(Minghui.org) I am 63 years old and have practiced Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. It is because I was protected by Master that I’ve been able to come this far. I am grateful for Master’s benevolent protection. Here, I’d like to share a few of my cultivation experiences.
When I returned home in October 2021, after being detained, I studied the Fa in the mornings and clarified the truth in the afternoons. At that time, I was often harassed by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
For example, a police officer came and knocked on my door, but I didn’t let him in. He called my son and asked him to force me to sign their guarantee statement. My son called my daughter-in-law, asking her to pick up the statements from the community office and then have me sign them. Seeing my daughter-in-law with the pre-prepared statements for me to sign, I said, “I can’t sign them. I didn’t commit any crime. What I cultivate is a righteous Fa, and I will persist to the end in my cultivation. No one can stop me. If I were to sign it, it would bring harm to you, because you would be committing a crime against Dafa and practitioners.”
She replied abruptly, “Then why don’t you move out and find another place to live?” Then she left while having a tantrum. My son came to my home after work and suggested that I just scribble on the papers and he’ll help me hand them in.
I responded, “I cultivate Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I cannot fake it, nor tell lies. If I were to do that, I would be harming you.” My son also threatened me, saying he would lose his job if I didn’t sign it.
When my husband saw that my son couldn’t convince me, he said, “If you don’t sign it, we will have to report it to the police and have you arrested.” My son agreed with his father. My heart was not moved at all, and I went into my room. My son followed me and asked if I would sign.
I replied, “I definitely will not sign.” My son banged on the closet door three times, knocking it down. Then he turned around and went downstairs.
After going downstairs, his attitude changed. He called me to comfort me and said, “Mom, you’re fine. They don’t have anything on you.” I knew my family was frightened of the CCP, and it all came down to a test in my cultivation. After this matter ended, there remained many questions bothering me: Why did I always get interfered with? What was my issue? I asked Master to help me find another practitioner who was clear on the Fa principles.
Master saw my wish to cultivate well and arranged for me to run into a practitioner. She was very kind-hearted and often helped other practitioners. After I met her a few times and shared my experiences with her, she discovered that I wasn’t clear on some Fa principles: I didn’t know how to look inward, nor cultivate, and I only focused on “doing things.” I was still at the level of performing personal cultivation.
She held a Fa-study group at her home, so I started to attend, and felt so delighted. Thank you, Master! After I joined this group, I felt I had found home. I could truly feel the transformations in myself, and I improved very fast. Every time we shared in the group, I benefited a great deal.
One day in our group sharing, Ms. Lan talked about her nephew taking an admission test. I thought she took this ordinary affair too seriously, so I said, “He has his parents to look after him, why would you intervene? Didn’t you say this with an intention?”
After Ms. Mei heard me, she thought I lacked kindness. I didn’t say anything, but deep down I felt it was rather unfair. How was I not being kind?
Ms. Mei made comments to me about this a few times, saying that I didn’t care about my family, but only myself. This made me look inward to see why I wasn’t kind enough. Later, I asked for Master’s help to find the root cause of my being unkind. While I was doing the sitting meditation, Master gave me a hint with the words “fake kindness.” Master gave me another hint: “Elements of Party culture.”
Thus, I began to look inward for elements of Party culture, which include fake kindness, fake brightness, hypocrisy, and other fake thoughts and actions. None of these complied with the characteristics of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I’ve cultivated for more than 20 years, yet, in the end, what I cultivated was “fake” kindness. I felt truly ashamed!
I continued to look inward and recalled what a practitioner said to me when I helped her move. She wanted to take the juicer first for her husband to use, as he had symptoms of sickness karma. I thought to myself, “There is no need to do it!” After we moved and sat together to share, she looked at me and said, “You truly don’t understand others.” Then she cried.
I said to her, “You have strong sentimentality toward him. You need to distinguish between sentimentality and kindness.” I later recalled that Ms. Lan also said I didn’t handle that correctly. Why did both of them think that about me? I came to understand that it was not kindness, but rather fake kindness. It was fake because I didn’t truly consider others deep down. If I were to look a bit deeper, I was being selfish. I hadn’t stepped out of the principles of the old universe—selfishness.
Master enlightened me to the Fa principles through Fa-study. Over all these years, it was because I didn’t do well that my family thought of Dafa and Master in a bad light and were willing to cooperate with the authorities to try and get me to renounce my belief. I caused such a big harm to my husband, son, daughter-in-law, and my relatives. For all these years, I cultivated alone. I only wanted to cultivate well and so cut off connections with other people. I hardly visited my relatives, and I lost contact with my classmates and colleagues. I was like a monk, isolated from the outside world. I went to the extreme in doing things, which had a large negative impact on saving sentient beings.
After I’d been persecuted multiple times by the CCP, there was a gap between me and my son and daughter-in-law. Although I was very good to them, I felt there was something separating us, which impacted my clarifying the truth to them. Through sharing with other practitioners, I made up my mind to change this state.
I burned incense in front of Master’s picture, asking Master to help me, to arrange opportunities for me to save sentient beings, and to bring my relatives, classmates, colleagues, and others with predestined relationships over to me. Master laid the path for me. No matter where I went, I always ran into people with a predestined relationship with me. The gap between my family and me was melting away.
After I realized the root cause of my fake kindness, I got along very well with my family. With the improvement in my cultivation, my family also went through great transformations. Here are a few examples:
My Husband
During the pandemic, I told my husband, “If you recite the phrases, ‘Falun Dafa is wonderful! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is wonderful!’ You’ll be able to escape any calamity. You may also have your karma eliminated, so as to have a bright future.” When my husband saw the changes in me and the improvement in my xinxing, he began to sincerely recite the phrases every morning. He recited it 200 times and put his heart into reciting it.
Later, during a community health check, my husband’s heart turned out to be as strong as a young person's. His blood test also showed that his blood was no longer sticky, and his breathing was smoother. He was happy every day. My husband said, “Having a healthy body is better than anything else, and having a good mood makes everything taste so delicious. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance can truly help one to be a good person, I do believe this.”
My Son
This year, there was a promotion opportunity in the company where my son worked. My son said to me, “Mom, I want to get promoted soon. Please don’t get into trouble, otherwise I’ll lose the chance.”
I responded, “It’s not that I’d be getting into trouble, but rather the CCP will. Master said, ‘...with one person practicing, the whole family benefits...’ (Teachings at the Conference in Australia), but you have to acknowledge Dafa.”
My son asked an acquaintance if his name was on the list for promotion. The acquaintance said with certainty, “Your name is not on the list.” Hearing that, my son felt very disappointed.
My son is 40 years old this year. He has done a good job since graduating from college. He has been named an advanced individual every year and has won the first prize in the cooking competition every year. He has been an excellent employee. I realized it was because he went against Dafa and had his fortune reduced, and so he couldn’t be promoted.
When my husband heard the news, he was very anxious. He thought that only Dafa’s Master could help. After a while, my husband whispered to me that he had asked Dafa’s Master for help. I could hardly believe it, thinking, “Would Master take care of this matter?”
After a few days, my son came to my home cheerfully telling us the good news. I said to him, “Let me tell you that you were able to get promoted because your father begged Dafa’s Master, and so it happened.” My son became so scared that he asked me to lower my voice. Under the evil system of the CCP, it’s hard to be a good person and praise Dafa.
When bad people persecuted me, they said that if I practice Dafa, it’d impact my son’s job and my grandson’s schooling. My reply was, “My Master said, “...with one person practicing, the whole family benefits...” (Teachings at the Conference in Australia). So I leave everything up to Master.”
My Daughter-in-Law
On June 4, 2024, a community police officer knocked on my son’s door, telling my daughter-in-law that he was someone who lived on the 17th floor. My daughter-in-law didn’t believe him. The policeman knocked on the door again and asked if I was home. My daughter-in-law challenged him, “Why are you looking for her? She didn’t commit any crime.”
The police officer replied, “We’re not taking her away, and we’re just wanting to take a picture of her.” My daughter-in-law ignored him and didn’t open the door, so he left.
One time, we went to a relative’s house for dinner. My daughter-in-law drove the car, as my husband, grandson, and I sat in the back. My grandson kept blinking for a long time, and the medicine he was given didn’t help. My daughter-in-law saw it and shouted to us, “Mom! You and dad, please quickly recite the Dafa phrases for your grandson!”
After hearing what she said, I became teary. It was totally unexpected. After I was persecuted, my son became afraid and wouldn’t let me say anything about Dafa. It was my daughter-in-law who broke the impasse. From that day on, my husband asked Master to safeguard our family every day. Later, my grandson’s eyes returned to normal.
Another time, my son was on a business trip, and my daughter-in-law and grandson came to my home to have dinner. As they entered, the alarm for sending forth righteous thoughts went off. My grandson told me that he was hungry, but my daughter-in-law reminded me that it was time to send righteous thoughts. I responded, “Let me prepare dinner for him first.” But she didn’t let me, and asked me to send forth righteous thoughts. I shed tears of emotion and happiness. It was benevolent Master who saved our family. My family had slandered Master and Dafa and committed huge sins. But Master forgave them, which came down to Master’s immense compassion.
Master said,
“...no matter how great are the sins sentient beings have committed or how grave are the mistakes they made in the past, the only thing that is looked at is the attitude that they have toward Dafa and Dafa disciples during the Fa-rectification period.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference,” Collected Teachings Given Around the World Volume VIII)
I am grateful to benevolent and wonderful Master. Thank you, Master, for protecting and enlightening me and saving my whole family. Thank you, Master, for giving me another opportunity to resume my cultivation. I will cultivate myself for sure, walk on the Fa-rectification path that Master arranged for me, study the Fa more, and save more sentient beings, to accomplish my prehistoric mission!