(Minghui.org) In our area there is a detention center where many practitioners are unlawfully detained. Over the years, fellow practitioners in the urban area would go to a nearby market to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil and support the detained practitioners. According to practitioners who were detained there, they could feel that when others were sending righteous thoughts outside, the guards were very weak, and their own righteous thoughts were strong.

Recently I have noticed that every time I returned home from the market, my state of mind was not good. I was tired, even sleepy, with physical discomfort, and I just wanted to go to bed early. Sometimes, I also missed sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight, and found it difficult to get up to do the exercises in the morning. From time to time, I even fell asleep while doing the sitting meditation, and then felt regret.

I didn’t look within myself properly to find out what caused me to feel this way, and just wondered why I was feeling so sleepy these days. However, the situation became worse most recently and I realized that it was not a simple issue of me being lazy or due to the attachment to comfort, but that I was being controlled by my demon-nature, making me unmotivated.

I mentioned this to a few other practitioners, and they told me that from time to time they felt the same way. They thought that it was because the energy field near the detention center was bad, and that’s why fewer practitioners went to the market to send forth righteous thoughts.

I also found that as soon as I thought about not going there to send righteous thoughts, I felt an unclear demonic face was looking my way wearing a sly smile. I became alert and thought: If we all stop going there, the detained practitioners would lose the support from us and the evil would be very happy. How could we do things that pleases the evil?

I realized that my physical discomforts are a false appearance, which I should not acknowledge or accept. Behind all these discomforts are the evil beings at work.

Then how did the evil manage to mess with me? Is there anything where I have fallen short? I must think deeply about what made it possible for the evil to take advantage of me. Just as I was thinking about this, Master kindly dropped me a hint that I had distracting and selfish thoughts while sending forth righteous thoughts.

I remembered that each time I went to the market to send forth righteous thoughts, I also thought about what kind of vegetables I should buy at the market, where I could get them, and where I would send righteous thoughts so that it was close to where I could get the vegetables, etc.

I didn’t think there was anything wrong with thinking this way: I’m going to send forth righteous thoughts anyway, and buying vegetables is also conforming to the state of everyday people’s society. I need to live as well, and so on and so forth.

While writing this sharing, I remembered some of the wrong things I did while sending forth righteous thoughts at home. For example, sometimes, while I was browsing Minghui.org, the alarm went off for sending forth righteous thoughts. I knew I should focus on sending forth righteous thoughts, but my mind still thought about whether the materials were downloaded without disruption or whether my internet connection was stable.

Looking back, I realized that I was being selfish. Sending forth righteous thoughts is a battle between good and evil, a battle in which all Dafa disciples around the world are participating. When I step back, a portion of strength is lost, and the evil beings I should eliminate would escape. Isn’t this negligence on my part? Dafa disciples are one body, and any thought for oneself is being selfish. Only by always holding the thought “for the benefit of others” can we be selfless in the true sense.

Fa-rectification cultivation is a very serious and sacred matter, and one can only do well without any distracting thoughts. I think this is the essence of what I’m trying to share. With this understanding, I decided that I should share what I’ve just enlightened to and the process of finding out the root cause of the interference I’ve been experiencing. I reminded myself that I must study the Fa more and study the Fa well to be able to distinguish between divine thoughts and human notions. Once we have realized what selfishness is, we should stop doing selfish things so as to purify our cultivation environment.

Please kindly point out anything in the sharing that is not appropriate.

Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!