I obtained the Fa in 1994. But because I didn't study the Fa deeply enough and I couldn't let go of sentimentality, I wrote the "3 statements," [statements declaring that the person is remorseful for practicing Falun Gong and guarantees not to practice Falun Gong again, not to go to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong, and never again associate with any Falun Dafa practitioner] and I've done things that were against the Fa and Teacher. I've felt extreme remorse and regret. The real painful thing was the fact that I didn't get back up, but maintained that sorrowful mentality, thinking that I had lost the right to be a practitioner. I felt hopeless, and the old forces took advantage of this, and made me fail to study the Fa or practice the meditation for a long time. After some recent Fa study, I learned that I was being led along the wrong path. The Teacher's compassion is immense; he has given me a lot of chances, but I didn't take heed. Now I feel regretful, but I know that being regretful doesn't help. So from now on, I'll do what I can to compensate. Therefore I hereby declare: all the things that I've done, under the pressure of the evil, that were against Dafa, are null and void. I'll practice the Fa until the very end. I'll follow the Fa-rectification closely, I'll regard the Fa as the Teacher, and complete the three things that the Teacher requested of us (study the Fa, send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth). I'll not shame the Teacher or the Fa again. I'll be a genuine practitioner during the Fa-rectification. I'll use real actions to compensate for the damages I've caused Dafa.
Practitioner, Ling Jia May 7, 2003
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Declaration
I started practicing Falun Gong in 1998. After a year of cultivation, I felt that the Fa was deep. Although I wasn't very steadfast, I kept practicing. After Jiang Zemin started persecuting Falun Gong on July 20, 1999, we went to appeal. Later I went to verify the Fa at the end of that year. My Fa study wasn't deep enough: when we were locked in the detention center, the beating and cursing from the police didn't affect me, but their fake-kindness won me over. I thought that I could just say "I quit" in the detention center and still practice when I left the place. But that was exactly their plan. They kept on playing their show in front of me. I wrote the guarantee letter. I knew that I'd failed Teacher. After my family members paid 5,600 Yuan, [a normal urban worker's monthly pay in China is about 500 Yuan] I was released.
Because of the disturbance to my family, and the fact that I felt regretful toward Dafa, I didn't dare to face Dafa. I kept my promise to the evil, and didn't practice or study for a year. But Dafa lived deep in my spirit, and it was still in me. Later I read Teacher's lectures from various places, and slowly I understood. I wanted to write a solemn declaration, but because of the lack of study and practice for a year, my Xinxing had degraded an awful lot. I was worried that I couldn't meet the requirement of a practitioner in the Fa-rectification period if I wrote a declaration. After reading the Teacher's "Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference," I felt that I should write this declaration. I hereby declare to China, the world and the whole universe:
I am a Falun Dafa practitioner
I don't accept the old force's persecution against me
I repudiate the guarantee that I wrote to the evils
I will be a righteous practitioner in the Fa-rectification period
I hereby want to thank the Teacher's effort to bring us salvation. I will redouble my effort to compensate for the damage that I've done to Dafa.
Practitioner Li Zhigang April 27, 2003
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