my actions.. Through unceasingly studying the Fa, I realized that doing this was a complete mistake. In my inner heart it hid the attachments of fear and selfishness, and moreover the attachment to sentiment. I also had the kinds of deviated thoughts Teacher mentioned. Thereby, I solemnly declare that the pledge I made to "not practice" and the words I wrote which are not according Dafa are all null and void. I completely deny the arrangement of the old forces, and I will get rid of my attachments, wash away messy thoughts, and remove all notions and thought karma which are not according to Dafa. I will assimilate to Dafa, redouble my efforts to make up for the damage I have caused, do the three things our Master requires us to do well and firmly cultivate to the end.

Mao Weisheng

August 11, 2004

Translated on 9/15 from http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2004/9/7/83571.html

Before I practiced Falun Gong, I had many diseases and could not do anything. After I studied Dafa in 1998, all my diseases disappeared. In October 2002, the police forced me into a brainwashing center. There, they forced us to watch videos that slandered Falun Dafa. They used all kinds of methods, including coercion and threats, to force us to write the "four statements" (statements promising to give up practicing Dafa). If we refused, they made us stand up or squat for long periods of time, and would not allow us to sleep. Because I had not studied the Fa well, and I was attached to sentiment as well as consummation, the collaborators (former practitioners who have turned against Dafa under pressure) took advantage of these attachments to confuse me with complex logic. The old forces compelled us to write the "four statements" and forced us to denounce Dafa, betray our Master and violate our own conscience. This is the greatest shame in my life. If cultivators in the past had a thought of not cultivating, they would not be given another chance to cultivate. Yet today our great Mater is merciful to human beings and gives us chances again and again. From now on, I will closely follow the process of Fa-rectification, redouble my efforts to make up for the damage I have caused, and firmly cultivate to the end. The "four statements" I wrote under coercion and all my words and behavior which were not according to Dafa are invalid. I will do the three things our Master requires us to do well: study the Fa, send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth. I will become a qualified Dafa practitioner of the Fa-rectification period.

Ning Yanmei

September 2004

Translated on 9/15 from http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2004/9/11/83904.html