May 7, 2003
After reading Master Li's lecture in Los Angeles, I suddenly had a break-through in my understanding of the implications of Fa-study. That is, previously, I merely "studied" the "Fa," but I failed to further assimilate to Dafa during Fa-study. When I genuinely had strong righteous thoughts from the depth of my mind, "I want to assimilate to Dafa" and genuinely studied the Fa attentively, I found that everything of mine was changing very quickly and assimilating to Dafa. At the same time, all interference became very trivial. Those parts of my world that had not completely assimilated to Dafa dared not interfere, and also quickly assimilated to Dafa. In such a state, I could finish reading one lecture in a short period of time, and during the course of reading, I was completely surrounded by energy and illuminated by the light of the Fa. After I finished reading, my attention was still very focused and I still wanted to read more.
After a period of time, I ran into interference again when I studied the Fa and could not calm down. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it, but still felt that my heart was not peaceful. I increased the amount of my reading and extended the period of reading, and the situation improved somewhat, but the problem was not fundamentally resolved. I thought that whenever there was a problem, I had to search my inner self, "Cultivation practice is searching your inner self and discovering your own shortcomings, attachments and bad thoughts, as well as finding ways to cultivate better and to get rid of your bad thoughts. This is cultivation through searching your inner self. " (Lecture at the Fa-Conference in Canada) I once again remembered what Master Li emphasized in Zhuan Falun, that, "If you're coming here to learn the exercises, or the Great Law, with the goal of getting all kinds of things, then you won't learn anything," and "you can't come to learn the Law wanting to get something." I started to carefully examine myself and saw my own problems. In the past, I ran into some difficulty when I was doing certain things, so I felt worried. The more I worried, the more difficulties I ran into when I did that work. When I studied the Fa, I also carried those worries into my Fa-study. While I was studying the Fa, I still felt worried in my mind over the work that I could not finish. The result was that I didn't study the Fa well, the work could not be done well either, and I also wasted a lot of time. I re-adjusted my mental state so that I didn't think about anything else when I studied the Fa. I just concentrated on Fa-study and truly reached the state of "gaining without pursuit." This time, what had interfered with my Fa-study also completely disappeared and once again I could assimilate to Dafa with my whole body and mind. Shortly after, the work that I was worried about was also completed.
After the New York Fa Conference, I remembered that Master Li kept emphasizing that we need to study the Fa well. When talking about Fa-study, Master Li also mentioned in "Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference" that, "At higher levels the requirements are higher." I had the thought, "Why don't I make a copy of Zhuan Falun?" I would not pursue how many words or how fast I would copy the book. I would copy more when I had time and less when my time was limited. In fact, the requirements for copying the book are very high. As soon as one becomes a little bit absent-minded, one will make some mistakes in copying. Therefore, it won't work if one's mind is not peaceful when one copies the book. The best way for me is to copy the book with a peaceful mind and countless Fa-principles unfold to me layer after layer as I copy down one word after another. Dafa is really so wonderful!
Written on May 7, 2003