(Clearwisdom.net)
Master's poem "The Difficult Path to Godhood": "Predestined relationships spanning endless lifetimes,/ Each connected by the thread of Dafa./ Through hardships the body of gold is tempered,/ Why such slow and leisurely steps?"
After reading this poem, a firm belief rose from the bottom of my heart: I came to this world for Dafa. I will take the pure and righteous path!
In the middle of June, I returned to Beijing. I settled down, studied the Fa with a calm heart and distributed truth-clarifying materials. Moreover, I could sense Master's arrangement and hints after every bit of improvement.
My thought of going to Tiananmen Square to rectify the Fa became stronger and stronger. Fellow practitioners gave me articles from Minghui covering the entire year of 2001. Around the end of 2001, there were many articles about Fa-rectification on Tiananmen Square. Fellow practitioners went to Tiananmen when they enlightened to it. I decided to go to Tiananmen to rectify the Fa, eliminate the evil, clarify the truth and break the arrangement of the old forces.
As soon as I decided, I looked at a picture of Teacher and found it vivid, shining and three-dimensional. I then studied the Fa calmly and told myself, "I must do well." I decided to unfurl the Dafa banner on the Jinshuiqiao Bridge and shout from the bottom of my heart at noon on July 22.
Just before July 20, a practitioner heard that I was going to Tiananmen and he arranged for a few practitioners to have a discussion with me. I recalled that I came to Beijing on July 20, 1999 to safeguard the Fa but was harassed by the evil when I returned. I was feeling depressed for a long time. Looking back, I felt extreme sorrow. Two fellow practitioners came to talk with me frankly. They comforted me and helped me recognize the difference between karmic retribution and the destructive arrangement of the old forces. Previously, I did not have a firm foundation in the Fa and thus received more severe persecution. They encouraged me to break the arrangement of the old forces and to eliminate the psychological burden. They also raised many examples of other fellow practitioners' Fa-rectification experiences and helped me to have a clearer understanding. Fa-rectification is to rectify everything not righteous and distinguish the good from the evil.
One day, many bad thoughts suddenly emerged. The thought karma and attachments all interfered severely. When a fellow practitioner saw me, she sent forth righteous thoughts to help me eliminate those evil factors. She also told me of her experience of breaking through tribulations with righteous thoughts on Tiananmen Square. She recommended that I read the Fa loudly and send forth righteous thoughts more often. I tried her recommendation and the results were very good.
On another day, my fear came up again. I happened to meet two fellow practitioners. One was a very slim lady. She had been imprisoned in both Wanjia Forced Labor Camp and Jiamusi. She told me that she made it through the ordeal by relying on Teacher's Hong Yin and "Lunyu," which she memorized. The other practitioner was a big man from Shandong Province. He went to Tiananmen Square on "Falun Dafa Day in Beijing" and was arrested. He got out after clarifying the truth and two weeks of hunger striking. He then told me that recently he was arrested where he lived. He was initially feeling very bad, but then he put down all his human notions to keep clarifying the truth and sending forth righteous thoughts. The Beijing police did not know how to deal with him and sent him home with the police from his hometown. On the train, he kept sending forth righteous thoughts and asking Teacher's help. The train suddenly decelerated. With a firm belief in Dafa, he jumped out of the train and broke the arrangements of the old forces.
I continued Fa study calmly. When I read Teacher's article "Dafa is Indestructible": "As a Dafa disciple, everything of yours is formed by Dafa and is the most righteous, and it can only be that [you] rectify everything that is not righteous. How could you bow to the evil? How could you promise something to the evil?" It deeply touched my heart. I realized why I was terrified of the evil before. Now, Teacher is helping me rectify all of this and I understood that I must not yield to the evil.
When reading Teacher's article "A Suggestion," I understood the principle of "giving." "These people who only want to take from Dafa and not give for Dafa are, in the eyes of gods, the worst beings." I now deeply understood the seriousness and holiness of cultivation.
I was able to stay tranquil while sending forth righteous thoughts; sometimes I was able to do it for half an hour.
At 10:00 a.m. on July 22, 2002, fellow practitioner Xiaofei and I went to Tiananmen Square. Xiaofei held my right arm to help me send forth righteous thoughts. We found many plainclothes police around the underground passages. There were police vehicles near the Jinshuiqiao Bridge. Also, there were police patrolling and examining the tourists. Xiaofei said that I should treat myself as a divine being for Fa-rectification. I recited "Indestructible righteous faith in the cosmos's Truth forms benevolent Dafa disciple's rock-solid, Diamond-Like Bodies, it frightens all evil, and the light of Truth it emanates makes the unrighteous elements in all beings' thoughts disintegrate. However strong the righteous thoughts are, that's how great the power is. Dafa disciples are truly stepping forward out of ordinary humanness." ("Also in a Few Words")
On 11:50 a.m., Xiaofei and I separated and each went our own way. She went to the hallway of Tiananmen to send forth righteous thoughts and I went to the Jinshuiqiao Bridge. Military police and plainclothes police were present. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all the evil forces in other dimensions who were trying to sabotage Dafa. I tried to decide where to unfurl the banner. I wore a white shirt and a long orange skirt. The banner was folded around my waist. A young girl tapped me and asked me to help take a picture. After taking the picture, I asked her the time. She looked at her watch and said it was 12 o'clock. I knew it was time and my heart started pumping. I stood in the middle of the bridge and saw the military police switching shifts. A policeman from the last shift passed by me. I knew at this moment there were over ten fellow practitioners sending forth righteous thoughts for me. The fellow practitioners can help me eliminate the outside evil forces. But only I could eliminate the attachments in my heart. I must overcome all the barriers from inside. Teacher said, "One thought can determine whether you make it through. Whether you can step forward to validate the Fa is a test..." ("Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. International Fa Conference") Facing Tiananmen, my hands touched the banner and I thought of Teacher's words in "Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful." And "Dafa disciples have already been bringing their supernormal abilities into full play in Fa-rectification." ("What Are Supernormal Abilities") So I added a thought: freeze the vicious people and keep them from moving. I turned around and unfolded the banner that I made with four characters, "Fa Lun Fo Fa," on the top. I used the same font style as the title prints from Teacher's overseas Fa lecture books because when I first started practicing Falun Gong, these four letters were spinning fast as seen by my celestial eye. At the bottom were three big characters: "Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance." The banner was over one meter long and nearly one meter wide.
I extended two arms to unfold the banner and shouted, "Falun Dafa is the righteous way! Life needs truthfulness-benevolence-forbearance! Stop the persecution! Good is rewarded with good and evil is met with evil!" Many tourists all looked at me. Some of them came up and slowly surrounded me. People looked at the seven characters and me. I took a breath and shouted, "Falun Dafa is the righteous Fa! The world needs truthfulness-benevolence-forbearance!" I felt that my eyes were wet. The tourists passed by me slowly; someone shouted "Well done!" and someone even clapped their hands. I walked forward, folded my banner and looked up. It was really quiet on Jinshuiqiao Bridge. I walked toward the right and suddenly one thought came up, "How come nobody arrested me?" Then I immediately realized this thought was not right! The plainclothes and military police were all gone. Teacher is so benevolent! Teacher's arrangement is great! I kept walking firmly out and met Xiaofei. We returned safely.
After coming back from Tiananmen, I found more opportunities to clarify the truth. I also read some articles from Clearwisdom and there were many examples of practitioners going to Tiananmen Square to unfold banners and returning safely. The environment is different now. Teacher said, "If every Dafa disciple--regardless of which category he belongs to--had been able to do well, this persecution would have ended long ago."(Touring North America to Teach the Fa)
Teacher's benevolence is boundless. I know all those visits to Tiananmen were Teacher's benevolent arrangement. I also know that I still have greater responsibilities. Let us all do better.