(Minghui.org) Master said:
“Dafa is being spread far and wide. Those who hear about it are looking for it. Those who have obtained it are delighted with it. The number of cultivators is increasing daily and becoming countless.” (“Seeking Discipleship with Teacher,” Essentials For Further Advancement)
Just like Master said, since the spread of Falun Dafa worldwide in 1992, many have obtained the Fa and have gone through tribulations.
I am a Falun Gong practitioner, and began to cultivate in Falun Dafa in 2008. Recollecting my 20 years of cultivation, I have benefited quite a lot. Although I am still lacking in my cultivation, I would still like to share my cultivation experiences and improve further. At the same time, I hope my experience sharing might be helpful to other practitioners.
I have a daughter and son, both of them are young Dafa disciples. On the path of cultivation, we are constantly improving together. My mother-in-law is also a very diligent practitioner, and she would often read Zhuan Falun and Hong Yin with my children. My daughter can recite Lunyu ("On Dafa"), as well as many poems in Hong Yin. She would also help her grandmother in making Dafa truth clarification materials. My father-in-law also studies the Fa.
My daughter has been immersed in Dafa ever since she was young. One time during the winter months, my daughter had physical education class outdoors, and there was a boy who wanted to borrow mittens because he wanted to play with the snow. Nobody wanted to take off their mittens, but my daughter took off her mittens and gave them to him. When I asked my daughter if her hands were freezing, she said that her hands felt very warm. I knew that this was Master encouraging her.
Once, an older boy pushed my daughter to the ground. Her hand scraped against the floor and she was injured. That boy started to run away and refused to apologize. My daughter did not say anything, but when I picked her up after school, she looked upset. I patted her head and said: “You did well. I admire you.”
I was slacking off in cultivation and had many attachments. I wasn’t able to control my temper and would often yell at my children. I would feel remorseful and my daughter would say: “Mommy, you need to upgrade your xinxing now! If not, you would not be able to return to the heavens! Whenever you would yell at us, my heart would hurt.” My son also chimed in with tears in his eyes: “Mommy, please don’t be angry. I will do better.”
One time, my son ran up to me and said: “Mommy, the ship had sailed away and you weren’t on it.” I was shocked at what he said and felt even more remorseful! I know that children are naturally active and sometimes naughty. At times, I would find everyone’s shortcomings and be very stringent about it. I know that the old forces have enlarged my attachments and is actively dragging me down on my cultivation.
Suddenly Master’s Fa reappeared in front of me:
“If both you and I are nice to each other and sit there in harmony, how can it be possible to increase gong?” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I need to cultivate diligently, eliminate my attachments, and believe in Master and the Fa. My daughter and son are young Dafa practitioners who are helping me with my cultivation. I should not disregard them and reprimand them. I decided to set my mind to truly cultivate and be able to genuinely believe in Master and believe in the Fa.
Mankind's history is like a play, and everyone is playing a role. If we fall too deeply in our play, we will be deluded in ordinary society. My daughter is in second grade and has a lot of homework, and she also participates in many extracurricular activities. Both my husband and I were always worrying about her academic studies. Our cultivation states had also been lacking, hence my daughter would often felt dizzy. We have now enlightened to the fact that this was Master enlightening us.
My aunt’s family came for the Chinese New Year holidays, and they planned to stay for a month. For the first couple of days, I was able to conduct myself as a cultivator by warmly welcoming them and taking care of their needs. However, after a month of indulging myself in human attachments, I realized many attachments such as the attachment to comfort, competitiveness, jealousy, and resentment had all surfaced. I have been deluded in ordinary society and forgotten about how precious and serious Dafa was.
When my aunt’s family returned to Beijing, my daughter started to experience really severe dizziness. She was drowsy all the time and would throw temper tantrums. Worst of all, she did not want to study the Fa nor listen to Master’s lectures. Both my husband and I were very troubled and felt helpless.
With the help of other practitioners, I was able to become more clear-minded. I knelt in front of Master’s image, holding Zhuan Falun in my hand, and asked for Master’s help: “Master, I was wrong. Please bring back the lively, energetic, and compassionate young disciple I once had.” I cried and kowtowed to Master many times, expressing my gratitude.
I realized that we were not diligent enough, so the old forces took advantage of us and my daughter. I realized my daughter’s cultivation state was a stick warning for me. I should know that Dafa is very precious and serious, and needed to conduct myself as an upright and genuine Dafa disciple. Both my husband and I shared our thoughts, and he too expressed that he was not diligent enough. Whether we are diligent or not, Dafa should always come in first and we should abide by Dafa’s principles.
Master said:
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master. It is good enough if you have this wish. It is the master who actually does this, as you are simply unable to do it.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Master was very compassionate. Seeing that we as adults changed for the better, Master decided to help us and my daughter’s attitude toward Dafa changed. It was truly a miracle! After a few days, she agreed to watch Master’s lectures with her grandmother.
My child's cultivation states reflect on how I am as a cultivator. The great compassionate Master does not want to leave any disciples behind. Master has used my daughter as a stick warning for my cultivation. I know that I am met with these tribulations because I am a cultivator. Over these past two months, many attachments such as a competitive mentality, resentment, jealousy, and seeking comfort have all surfaced.
Master said:
“Calmly reflect on the attachments you haveRemove your human thoughtsand evil will naturally die out”(“Don’t Be Sad”, Hong Yin, Translation Version A)
Each time when I do better, Master will encourage me. When I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I felt my surroundings very calm and warm. There seemed to be a strong energy field and it was my first time in my years of cultivation feeling something as beautiful as this. I know that Master was encouraging me! A thought suddenly crossed my mind: I need to genuinely and solidly cultivate.