(Minghui.org) Although I have been diligently studying the Fa, I still found it difficult to look inward when problems occurred or to admit my mistakes.
It wasn't until the police harassed us at home, because I practice Falun Dafa, that I began to look inward. As a result, I was able to resolve conflicts easily and to cultivate with a smile on my face.
I realized that everything that happened to me was good for my cultivation.
I spoke with my mother at length one time about something that she'd done, but she wouldn't admit to it and got angry because I kept going on about it.
That night, I looked inward and thought, “What was the point of arguing? I must have done something wrong too.” I was not being compassionate and was showing off because I was forcing my opinion on her, believing that I was helping her to find her shortcomings. Instead of putting myself in her shoes and talking to her in a calm manner, I criticized her.
I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate my attachments, and apologized to my mother the next day. I said, “I'm sorry. I was wrong. I didn't consider your feelings. I only cared about myself, and was being selfish.”
My husband spilled some milk on the bed and expected me to clean it up. I was in the middle of studying the Fa and didn't want to help him. He got angry and chastised me. I knew right away that I was at fault.
The guilty feeling stopped me from continuing with my Fa study. I put the book Zhuan Falun down, and started sending forth righteous thoughts. My husband said: “I don’t want to spend another day with you! I will divorce you tomorrow.”
I apologized to him the next day, and he also admitted that he was at fault.
From these experiences I learned that I should hold myself in accordance with the Fa, and look inward first when facing conflicts.
These are the ways to negate the existence of the old forces. It took me a long time to come to this understanding. What was missing were my righteous thoughts.
I called a police officer in the city police department to tell her about Falun Dafa. After a long conversation she still refused to accept what I was telling her, and threatened to block my phone.
I became agitated and said, “You can't do that! This number is used to tell people the facts about Falun Dafa and the persecution. I have done nothing wrong.”
My cell phones and all my phone cards were blocked the next day, and many fellow practitioners' phone cards were blocked the following day.
I was very sad because other practitioners had been affected because of me. Looking for the root of my problem, I realized that I was forcing my words on others, and not clarifying the facts to them in the manner that practitioners should do.
“Clarify the facts,send righteous thoughts”(“Be Clearheaded”, Hong Yin Vol. II, Version A)
I must remember to send forth righteous thoughts when I talk to people about Falun Dafa, as I need to eliminate the old forces' interference that will try to stop them from accepting my words.
I could not let my mistakes affect other practitioners and begged Master to unblock our phones and cards, as we need them to help Master save people.
They were all unblocked a few days later.