27. A Life Plagued By Chronic Illness Is Renewed
I started practicing Falun Dafa in mid-May of 1999. I am 42 years old this year.
My mother gave birth to me on the floor near her bed. She was so exhausted that she fell asleep leaning against the bed after giving birth. My father was bad-tempered and wanted to have a boy instead of a girl. (Under China's one-child policy, most couples do not have the option of having a second child, so the importance of the first child's gender is greatly magnified for many people.) When he discovered that I was a girl, he put me inside a manure basket and abandoned me in a ditch. My mother found me and took me back home after she woke up. Since then, I have led a life of hardship.
In the winter of 1996, after a miscarriage, I woke up paralyzed in the middle of the night. My whole body felt numb and lifeless. My limbs would not respond, and I didn't feel any sensation at all. I was too shocked to cry when faced with such a sudden disaster. My body had already been plagued by various illnesses. My loyal and devoted husband sought after treatments for me at any cost. Later, after regaining control of my body, I developed severe rheumatism. My whole body, from the bottom of my feet to the scalp on my head, was in great pain. Many blood vessels ruptured, causing a large amount of bleeding. I used to visit hospitals specializing in women and children's health, Chinese herb doctors, Western medicine doctors and various other places looking for treatment, but the symptoms remained. I had to rely on injections to stop the bleeding and sustain my life. The happy atmosphere of my family was completely gone. My husband had to work almost non-stop during his waking hours, and my 13-year-old daughter took up parts of the housework duties.
I lay in bed without being able to get up for more than four months. Looking at my husband and daughter who were both tired and worried, and looking at my own condition, I felt hopeless. Bedridden day in day out, I would not have survived without the aid of the injections. I was a huge burden to my husband and daughter. At one point, one of my neighbors helped to prepare for my funeral. I began to cry, thinking all day long about how I would die and what would it be like after death. I felt like I could not go on any further. It was at this time that I heard about Falun Dafa
and got a copy of the priceless
On the first day of reading the teachings of Falun Dafa, many puzzles in my life were solved. The more I read the book, the more I wanted to read it. My eyes used to be in such pain as I read each word on a page. To my surprise, that day I was able to keep reading for half a day. I did not feel any pain at all. Instead, my eyes felt very soothed. I was extremely happy. When I read Lecture Three, my mind seemed to have opened like a door. I felt bright in my heart and became aware of many things. Soon after beginning the practice, I stopped bleeding, no matter how much I moved. My body felt light. In the process of studying Falun Dafa, practicing the exercises, and improving my character, the lumps of asbestos silicosis about the size of beans that had developed in my lung were all coughed out. My husband, who did not easily believe in anything, was totally convinced and greatly admired Teacher and Falun Dafa. I could not find any words to express my gratitude. I just cried non-stop.
Falun Dafa filled my heart. I felt that my body had become healthy and my mind broad. I was doing things and relating to people according to the standard of Falun Dafa and the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. I had a better relationship with my in-laws after holding grudges against them for many years. I tried my best to respect them and make up for my ill treatment of them in the past. This made my in-laws so happy that they praised Falun Dafa all the time.
I ran a retail shop selling products for several factories. I abandoned the mentality of buying on credit and postponing payment. I began to pay right after the transactions to clear the debts I owed to various factories. They found what I was doing to be inconceivable. The manager of one factory in Zhejiang Province was very surprised to receive the payment I sent him. He came to thank me from many miles away. I told him to thank my Teacher, because it was Teacher's Falun Dafa principles that taught me to consider others first. It was Teacher's Falun Dafa principles that taught me not to pursue things belonging to others and to be a good person who brings benefits to others in whatever I do. The manager said, "The Falun Gong Teacher is great. The production in the factory had to stop due to people from various places in China not paying their debts on time. I came here to learn from you. If everyone would learn Falun Dafa, listen to the Teacher as you do, and consider others first, that would be wonderful." He wanted to see my Teacher, so I played Teacher's exercise video for him. He began to learn the exercises from Teacher right away. He said happily, "I will learn the exercises quickly so that I can teach my wife and son to practice after I go home. I will help them learn Falun Dafa and its teachings." How lucky he was! He originally came to learn how to get more money for the factory, but now he was learning Falun Dafa.
While I was learning Falun Dafa, practicing the exercises, striving to be a better person, and leading a happy life, the Jiang Zemin regime began to suppress Falun Gong on July 20th, 1999. Many Falun Gong practitioners thought that the leaders of the country did not know the greatness of our Teacher and Falun Gong and the fact that Falun Gong practitioners are good people. I went to Beijing several times to tell the government about the mental and physical benefits that I received through practicing Falun Gong through the National Appeal's Office. I wanted to ask the leaders to personally read the Falun Gong books, to truly understand Falun Gong and its practitioners. The government should give the people an opportunity to practice and improve themselves, and give people the right to be healthy. As a result of exercising my Constitutional right to appeal, I was arrested, beaten, and detained unjustly several times. People are being suppressed for speaking out the persecution of Falun Gong.
I'm calling on everyone to help end this brutal persecution against These innocent and good people, so that everyone will have the chance to practice Falun Gong and change their lives for the better, like I did.