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Practitioner A and I have been living together for about two months, during which time conflicts have been constantly arising. Although both of us tried to look within ourselves, it just felt like there was no end to our conflicts.
I would often explain my understanding of things to practitioner A, hoping that he would be more cautious of certain things. I always feel like I'm assimilated with the Fa. This process has revealed many of my attachments. I remember practitioner A saying, "We are able to be compassionate to policemen, why then, can't we be the same with fellow practitioners?" I thought about it, realizing it really is like this, isn't it? Why can't we?
The situation continued like this until a group discussion where we were talking about how practitioners should treat each other. Master's words appeared in my head:
"Human beings acquire many notions in this world and are, as a consequence, driven by these notions to pursue what they yearn for. But when a person comes to this world, it is karmic arrangements that determine his course of life and what will be gained and lost in it. How could a person's notions determine each stage of his life? So those so-called 'beautiful dreams and wishes' become pursuits that can never be realized, despite painful attachments."
("Towards Consummation", Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I suddenly understood that this was exactly the origin of my attachment -- I was yearning for a perfect cultivation environment, full of harmony, mutual benevolence and respect. Although practitioners should be able to achieve this, because I have this fundamental attachment, even though the words were the same, the motive was different and the meaning behind my words was different. I was maintaining these notions of pursuit in my words, so the result was naturally bad.
Every Dafa practitioner advances at a different speed in cultivation. His or her life is different, and cultivation levels are different, too. Some practitioners can achieve something quickly, while for others it may take some time; either way would do. As long as everybody understands the importance of improving as a whole, and helps each other, shouldn't everything be good? After I got rid of my attachment, when I talked to practitioner A about my thoughts, he also understood.
While I am writing this, I continued to enlighten to the principles of the Fa, and I continue to improve myself. I would suggest that more practitioners write down their experiences in cultivation. I will end with Master's quote,
"The Buddha light illuminates everywhere;
Propriety and justice rectify and harmonize everything.
Strive forward together;
A bright future lies ahead"
(In Harmony With the Fa from Hong Yin).
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