(Minghui.org) I am an office worker, and I practice cultivation alone. This past Chinese New Year was such a lazy holiday that I became very lax in my cultivation. I was so addicted to my mobile phone that I kept watching short videos on my phone after dinner and until midnight. I couldn’t stop, even though I was very tired. I felt dizzy and very unwell when I woke up the next day. I wanted to get out of this state, but it felt like I was being controlled and couldn’t pull myself together. I begged Master to help me every day.
I had a fever and symptoms of a severe cold on the 15th day of the New Year. I practiced the standing stance for an hour and finished the other four exercises. The next day, my fever went away. I knew it was because I’d seen so many bad things, such as sex, love, fame, and gain, which had poisoned my mind and body. Due to the discomfort, I didn’t watch TV on my mobile phone for a week. After that, the poison in my body must have been cleared away, and I was no longer controlled by an urge to watch videos. I continued to ask Master to help and strengthen me every day to get rid of lust and my attachment to my mobile phone and TV, and I spent a lot of time memorizing the Fa.
I now know that cultivation is really serious. When your thoughts are not correct, you must correct them quickly. There will be trouble otherwise.
Without other practitioners around to help, a practitioner who cultivates in isolation can easily slack off. When I slacked off, I thought about how I had been studying the Fa and doing the exercises regularly, so, because I felt lonely, it would be OK to watch videos on my phone and TV to relieve my boredom. That led to me becoming addicted to videos.
I have kept to a schedule every day since then. When I get home, I put my mobile phone in a drawer where I can’t see it. I only use it as a phone.
I wrote this experience to warn myself to never again be swayed by the pursuit of comfort. I also hope my experience can be helpful to fellow practitioners who are in the same situation as me to strengthen their confidence in their ability to get rid of this attachment.