(Minghui.org) For me, 2021 was an extraordinary year. I went through a tremendous cultivation tribulation. For a period of time, I hurt all over: Heavy energy ran through my head and made me miserable. My neck and back felt numb. There was ringing in my ears that kept me awake at night, and the right side of my face twitched uncontrollably.
My family was worried I was about to have a stroke and urged me to go to the hospital. They knew, however, that as a Falun Dafa practitioner, I would not be easily persuaded to seek treatment.
For more than 20 years, I made it through cultivation tests big and small by having faith in Master Li and Dafa. I firmly believed that only Dafa could save me. So I spent more time reading the Fa. I went from reading two lectures a day to eventually four lectures a day. I also sent righteous thoughts and practiced the Falun Dafa exercises every day no matter how uncomfortable I felt.
“In qigong practice, those of you whose qi cannot go through a pass or come down should look for reasons within your xinxing to determine if you are stuck at that level for too long and whether you should improve your xinxing! When you truly improve your xinxing, you will find that the qi will be able to come down.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
As I read this paragraph, it was as if a light bulb suddenly lit up in my head. Master was pointing out xinxing, that I needed to examine myself and see where I did not do well.
So I took a look, and I found a lot! For example, my grandchildren made a mess in the house every day, so precious time was wasted in picking up their toys. This annoyed me exceedingly, and I often ended up shouting at them.
By getting angry over small things, was I behaving in alignment with Master’s teaching? Anything I did not do well on was considered a loophole! How would I elevate myself and keep up with the pace of Fa rectification?
After reading Master's new article Wake Up, I was quite shaken.
As I examined my behavior based on the Fa, I felt ashamed—but at the same time, my mind became clear. Master wants me to overcome a bigger tribulation so I can eliminate more karma and improve my cultivation. I need to complete my mission of saving sentient beings and return to my original celestial home.
The three things are my priority every day. Besides calling people in China, I invite people into chat groups to let them know the truth behind the persecution of Falun Dafa.
In addition, I corrected what I did not do well in the past. For example, I used to mispronounce, add, or skip words when I read the Fa. I now stay focused and read the Fa accurately and respectfully. I used to move either faster or slower than the music when I did the exercises. I now keep pace with Master’s instructions. I also stay focused when I send righteous thoughts so that my hands remain in the correct position.
The state of my health improved, and my efforts in Dafa projects became smoother after I corrected these loopholes. For instance, I would get very encouraging results when inviting people into a chat group.
Technology is difficult to learn for a 70-year-old like myself. During training, I could only remember the first two steps and forgot the rest. Looking at the trainer's expression, I knew I must have been the slowest learner in the group. I did not know any of the technical jargon and operating the software seemed impossible. I almost gave up. However, I realized that anything Dafa practitioners encounter is not a coincidence. I asked Master for help. So with some persistence, I eventually learned how to use the software.
Since I joined this project, my days have become even busier. One night after Fa study, I had 10 minutes to spare and looked at the messages practitioners left in our group chat. One practitioner commented: “In our group, she (me) is doing great! She invited many people to join the truth clarifying chat group.” I was in awe! I knew Master gave me the wisdom and encouraged me to do even better.
My phone calls to China also had a breakthrough. Since I increased the time I spent studying the Fa, my understanding of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and what it means to be a Dafa practitioner deepened.
I remained calm when I dialed the numbers. The fear I used to have was gone. I once called an official in a Guangxi police department. I said a lot to him about the persecution of Falun Dafa. However, when I began to play a recorded article, he hung up. When I called him back, he said, “Don’t play recordings, use your own words.” I continued telling him about how cutting ties to the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) will keep people safe. In the end, he renounced the CCP organizations he belonged to. People are waiting to hear the truth!
Looking back at my 27 years of cultivation, all of my chronic illness and pain are gone. I'm now in my 70s. Acquaintances who see me playing the cymbals in high spirits in the Tian Guo Marching Band cannot believe my real age. What they see is the miracle of Dafa! Dafa gave me a new life. I am so grateful for Master’s compassionate salvation!
These are some of my understandings. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.