(Clearwisdom.net) Teacher not only saved me from the edge of death, but he also rearranged the path of my life. On my wedding day in December 1997, I saw a red Falun about one meter in diameter rotating in front of my husband and me. I thought that my marriage must have been arranged by Teacher, or else that unique scene would never have happened. Without Teacher, I would not have this happy family and I might not be in this world.
My health had been very bad. In July of 1996, I was very sick. My feet were so swollen that I could not get off the bed and was crying in pain. Teacher enlightened me, "This is to change your bones and body completely." When I was in sitting meditation, Teacher's Fashen [law body in another dimension] flashed past me and said, "the third word." I thought it must be the Forbearance in "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." I listened to Teacher's lecture tapes and did the sitting meditation every day. Bad smells of herbal medicine emanated from my body but I recovered within 10 days. Teacher cleansed my body as well as my heart. I require myself to always seek inside and not follow everyday people's examples.
Witnessing the disappearance of my severe symptoms in 10 days, my sister told the neighbors, "Falun Gong is so miraculous. I tried to cure her for so many years and the effect was not as good as her practicing Falun Gong." Therefore, my sister also started to practice Falun Dafa. Her diseases, including hypertension, arteriosclerosis, and heart disease, are all cured and her xinxing [mind and heart nature, morality] is upgraded. My miraculous change surprised all of my acquaintances. Some of them also started to practice Falun Dafa.
Before July 20, 1999, I had another body cleansing process. This time, my symptoms were more severe than before. My knees were so swollen that I could not move. Since I did not upgrade my xinxing, only one of my legs recovered. After July 20, the local police came to my house several times and asked me to sign their letter guaranteeing that I would not practice Falun Gong, not go to Beijing to appeal, not contact other practitioners, and so on. I said that I could not walk, so I can only guarantee not going to Beijing and not contacting other practitioners. The police said, "Then you can just sign." So I did sign. However, the more that I thought about it, the more that I thought it was wrong. Wasn't this cooperating with the evil's requirement? I was a non-qualified Dafa practitioner who betrayed Teacher's efforts to save me. On August 16, 2000, I wrote a solemn declaration and sent it to the police station along with material clarifying the truth about Dafa.
Several days later, seven people from the city's police department came. The Chief of Police asked me why I sent that letter. I said that I wanted to speak the truth. They asked me whether I still practiced Falun Gong. I said, "Yes. I would practice even if you beat me to death." The police started to search my house and found some Dafa materials and a book. The material had the phone number of another practitioner. The police threatened me, "Did this person give you these materials? Don't lie. Otherwise I will search your other room. It is impossible that you only have this one book." Then the police said some deceitful words and prepared to continue the search. My heart was moved. I was afraid of their taking all of Teacher's books away and said, "Yes." Later I became so regretful when I thought about it that I could not help crying. I did keep Teacher's books, yet I betrayed a fellow practitioner and left a mark that is difficult to wash away. Teacher said, "The more fearful they are inside, the more the evil specifically goes after such students" (from "Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" in Essentials for Further Advancement II). I had just written a declaration of my intention to follow Dafa yet again I could not pass the test. Since that time I have felt that a stone blocks my heart and I lost contact with the other practitioners. My fear did not go away and my human sentimentality became more and more prevalent. I thought that Teacher would not take care of me anymore. My xinxing fell and the disease came back again. My legs became unbearably painful.
Benevolent Teacher does not want to leave out even one practitioner. On December 30, 2001, I had a dream. I was climbing a steep cliff by holding onto the grass. Just one inch from the top, the grass that I was holding onto was pulled out by its roots. I immediately fell down and broke into pieces. At this critical moment, a hand pulled me to the top. When I woke up, I knew that it was Teacher who had saved me again.
In the morning, the local police again searched my house and found a copy of Zhuan Falun and two Dafa flyers. I tried but failed to grab the book back. I thought, "I will never cooperate with you." The policeman said, "I could have you sent to prison for three to five years just for these materials. With a body like yours, you would not be able to move after several months there." I thought that my life was saved by Teacher and I should never betray Teacher's salvation. So just let it be. "If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist." ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" Essentials for Further Advancement II) Just as I was thinking this way, the police's tone changed, "I will not push you. You can practice at home if you want. Just do not involve me." He took the book and walked out. I said, "You can read it at home. Please do things according to the heaven's law and do not do bad things." I repeated it twice. After he left, I sent forth righteous thoughts for half an hour. Several days ago, he came again and seemed to be a changed person. I advised him, "You should not interfere with me. It is heaven's law to reward the kind and punish the evil. It would be a pity for a person as young as you to be eliminated." He nodded, left, and has never come back since then.
Teacher opens up our supernormal powers, eliminates the evil factors, and completely disregards all arrangements made by the evil old forces. I thought that my leg pain was also arranged by the old forces. "The different tribulations and tests our students have gone through in this world are exactly the arrangement of these old forces. The tribulations the students have endured aren't caused by their own karma alone," ("Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. International Fa Conference" Guiding the Voyage) I should not go along with this arrangement when Teacher is against it. After sending forth righteous thoughts for five minutes after the hour, I clean out all the evil factors in my dimensions that were forcefully added to my body by the old forces. Now my leg is almost recovered. Seeing the change in me, my husband has also started to practice Dafa.
I will firmly practice Dafa, strive to follow the Fa-rectification process, redouble my efforts to make up for my mistakes, and follow Teacher to consummation.