(Minghui.org) I practicing Falun Dafa in 1998. I would like to share my cultivation experiences from earlier this year.
I woke up an hour late to do the morning exercises on March 16, 2025, so I had to finish sending forth righteous thoughts before I could finish my exercises. My legs felt comfortable when I did the sitting meditation. I hadn’t had that sort of feeling for a long time.
I had taken care of my grandchildren during the Chinese New Year. After they returned to their parents, I was able to spend more time on my cultivation, but for the first few days after they left, I fell asleep again after sending righteous thoughts in the morning. Sometimes, it took me over two hours to wake up afterward, but I still felt tired. I tried to change that situation, but I couldn’t.
I couldn’t concentrate when studying the Fa, and I felt exhausted when doing the exercises. I realized that I had fallen behind in my cultivation when my grandchildren were with me, so I decided to start memorizing the Fa. I memorized two poems in Hong Yin VI before bed and didn’t feel sleepy. After sending righteous thoughts, I didn’t feel sleepy either, and I didn’t have any trouble getting up the next morning. I’d soon memorized three poems. Ever since then, I have not gone back to sleep.
After our Fa study group finished reading one day, we had a brief discussion. I couldn’t help telling everyone about what my sister (also a practitioner, and who happened to be out of town) had done wrong. Another fellow practitioner was also irritated and echoed what I said.
On my way home, I reflected upon my words and tone and realized my xinxing didn’t conform with the Fa, even though I studied the Fa every day. I found my strong resentment.
My sister had a stroke three years ago and hasn’t been able to get over it. She has tried to look within, and we have also tried to help, but it has been so long. I complained about her for failing to genuinely cultivate herself. I also complained about my husband for not taking his cultivation seriously. I was unhappy about many things he had done and sometimes bickered with him.
As I looked within, I realized that everything happens for a reason and that all these things had exposed my attachments, such as my resentment, mentality of fighting, impatience, attachment to reputation, and lack of compassion. I confessed to Master, “I was wrong! I must eliminate my attachments. Sister, I’m so sorry! I’m partially responsible for your incorrect state. I’ll treat you differently when I pick you up at the train station tomorrow.” My heart felt lighter.
My husband had cooked dinner by the time I got home. As we were eating, he picked up some fish with his chopsticks and said, “You have made me so mad recently that I lost my appetite for fish.” I laughed. I couldn’t remember why I had been mad at him. It must have been something trivial. I forgot about it after I let go of my resentment.
I went to pick up my sister and brother-in-law the next day. When I saw my sister walking slowly with her husband’s support, I almost wept. How could I forget about compassion and complain about her while studying the same Fa with her? I felt confident that she would be able to overcome her tribulation with Master’s compassionate care. It would be simply a matter of time. I cried from the bottom of my heart, “Sister, my fellow practitioner, come on! You will certainly be able to return to normal if you continue to cultivate yourself with Master’s and fellow practitioners’ help!”
As I said at the beginning of the article, I felt as if I was being enveloped by a strong energy when I did the meditation on the morning of March 16. During our group study the next day, I admitted my wrongs in front of other practitioners. I had made up my mind to eliminate them, because hiding them would only end up feeding my attachments.
I gained a deep understanding that I must look within immediately whenever an incorrect state arises and that I should memorize the Fa if I can’t find my attachments right away. Master has taught us,
“The Fa can break all attachments; the Fa can destroy all evil; the Fa can shatter all lies; and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference,” The Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I believe that any incorrect state will soon change under the guidance of the Fa. I should eliminate any attachment without delay or hesitation and never give the old forces a chance to take advantage.
Thank you, Master, for your compassionate salvation! Thank you, fellow practitioners, for giving me a cultivation environment!
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