(Minghui.org) I'm 70 years old and live in a small township in Hebei Province. I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1998. By reading the teachings, I understood why people came to this world and why we suffer so much. I had always complained that my life was unfair. Through studying the Fa, I understood that all our troubles come from our karma but that Dafa can guide us to return to our origin and true self.
I became happy and stopped resenting my husband. I even began to care about him. All my illnesses soon disappeared. When my husband saw my changes, his attitude towards me changed, and he became very supportive of my practice. We stopped fighting, and there was harmony in our family. I felt truly blessed by Master Li Hongzhi and Dafa.
After the persecution of Falun Dafa began in 1999, I went to Beijing to appeal to the government for the right to practice. I was illegally arrested and fined. In May 2001, fellow practitioners and I went to Tiananmen Square to stand up for Dafa. I was arrested and taken back to our local detention center where I was held for more than six months.
In 2012, when I went with other practitioners to clarify the facts and hand out brochures, I was arrested and held at the police station. Then I was sent to a notorious forced labor camp.
After I was released, I continued to clarify the facts to people. I wrote several letters to government officials, made truth-clarification banners, and talked to people about the persecution face-to-face. After the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published, I went to every household to help people quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
During the process, we sometimes encountered danger, but every time everything turned out well due to Master’s benevolent protection.
About nine years ago, the coordinator practitioner asked if I could produce truth-clarification materials. I replied, “I'm afraid I won’t do a good job. I had little education and don’t even know the characters. How is that possible?” She encouraged me, “You can do it!” I thought perhaps Master arranged this path for me.
Another practitioner gave me a used laptop and a copy machine. I later bought a laser printer. My son helped me get a desktop computer. Eventually, I had all sorts of equipment.
I learned how to browse the Internet, download and print documents, type a letter, and make Dafa books and brochures, as well as all kinds of Falun Dafa keepsakes. I also helped other practitioners print out truth-clarification information on paper currency and DVD labels.
I've designed and created bookmarks and cards with pictures and sticky notes with the words “Falun Dafa is wonderful! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is wonderful.” Every year when I made desk calendars, I’d make the most colorful and clearest pictures. I continued to do my best to help save sentient beings more effectively.
Master Li told us:
“At present, the most important thing is to save sentient beings, save more people!” (“Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. VIII)
Whenever I thought about how many people still weren't saved, I got worried. So I decided to do more. I bought stickers, laminating paper, all kinds of pendants, man-made pearls, and tools. I also went to the Minghui website to download design samples. I made beautiful car decorations. I also wrote many truth-clarification letters to police, the Procuratorate, and the judicial system.
I don’t make any money. My husband’s income was all we had. I used the money my children gave me during holidays for the material production center. My husband has been very supportive. He is retired and takes care of the cooking. Sometimes when I was too tired and forgot about sending forth righteous thoughts, he’d remind me. He often went with me to put up sticky notes or hand out brochures.
To save time, I usually didn't bother washing the dishes until we had no clean dishes left. He'd sometimes get upset, saying I only cared about my own work. As soon as I heard this, I’d quickly correct myself and started to do household chores. He usually then says, “Don’t worry about it. Go do your own thing.”
When I was making copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and The Ultimate Purpose of Communism, I needed a lot of paper. He helped me buy the paper and bring it home. When I needed a ream, he’d have to go, on foot, all the way down to our basement locker and back up to the top floor where we live.
We have a three-wheel electric bike. Every time I went out, he offered to give me a ride out of safety concerns. The other practitioners teased me by saying he was my private chauffeur. I truly appreciated his support of Dafa and myself.
One time my photocopier didn’t work. Ms. Hu has a technical background, so I went to see her. As soon as I entered, she got angry at me. I felt totally wronged and left in tears. After I calmed down, I wondered why she’d treated me like that. I realized I must have issues.
Master told us to look inward unconditionally whenever something happens. I identified my attachments to vanity, being reluctant to accept criticism, resentment, and jealousy. She was helping me improve my xinxing. Why did I feel so mistreated? Shouldn't I thank her? I felt much better. When I turned on my photocopier, it was fine.
The next day Ms. Hu came to my home and apologized. I said, “It’s okay.” We then shared our experiences.
Another time the ink cartridge malfunctioned and I couldn’t fix it, so I found another practitioner with a technical background to come help. Instead of helping, however, he kept scolding me. I felt totally wronged and that the way he treated me was very unfair.
I didn’t want to continue producing materials. I hoped others would take my machines, and I’d just go out to clarify the facts to people instead. I couldn’t snap out of it for several days. Wasn’t it Master using the other practitioner to help me eliminate my attachments so that I could improve? I couldn’t enlighten to it, however, and got stuck in this tribulation.
Master Li said:
“Dafa disciples have their ways. There will be little interference if you are righteous with whatever you do. As I have always said, there won’t be any problems if you are righteous on your part. But if you do things with human thinking or attachments, problems will be hard to avoid—even if you are doing Dafa things. But it is indeed hard to meet the standard, or the level required; that is, it will be hard to meet if you don’t have the necessary foundation, and that’s when problems arise.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference”)
Through Fa-study and looking inward, I realized I had many attachments, including being attached to doing things, a show-off mentality, complaining about others, not willing to take criticism, vanity, and feeling unbalanced. Why didn’t I listen to Master and cultivate myself? I complained about other practitioners instead. My mission was to make materials. I had to do this. I should also do my best to eliminate my attachments.
When a practitioner from another city was making hanging decorations for cars, she asked me to come to her place and engrave the words “Falun Dafa is wonderful!” on the decorations. They didn’t cost much and looked stylish. And since the words weren't obvious, people hung them in their cars.
Before I left, I asked a practitioner to help me place an order for 2,000 yuan worth of materials. I thought, “Many people own cars now, and our products would be useful.”
After I got home, I took out 1,000 yuan from my savings and received another 1,000 as a donation. Our coordinator then abruptly asked me to stop. I argued that many practitioners from other cities were making these decorations. He replied, “Whoever is doing this is wrong.” I couldn’t see how what I did was wrong. And after I got home, I felt very upset and bitter. I returned the donation, then immediately phoned the practitioner who’d helped me with the order and told her to cancel mine.
Master Li said:
“Maybe now you’ve experienced how hard cultivation is. Because it’s hard, your cultivation can meet with success.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. International Fa Conference,” Guiding the Voyage)
“The entire cultivation process for a cultivator is one of constantly giving up human attachments.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
During these years, whenever I had any issues with my machines, I’d look inward to see where I didn’t comply with the Fa and I'd rectify myself. Then my machine would usually work. Now my machines run smoothly.
I've made it through to where I am today all because of Master’s benevolent protection. Only by studying the Fa, doing the three things well, improving one’s xinxing, and seizing the limited time remaining to help save more sentient beings can we fulfill our vows and return home with Master.