(Minghui.org) Master has told us,
“It is the responsibility of Dafa disciples to help me in saving all lives. To carry out your mission well, you must first do well in your own spiritual development. Only with the Fa’s guidance will you know how to do better, and only with the Fa’s guidance will you manage to avoid going wrong. At the same time, the Fa is molding you into an extraordinary being.” (“To the Fa Conference in Germany”)
Following Master’s teaching, I studied the Fa intensively, looked within, and identified a lot of attachments, including my resentment, fighting mentality, jealousy, attachment to showing off and my attachment to validating myself. I was shocked and frustrated about having so many attachments after cultivating for so long. I felt that I had failed to live up to Master’s compassionate salvation.
I resented the jailers who tortured me in a forced labor camp. I knew it wasn’t right to hold grievances, so I tried to eliminate the thoughts by sending forth righteous thoughts. But I just couldn’t suppress them. Negative thoughts kept emerging. I even fought with people in my dreams. I was deeply troubled.
One morning, while sending forth righteous thoughts, I begged Master, “Master, I cultivate compassion according to Falun Dafa. How can I harbor resentment? It’s bad. I have seen clearly that it’s not part of me, and I don’t want it. Master, please help me get rid of it.”
After saying this, I saw a tall woman, black from head to toe, come out of my body. She wore a black gown. Her head was covered with a black gauze scarf. Her shivering fists were clenched in front of her chest. Her face looked fierce and horrifying. I panicked and cried, “Master, please save me.”
I continued sending forth righteous thoughts even though my hands and body were shaking. The woman walked forward reluctantly. Master arrived and dissolved the woman. I thanked Master in tears. I felt that I had completely changed into another person in one moment. I was now happy and carefree! My resentment was gone! Everyone looked lovely in my eyes!
About eight years flew by, and I couldn’t understand how the resentment could have returned. And it was worse than before. I was mad at everyone and couldn’t pull myself out of this state.
I finally knelt down in front of Master’s picture and said in tears, “Master, I haven’t cultivated myself well. Please save me! Don’t give up on me. I want to cultivate myself. I’m trying. All of these attachments aren’t my true self. They were acquired or forced on me. I only want my pure, innate self. I want to get rid of the degenerate substances that block my path of cultivation. I must eliminate resentment. Please help me. I’ll follow you to return to my true origin.”
When I finally stood up to study the Fa, my heart felt light. I felt so comfortable! I wanted to smile, but tears came out instead, because I knew that Master had helped me eliminate the bad substances again. Thank you, Master.
Master told us,
“...Neither heaven nor earth canblock my road of Fa-rectificationBut disciples’ human hearts can” (“Troubles,” Hong Yin III)
I let go of my attachments, and things in my life turned in the right direction. Everyone in my life became kind and peaceful in my eyes.
I participate in making phone calls to public security offices in China. I noticed that when I cultivated myself well, I had stronger righteous thoughts and was able to convey the truth to more people.
I received a batch of persecutors’ phone numbers in Songyuan City, Jilin Province a few days ago. Before making any phone calls, I sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate the evil factors that blocked these people from understanding the truth and the evil factors that sabotaged our truth-clarification.
The man who answered my call listened to me for almost four minutes. I told him, “This is a call from the United States. I’m originally from Liaoning Province. I would like to tell you that the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) is not China, and loving our country doesn’t mean loving the Party. I truly care for your safety.” The man thanked me.
I continued, “I want to tell you about three things you can do for your own safety. First, don’t persecute any Falun Dafa practitioners. According to Chinese law, it is legal to practice Falun Dafa. The persecution is what is against the law.
“Second, quit all of the CCP organizations, because CCP will be held accountable for its crimes in the future. You vowed to give your life to the Party, so you have to cast away the Party for a safe future.
“Third, keep in mind, ‘Falun Dafa is good’ and ‘Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.’ The coronavirus is afraid of the positive energy associated with these words. The CCP ordered you to persecute Falun Dafa, but whoever does bad things will be held accountable,” I said.
He said he understood.
I asked him if he wanted to quit all the CCP organizations. He replied, “Yes, thank you!”
“Congratulations! You made a good choice,” I said.
I also blend truth clarification into my everyday life. I distribute flyers and collect signatures for petitions every day. Master has sacrificed enormously in exchange for this time for us to save more people. I’m determined not to let Master down.