(Minghui.org) I have been cultivating Falun Dafa for almost three years and would like to share some of my cultivation experiences.
I started cultivating Falun Dafa when I was 21 years old, in the summer of 2018.
Growing up, I was immersed in a cultivation environment. Though I had read and watched Master’s lectures many times, I did not fully understand cultivation when I was young. I was mainly interested in stories about the divine. I later became polluted by ordinary society and developed many bad habits. When I began cultivating, many attachments and desires began to surface. I’d always thought that my inborn quality was very good. However, after cultivating, I realized that things weren’t as I’d imagined, and I was still very distant from the principles of Dafa.
I had very severe thought karma, and bad thoughts would frequently arise in my mind. I have an introverted personality and I don’t talk that much. Hence, many negative thoughts had accumulated in my mind. It was truly hard for me to cultivate as bad thoughts would arise every day.
“If one is determined, the karma can be eliminated.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I rejected many negative thoughts and thought karma every day, and when it became too severe for me, I would study the Fa to overcome it.
After cultivating for two weeks during the summer, I headed back to school and listened to Master’s audio lectures. Though I did not practice the exercises as much, I remained quite diligent during that period of time. I always wanted to listen to Master’s audio lectures. Master was always encouraging and protecting me because I was able to see rotating Falun that emitted golden beams, and I could also feel an energy flow. My palms felt warm and I felt Master perform guanding on me. When I returned home for winter break, I started to practice the exercises every day.
I was studying for my Master’s degree in 2019, and I slacked off in studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. A relative of mine had given me a USB drive a long time ago and I did not know that Master’s lectures were on it. It was only when my relative came over during winter break that he told me about it. I was shocked and realized that Master had arranged for me to have a strong foundation in Dafa before reading Master’s other lectures.
I hadn’t realized the true meaning of Dafa after two years of cultivating, though I had gone through many tribulations and eliminated many attachments. I began to slowly understand the true meaning of Dafa and cultivation in 2020.
I am able to study the Fa every day. I read Zhuan Falun twice during a month and also study Master’s other lectures. I had understood Dafa superficially in the past but now I am able to truly abide by the Fa’s standards. I am improving quite quickly through studying the Fa and cultivating myself. I feel that Master is pushing me forward while I overcome tribulations. I have made breakthroughs by studying the Fa every day. I realized that everything happens for a reason and everything offers a chance for me to improve.
After I decided to cultivate, I had a test of lust and desire. My body froze and could not move one afternoon while I was sleeping. I saw images of beautiful ladies and I realized that I needed to start cultivating. I struggled to get up to meditate. I felt something pulling my arms down, trying to stop me from meditating. I had passed many tests in lust and desire, though I had not done so well with them. However, Master was constantly encouraging and pushing me forward.
I had a dream one time after I did not pass a lust test. In my dream, I was walking on a road and black clouds were hanging above my head. The black clouds suddenly disappeared and I saw many Gods above me. One of the Gods was looking at me while sounding the drums. When I woke up I remembered a section of Master’s Fa.
“At the mallet’s drumming one knows to be diligentThe Fa drum rouses those lost in confusion” (“Drum Tower,” Hong Yin II)
When I was passing tests of lust and desire, Master would enlighten me through dreams. I dreamed about being in an old house and cleaning out garbage. I knew I needed to elevate myself. I’ve been through many ups and downs while being tested on the attachment to lust and desire. I knew this attachment is critical for all cultivators and that the demon of lust in other dimensions will do all it can to interfere with cultivators. I believe that only by studying the Fa and genuinely cultivating can we overcome this tribulation and be in accordance with the Fa.
I have also overcome sickness karma. Two months after I started cultivating, I started to twitch uncontrollably one night. This had never happened to me before, and I did not know what to do. I wanted to wake up my roommate, but I realized I was a cultivator. I started to recite, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” over and over again. My thoughts were righteous and I was fine the next day.
My stomach started to hurt one afternoon and I was in excruciating pain by dinner time. I could not sleep that night. I asked for Master’s help all night but was still in pain the next morning. Several days passed. One night I dreamed about standing right next to Master at a lake. Master called over a person who was wearing a traditional Chinese costume and told him to help me with my abdominal pain, and my pain disappeared in a couple of days. When my righteous thoughts are not strong enough, my sickness karma will drag on for longer.
As a new Dafa disciple, I feel that I will improve as long as I study the Fa. Master wishes for his disciples to improve, and sometimes Master arranges tribulations to come one after another.
“Also, some of you obtained the Fa later, but this group of people who obtained the Fa later is improving quickly; so the requirements for them are also high, and their levels are rising quickly. You feel that it’s harder and that there are more difficulties, that is, there seem to be more tribulations—this is inevitable.” (“Teaching the Fa in San Francisco,” Lectures in the United States)
Sometimes I feel a lot of pressure and like everything is so hard, and a lot of interference will start to occur.
“So we must practice cultivation in this complex environment and be able to endure the toughest hardships of all. Meanwhile, we must have a heart of great forbearance.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)
I will cultivate until the end, do well in the three things, and follow Master home.
Thank you, Master, for your boundless salvation!