(Minghui.org) Although I began practicing Falun Dafa very young, due to the persecution by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), my grandmother urged me to leave the big city for safety reasons, separating me from my mother, who continued her practice.

Before I left, my mother instructed me to study at least one chapter of Zhuan Falun every day, and I agreed to do so. After moving to another region, although I continued to study the Fa (thankfully), from the later years of elementary school through junior high, I became obsessed with my phone and the internet. Sometime after this, I broke my teeth in an accident, then fractured my thumb, though both healed well. Despite this, I still did not get the hint and made no efforts to quit my phone addiction.

One day during the summer break of my second year of middle school, I returned to my hometown and went for a stroll with my mother on a small hill. Suddenly, a strong wind and heavy rain appeared, so my mother and I quickly took shelter under the eaves of a house, and we didn’t get wet at all. However, later, my vision began to darken, and soon I couldn’t see anything. I experienced ringing in my ears, the sounds around me gradually faded away, and I lost feeling in my legs and feet. Breathing became difficult, but my mind remained relatively clear.

My mother and I repeatedly recited, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance are good,” appealing to Master, and sending forth righteous thoughts to reject the old forces. Though there was some relief, I still didn’t really feel much better. I pleaded with Master to save me, saying I would never again be so obsessed with my phone and would give it up as soon as I returned home, but I remained in the same state.

I thought to myself that I would only follow Master’s arrangements for me. My previous behavior was a manifestation of my cultivation process, and it was also caused by the old forces. By denying these things, I am also denying the old forces and refusing to follow their path. Besides, I still had sentient beings to save, and they were all waiting for me to do so.

I slowly recovered, and within ten minutes, I returned to normal as if nothing had happened. My mother told me that I looked extremely pale. I was alarmed. As soon as I went home, I deleted all the games, and I paid close attention when I studied the Fa every day.

For the next two years, I was on the right track. During this time, I quickly realized that I should believe in Dafa unconditionally. I have been very suspicious since I was a child; when I was young, when my mother read the Fa to me, although I knew in my heart that the Fa was good, I still tried to question it from a “scientific” point of view. Still, my mother patiently answered my questions one by one in accordance with her understanding, and in the end, I couldn’t find anything to question in the whole book. But I had to get over that hurdle on my own, after all.

Master Li has purified my body countless times and given me numerous blessings, regardless of whether I was aware of it or not. Could Dafa be fake? Judging by experience, of course, it is the truth! I want to cultivate, I want to believe in Master and the Fa! I will do what Master wants me to do. To cultivate is serious. It may be necessary to doubt everything among ordinary people, but now I realize that Dafa is not included on this list. Doubt is meaningless, irrational, not what I want, and it should be eliminated. When I studied the Fa later, I could see many things and principles that I had not seen when I was a child.

I had never clarified the truth about Dafa before, and since kindergarten, I had kept my mouth shut because my parents were persecuted by the CCP when I was six or seven years old. At school, I was always careful, so that no one could guess that I had a relationship with Dafa. At that time, I thought that if I did not have enough righteous thoughts, I could not bear the risk of being found out.

However, after the second year of middle school, I had improved a bit and had righteous thoughts, so I began to clarify the truth about Dafa to others in school. I would send righteous thoughts first, and then, starting with the history of the CCP, move step by step to Falun Dafa. I repeatedly rehearsed the process of clarifying the truth to others in my head. I wanted to ensure that my logic was clear and that each sentence had evidence and was in line with the Fa. I eliminated my fear, face-saving, and show-off mentality, and used compassion instead of affection when clarifying the truth to people.

After the summer break in Junior high school, the old forces tempted me again. Due to being controlled by addiction, even studying the Fa became more sporadic than ever before, and sharing the truth became temporarily halted. For a period afterward, I constantly vacillated between using my phone and the internet and resolutely studying the Fa.

I can’t count how many times this has happened, but I understand that no matter what, I cannot give up cultivation because I know it is true. I know that without the Fa, I am nothing. No matter how outstanding my achievements or wisdom are among everyday people, it is all given by the Fa.

I usually think quickly and easily solve problems, but when I slack off in my cultivation, my thinking becomes rigid and foolish, easily swayed by various attachments. How terrifying! If one does not cultivate, without the guidance and enlightenment of the Fa, one will be in grave danger.

During this period, several incidents similar to the one involving my mother and I climbing the mountain occurred. They all happened when I did something I shouldn’t have done. Each time, I promised myself that I would never look at my phone again and waste my life. But cultivation is not child’s play. Master has already explained very clearly about the internet. Dafa disciples should not do poorly in this regard.

Apart from work, study, or clarifying the truth to everyday people and searching for information, one should not go online for any other reason. This starting point is very important. One must tread carefully, as if walking on thin ice over a bottomless abyss, and be careful not to let curiosity and other obsessions take advantage of you.

This is my understanding at my current level, please kindly point out anything inappropriate.