I'm a Dafa disciple in Mainland China. Having overcome my confusion and set straight the wrong notions I acquired as a result of being brainwashed, I returned to Dafa and became part of Fa-rectification again. At 5:50am or so on August 24^th, 2001, I went to Tiananmen Square with the resolve to validate the Fa, clarify the truth, eliminate the evil with righteous thoughts and save sentient beings. In front of the Tiananmen rostrum, I unfurled a banner that said "Falun Dafa Is Good." At the same time, I called these words out loudly from the bottom of my heart. Teacher saw my heart and showed mighty compassion to spare me from the subsequent tribulations. This enabled me to experience the power of Dafa, and inspired me to strive forward continuously. Next, I will share my experiences of this trip to Beijing. Comments and corrections are welcome.

When I had the thought of going to Beijing for Fa-rectification, I found that various notions of my own were interfering. Through studying the Fa with a peaceful mind, I broke through those notions and solidified my resolve to go to Beijing for Fa-rectification.

1. I'd had personal experiences before with those tests in an evil environment. Almost every day, they struck me whenever I thought about the persecution some disciples had to endure. I was also concerned with a "bigger" test I might have to face because of my failure to pass previous tests. All of these notions were great obstacles that kept me from taking that step. In "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)", Master says, "If a cultivator can let go of the thought of life and death under any circumstances, evil is bound to be afraid of him. If every practitioner is able to do this, evil will of itself no longer exist." Through studying the Fa, especially recent articles by Master, I could feel my conviction being reinforced bit by bit in my mind--it was the Fa that gave me this inexhaustible power. Thus, I was able to have an unshakable determination, which also prepared me to discard the attachment to life and death in any and all situations. I also made up my mind not to follow the evil's dictates, orders and arrangements; nor would I ever take chances.

2. I should assimilate myself into Fa-rectification to eliminate the notion of "self" and to step out of the trap of passive endurance. Bitter lessons in the past enabled me to see deeply how dangerous an omission it was to be attached to Consummation in individual cultivation. It could put a practitioner off the track of Fa-rectification; it could also make him seek karma elimination, pursue tribulations, and passively endure for "individual improvement" or his "mighty virtues"--actually, many became stuck in this quagmire and were unable to pull themselves out of it. As such, when the thought surfaced that I needed to double my sacrifices to make amends, I immediately realized its filthiness--it was precisely a duplicate of pursuing Consummation in individual cultivation. I shall never tolerate the existence of this dirty thought that takes advantage of Dafa to seek personal salvation. Instead, I will use my purest thoughts to work on matters most sacred.

As a being endowed by the Great Law of the universe "Truthfulness, Benevolence and Forbearance," the only goals of my trip were to validate Dafa, to safeguard Dafa and to eliminate the evil with my purest thoughts--these were also my holy duty. I no longer worried about whether I could attain consummation. Because I had been fortunate enough to hear the Buddha Law, Master's infinite grace salvaged and cleaned me up again and again from hell. As a sentient being, I had both the responsibility and the obligation to offer my limited service through giving up everything in this hard-to-come by opportunity in history. Unconcerned about one's destruction or prosperity in the future, one should make full use of the current period to do some most meaningful things--which to a being is great fortune and good luck.

3. There was a lament in my mind that made me waver in my resolve. Caught up in the quagmire of enlightening along an evil path, I had wasted a lot of time that could have been well spent. It was a pity that since getting out of the quagmire, I had quieted my heart to study the Fa for only two weeks. So, a thought was obstructing me. It asked: "After such a long period of departure from Fa studies, could I conduct myself well and remain level-headed?" Indeed, I wished I had more time for Fa study, but I also realized that behind this was a well-concealed, selfish heart that was reluctant to make sacrifices. We should study the Fa anytime, but not use study as an excuse for us not to do what we are supposed to do. Indeed, it is for me and people like me that Master and many disciples enduring tribulations are waiting through their great sacrifices--what excuses could justify our holding back?

At this point, I devoted myself exclusively to reading helpful Fa-rectification articles and Master's Fa. I was also making steady progress in understanding the inner meanings of Fa-rectification as well as its present state. As a result, a different realm of thinking unfolded before my eyes, revealing the mighty compassion of Master that was beyond description. I thus became more clear-minded about what I should do next. In "Expounding on the Fa," it says, "When a tribulation arrives, if you, a disciple, can truly maintain an unshakable calm or be determined to meet different requirements at different levels, this should be sufficient for you to pass the test." I gained a certain kind of confidence from this too, and based on my understanding of these two sentences, I knew what I should do next.

4. Because of my human mentalities, I wanted to get a fellow practitioner to go with me, but although everyone I asked was telling me they should go, they were not sure at that moment. From this I also saw my own inadequacies; I knew I should let go of the reliance on others. Obstacles of any kind are mere excuses and they are consistent with the arrangement of the evil old forces.

5. Thinking about whether I would come back, I could feel a flash of attachment to qing (emotion) in my mind. I knew this was my fundamental attachment. This last mooring rope in the human world had become so delicate that it would break at the slightest tug. Dafa is most fundamental. Without Dafa, there would be nothing in this world. Any attachment was the same as seeking the superficial at the expense of Dafa's objectives. Instead of being sifted out for idly waiting, I should exhaust everything in my life to emit light and heat that would contribute to the brilliance of this grand historical period and to present goodness to the future. Eventually, I was able to experience the realm of thought where nothing but Dafa exists.

When each of those mentalities had been broken through, my determination started to grow bit by bit. During those several days, I also encountered small and insignificant interference, such as bird droppings on my pants, shoes stained by rainwater, and the new poster still being wet when I set out, etc. Nevertheless, nothing could stop me or dissolve my determination. No longer was I entangled in the old mentality of whether I should go; instead, I was proactively sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference. I came to see those small interferences as targeting my not yet stabilized mind. When I was determined, I saw them simply as impediments planned by the evil old forces. For ordinary people, those forces would take advantage of the loopholes in their minds. For practitioners who have fully awakened to the inner meanings of Fa-rectification cultivation, however, those forces were truly insignificant.

I felt nothing could stop my progress on the path of Fa-rectification when this unshakable resolve arose in my heart. I could also see many positive developments that were helping to make the trip to Beijing a smooth one. It was at that point, when I had this resolve, that a powerful righteous belief in Master and the Fa took root in my heart and made waves in my energy field. Immediately, I felt I was a particle in the cosmos. I possessed everything that Dafa had bestowed upon us, and I had inestimable confidence and power, the power that came from the righteous belief in Master and the Fa.

At this moment, I suddenly became aware of the little wavering that had stemmed from a loophole in my mind and was being taken advantage of by the evil. In "Rationality," Master says, "Stepping forward to validate the Fa in various ways is a magnificent deed, but this absolutely does not mean that you have to be arrested by the evil...Getting arrested is not the purpose. Validating Dafa is truly glorious--it is to validate Dafa that you step forward. Since you step forward, you should try to succeed in validating the Fa--this is the real purpose of stepping forward." From this point of view, why should I always leave a loophole in my mind by thinking that I would be persecuted? Wasn't this the same as acquiescing to their arrangements? Without any doubt, this loophole in my mind was an invitation for tribulations. It also indicated that I was waiting for tests and that these tests were allowed. This was wrong. I was a Dafa particle. Accepting my own persecution was the same as acquiescing in the persecution of all Dafa disciples.

At the Great Lakes Conference in North America, Master said, "Humans aren't worthy of testing this Fa, and neither are gods. Whoever touches it commits a crime. They've seen all of this as well." Reading these words, I could not help feeling ashamed. If we were unable to identify and address this loophole in a timely manner, we could not play the roles of Dafa particles as well as we should, which would definitely bring damage to Dafa. Therefore, during the period of Fa-rectification we should continue to be diligent in our Fa studies and constantly improve ourselves so as not to give the evil any chances to capitalize on loopholes in our minds. This is a requirement for every Fa-rectification practitioner--which is, to improve oneself in order to better fulfill the obligations of a Fa-rectification particle. In other words, while we fully function as Fa-rectification particles, we are also overcoming our weak spots and progressing towards higher realms. Actually, we step out of humanness to validate the Fa and to step out of all human notions--why, then, shouldn't we use our divine side to validate the Fa?

Human beings are very weak. For instance, is not our imagination about detention and beating a human notion? We are gods in the future. How can humans dictate to gods? All people, including those detained practitioners, are beings waiting to be saved. First, we should not be afraid of being detained, because in the extreme case, losing life amidst Fa-rectification is truly great. As Fa-rectification disciples, however, our focus should be on eliminating the loopholes in our minds that could be taken advantage of by the evil old forces. Only by doing so can we deny all the arrangements by the old forces, and fully be effective as Dafa particles. Meanwhile, we should have the clarity of mind to never view humans as our enemies. We should be open and dignified, and not be apprehensive of anyone either. Master has given us the evil-eliminating verses. During Fa-rectification cultivation, we have also been endowed with supernormal abilities and wisdom. As such, we already possess the ability to eliminate the evil with righteous thoughts. Since we are continually assimilating to the law of the universe, who can touch us in the presence of Master? Thinking over this, I had the most steadfast belief that I would come back safely.

On the trip, I kept reciting in my heart "The Fa rectifies the Cosmos; the Evil is completely eliminated." Without any hesitation, without any apprehension, all that I wished for was to let more people hear my voice--because I understood I was a great god in other dimensions. This was how I fulfilled my vow under the care of Master.

I am grateful to Master for guiding me through the mist and for helping me make amends and advance diligently on the path of returning to my true self.