(Minghui.org) My time to do the three things is very tight every day as I have a regular job. I have also been very worried because I couldn’t calm down and study the Fa well. When I read some sharing articles on the Minghui.org website about memorizing the Fa, I decided that I would give it a try. I finished memorizing Zhuan Falun within six months, on October 1, 2020.
While I was memorizing the last few pages of Zhuan Falun, I felt Master’s compassionate help, and my entire body was surround by an energy field. Several times, I was moved to tears by Master’s compassion as I memorized the Fa. Human words can’t express the beauty and happiness I felt. I have benefited greatly by memorizing the Fa. I would like to share some cultivation stories with you.
I never thought I had strong resentment. One day, both my husband and daughter blamed me for a trivial thing. No matter how I tried to explain, they would not stop. I remembered that as a cultivator, I should always look inward when encountering things. I should let it go and not defend myself. But I couldn’t control myself and I cried.
I felt something was wrong as soon as I started crying. I immediately spoke to the thing that made me cry, “Who are you? Why should I listen to you? I will eliminate you immediately.” My tears stopped at once and I no longer felt wronged. My resentment towards my husband and daughter also disappeared and I felt very calm. I understood that the “self” or ego had resentment and couldn’t take any criticism. As soon as I recognized it and eliminated it, it immediately disappeared.
Through this incident, I sincerely looked inward trying to see whom I had developed resentment towards. I realized that I had developed resentment towards almost all the people I know, including my husband, my daughter, my mother, friends and co-workers, and people who refused to listen when I clarified the truth to them. I was shocked. How much of this resentment had I accumulated in another dimension? And this was not just the resentment in this lifetime.
I kept looking inward trying to find out toward whom I had resentment. For example, why was my cultivation so hard, while others seemed to have it easy? My cultivation path is arranged by Master and my life and everything is given by Master. I should be thankful, rather than resentful. How could I develop such disrespectful thoughts? I immediately eliminated these bad thoughts which were disrespectful to Master and the Fa.
The book “How the Specter of Communism Is Ruling Our World” clearly points out that hate is contained in our thoughts and behaviors. We are controlled by this but are not aware of it at all. As long as I have this hatred and resentment, aren’t I supplying the communist specter with energy! For a practitioner isn’t this is terrible?!
I started to be strict with myself and constantly eliminate the resentment hidden in every thought. For example, when I drive to work in the morning I’m usually in a hurry, and I resent the person who cuts in line. Instead of complaining I immediately eliminated this resentment.
As soon as the resentment came out, I immediately told it, “I only listen to Master, not to you. Not only will I not resent that person, I will thank him.” I reminded myself that I should thank my husband, daughter, and co-workers who help me improve my xinxing. I was no longer resentful, and instead I felt thankful.
I looked inward further and tried to find out why I felt resentment whenever I encountered something that made me unhappy. I asked myself who was not happy and who was not satisfied. It was the “self.” When I am not happy the resentment starts and this mechanism is formed. Therefore, I must eliminate the mechanism which forms the resentment and the “self” which develops the resentment. Only in this way can resentment be completely removed from our dimension field.
I can’t see other dimensions, but I believe that as long as I continuously clean away the resentment, the substance they accumulate in other dimensions will decrease. I am sure I will eliminate all of it some day.
I have gradually become more compassionate and peaceful. When I look at people and things, I have only one thought: Be nice to them and don’t develop resentment. Since I understand that the karmic relationship, whether people are nice to me or not, is caused by my virtue and karma. These are arranged by Master to help me improve. I am therefore only thankful, rather than resentful, and I am very happy and peaceful.
Master said,
“Laws regulate the affairs of everyday people, which is not a problem. Being a practitioner is supernormal, so as a supernormal person, you must conduct yourself with supernormal principles instead of measuring yourself with those of everyday people.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)
When I recited this paragraph of the Fa, I understood that cultivators have to follow higher principles than ordinary people. The detention and persecution does not conform to Dafa’s principles, and are illegal. We are taken care of by Master.
From another perspective, fear is pursuing. If I am afraid of the police, being detained illegally, or that the community staff will knock on my door, then I’m subconsciously inviting the police to arrest me. Those who are involved in persecuting Falun Dafa are actually longing to obtain the Fa and be saved. If the old forces take advantage of my fear and use it to persecute me, they are committing crimes against Dafa and will eventually be destroyed. If this really happens, their destruction might have something to do with me.
Master said,
“From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism.” (“Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
When I see a bad person, I have fear if I am only thinking about protecting myself. If instead my thought is to prevent him from persecuting Falun Dafa lest it destroy him, then I’m not afraid and the persecution won’t happen. We are here to assist Master during the Fa rectification and save sentient beings. We are not here to harm people. We must therefore eliminate the attachment of fear.
Master said,
“A person has many tests to overcome in the course of cultivation, one reason being, from the time of birth on, a person ceaselessly forms notions of every sort as he comes to an understanding of human society, and attachments result. Because human society is a place in which suffering goes hand-in-hand with enjoyment, life does abound with suffering, however wealthy you may be or however high your status. Because pain is hard on people, they try to, consciously or unconsciously, ward off suffering in hopes of leading a more pleasant life. And so it is that in the pursuit of happiness people form ideas about how to avoid harm, how to live well, how to get ahead in society and achieve fame and success, how to acquire more for themselves, how to come out on top, and so on. To this end, as they gain experience people come to form notions about life; and those experiences, in turn, come to fortify these notions as people live out their lives.” (“The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress III)
When I was doing the exercises recently I felt uncomfortable and had pains here and there. When I examined myself according to Master’s Fa, I noticed that I was avoiding hardship, and I just wanted to be comfortable. All practitioners know that enduring hardship helps eliminate karma. How could I avoid hardship?
I told myself that I would unconditionally accept Master’s arrangements, including hardships. My legs ached when I sat down to meditate. I told myself that I needed to endure hardship and eliminate karma; I am not afraid of the pain. When I thought this way, I felt that the pain was not as severe, and that I was not that uncomfortable.
When I recited Zhuan Falun for the first time, I could not completely memorize some paragraphs even though I recited them many times. I allowed myself to pass without completely memorizing it. Even so, Master compassionately gave me unlimited help and care.
I thank Master for everything. Human language can’t express my gratitude to Master. I will continually recite the Fa. Master gives us the ability to save more people when we study the Fa well.
Due to the limit of my cultivation level, please point out anything inappropriate.