Learning How to Cultivate My Xinxing

(Minghui.org) I am a veteran practitioner who began practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. A kindergarten teacher introduced me to Dafa. She told me how great this Dafa was, and I believed her. I followed her to a place to learn the exercise movements the same night.

Being Able to Read Zhuan Falun Shortly After Obtaining the Fa

A few days after I learned to do the exercises, the volunteer assistant asked me to get a book to study the Fa. I thought, “What is the point of my getting the book? I don’t even know how to read.” But the kindergarten teacher said, “You’d better get the book. Master will gradually teach you how to read.” Hearing that, I did not really believe her, because I thought that would be too miraculous.

When the book arrived, I opened it and found that I could recognize only a few words. My family had been poor when I was young, so I had only attended school for half a year. What should I do? The book was right in front of me, but I did not know how to read. Because I had learned the exercise for a few days and listened to practitioners read the Fa, my health had actually started to change drastically. I felt that my atrophic gastritis had healed, and I stopped taking medication for this illness. I knew from the bottom of my heart that this Dafa was really good.

So I kept thinking about recognizing words. My children and the practitioners at the practice site all became my teachers. Within a very short time, I was basically able to read Master’s Zhuan Falun fluently. Sometimes when I think back, it feels really unbelievable. If not for Master’s empowerment, how could I read so many words within such a short time? Dafa is really extraordinary, and Master is really great.

Returning to Cultivation and Learning How to Cultivate My Xinxing

After Jiang Zemin, the former head of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), began persecuting Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999, I was lost for a few years. My daughter, also a practitioner, kept clarifying the truth to me, and I finally returned to cultivation. Because I did not know how to cultivate my xinxing, I initially went through many twists and turns. On October 2, 2007, I went out to distribute truth-clarification materials and was followed and arrested by plainclothes policemen. After I was released from detention, I did not know how to look within, so I became stuck in family tribulations. My husband kept monitoring me, not allowing me to practice Falun Dafa. Although I did not know how to cultivate, I kept having this thought, “I cannot give up this Dafa. Even if I can read one sentence of Master’s lectures a day, I need to do it.” I knew that I did not do well and had tarnished Dafa and Master’s reputation, so I said to Master, “Master, I am sorry. I will make up for the time that I lost at the start.”

Maybe because I had this thought, Master helped me. My daughter came for me to live with her on February 2, 2015. Master made use of my daughter to help me learn how to look within and cultivate my xinxing.

I remember that in 2019, I suddenly felt that I had twisted my knee as I was standing up from watering cucumbers. It was especially painful. I quickly begged Master for protection and recited “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” loudly. I could still walk and the pain was still bearable at the time. My daughter then called me and asked me what I had been doing. I told her what had just happened. She asked me to go over to her place so that she could look after me for a few days. I did not think much and agreed.

It turned out just like what Master said,

“We have said that good or bad comes from a person’s initial thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

My son-in-law came and drove me to their place. As I was about to get out of their car, I could no longer walk, so my daughter had to drag me up to her home.

My daughter talked with me and helped me look within. We identified a whole lot of attachments. However, when I was at her place, my state seemed to get worse every day. I even had to use a stool to support me when I went to the toilet. My daughter asked me why I was getting worse.

Twenty-eight days after I first went there, I felt that things weren’t right. Isn’t this trouble caused by my seeking comfort? After identifying this attachment, I told my daughter, “I’m not staying here anymore. I need to go home.” My daughter could not dissuade me, so she let me go home.

The moment I got out of the car at home, I was able to walk. When I opened the door, I saw dust all over the house, so I started by cleaning the floors and cleaned up the entire house. Unknowingly, I felt light all over. I knew that Master had helped me after I had improved my xinxing.

I understood that I must not treat myself as an ordinary elderly person. I should not acknowledge that I am old. I should not have thoughts of letting my daughter look after me. I should not have attachments to seeking comfort. We are Dafa practitioners, so we should assimilate into Dafa. The more we cultivate, the younger we become.

After sending forth righteous thoughts at 12 a.m. every night, I now will not sleep. Instead, I will listen to Master’s lectures and do the exercises. I have been doing this for half a month, and I feel in better spirits than before.

I will go to clarify the truth whenever there is a big market event held locally. I am very anxious to save people. Before clarifying the truth, I would send forth righteous thoughts and ask Master for empowerment. The results have been very good, and I have been able to help a few people understand the facts during every market. I feel that too few people have been saved, and I hope that I can help save more people in the future.