(Minghui.org) I am 55 years old, and a teacher in a Heilongjiang Province city. I started practicing Falun Dafa in October 2004.
I was suffering from all kinds of illnesses from a young age, including inflammation in the trachea. I often ran a fever and coughed. My feet and hands were always cold. I was often absent from school because of illnesses. After I got married, I came down with more diseases, including appendicitis, heart disease, insomnia, and rheumatism. I always felt miserable.
I was the teacher of a junior high graduation class in October 2004. I was not healthy and had to teach a big class. There were 80 to 90 students getting ready for high school exams. This particular class's mathematics was poor, which made me angry and worried. I couldn't sleep at night, and even sleeping pills didn't help. I tried to swim to reduce the stress because swimming would tire me out. But, it still didn't work.
Once when I went for a swim, I accidentally got the original liquid of the multifunctional concentrated cleaning agent on the swimming lens. I rubbed them casually then put them on. After about 40 minutes, I felt more and more pain in the eyes, and then couldn't open my eyes. A colleague took me to the hospital. I had injections in the eyes for four days.
Then, I went to the affiliated hospital of Harbin University of Traditional Chinese Medicine for an examination. The diagnosis was pathological keratitis, and as there were no blood vessels and nerves on the cornea, no medicine could be applied. My husband was very worried; it meant I would become blind! I thought after the visit to the hospital, I would take some medication and then head back to school to teach. The doctor said he couldn't be sure if I could continue teaching, and told me to just stay at the hospital.
I was in pain. I just turned 40 and my daughter had just started junior high school. I couldn't imagine the life change that I was about to face.
Before this incident, a colleague gave me a Falun Dafa truth clarification booklet, which I had read already. She gave me a Dafa amulet which I wore. She also gave me a Dafa book called Zhuan Falun which I read once. But none of these really touched me because I was too poisoned by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) indoctrination.
After I calmed down, I read the words on the Dafa amulet. I began to ponder the meaning of these words. I noticed at the same time that my eyes were getting clearer and clearer. As my eyes were getting better, I was discharged from the hospital after two weeks. I suddenly understood that it was Falun Dafa that saved me, and it was the Dafa Master who gave me a pair of bright eyes.
After I returned home, I was determined to begin practicing Falun Dafa. Every day I persisted in Fa study and doing the exercises. I also read some truth-clarification sharing and related books. I learned about the true meaning of life and that the standards for being a good person are Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
I understood that the self-immolation at Tienanmen Square was a hoax, it was Jiang Zemin, the former head of the Chinese regime, who was jealous of Falun Dafa and initiated this unprecedented persecution.
Teaching and educating are a profession. As a teacher, I teach my students to follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and understand the difference between good and evil.
Once I wrote the three words Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance on the blackboard and explained what they meant. I said: “Truthfulness meant to tell the truth and to treat others in a truthful manner. Compassion meant to be kind and treat others thoughtfully. Forbearance meant to tolerate, not to compare with others, and not to hold grudges against people.” I talked a lot and my students listened attentively.
After I clarified the truth in the classroom, some people reported it to the Education Commission and Mr. Song, the Commission’s secretary came to my school along with some officers. I was summoned to the principal’s office, where the principal and the deputy who was in charge of the Party affairs were present. I saw that a commission officer was all prepared to take notes, so I said, “You folks are engaging in Cultural Revolution matters! I didn’t break any law!” When I got home, my husband was terrified. He had a dispute with me and wanted me to stop practicing Dafa.
On the evening of the 2004 Chinese New Year, I wanted to go out to put up some truth-clarification slogans. My child cried and asked me to watch television. But, I thought that my Master wants me to go out to clarify the truth to people.” Seeing my sincerity, Master helped me to get away.
The child’s aunt who heard me clarify the truth, and read quite a lot of truth-clarification materials said to my child, “Girl, your mom needs to work on something at her mother’s house. She’ll come back later. Let me keep you company.”
Because my husband was deeply poisoned by the Party, he didn’t listen to the truth-clarification at the beginning, and he worried that I would be persecuted. His work unit also pressured him, and he was afraid that I would lose my job. Besides, the cultivation practice would have an impact on our child’s future. He didn’t let me and our child practice. My colleagues and his friends also said the same thing. When he saw that I crossed my legs to do the meditation, he would pull my legs down, so I did it when he was asleep.
“There’s nothing wrong with being a good person,” I said. “Would you say that Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good? I teach our child to be truthful, kind and tolerant -- is that wrong?”
When he laid the blame on me or got angry with me, I looked inside. I never let people blame me for anything from a very young age. I had strong self-esteem, liked to save face, look down on people, couldn’t tolerate others, and couldn’t look at things from another person’s perspective. I was afraid of being beaten, being hurt and resentful, I held grudges against others, and always complained. I also wanted to be praised and demanded respect. I always found faults in others, but never looked at people’s strengths. I was indoctrinated by the Party, thus formed bad notions about my husband, and looked down on him. In fact, it was jealousy and I was being unkind.
Master said,
“A wicked person is born of jealousy.Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself. A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion.With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.” (“Realm,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
My thoughts and conduct didn’t conform to the Fa-principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. The unkindness wasn’t the true me. I continued to study the Fa and measured myself using the Fa. I tried to look at things from my husband’s perspective.
“A girl in my class said that you’re like a general, I said to him, “and that you’re straight forward. You don’t pull smart tricks, don’t bully others and are friendly. You’re kind, willing to help others and are talented in music. Too bad you were born in China; otherwise you’d have more fun if you lived in a different environment and people around you would recognize you more. But given the suppression of the Chinese communist regime, you live without dignity.”
I continued, “The human soul is noble. China has a culture of 5,000 years. When I was a kid, I listened to and obeyed all my teachers. When I joined the workforce, I could not find any teachers teaching me how to be a human. Now, I found an excellent teacher who directs me, and I am no longer confused. Shouldn’t I cherish it?”
Not only that, you witnessed that l recovered from all my illnesses. It is Jiang Zemin, the former head of the communist regime, who wouldn’t let people be good. He started the persecution against the kind Falun Dafa practitioners. It was just like how your father who was made right-wing by the evil communist regime, and you’re the victim. It is a heavenly law that good is rewarded while evil is punished. I believe that you’ll stand on the side of justice.”
When my husband said something that I didn’t like, I didn’t argue with him; instead, I replied to him calmly, “Thank you. You’ve borne a lot for me. You have heart problems, so please don’t get upset. You’ve helped me see many of my shortcomings, but I don’t hold any grudge against you. My Master asks us to always look inside and be kind to others.”
I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate all the evil spirits in his dimensions. I wanted his knowing side to believe in Dafa and Master.
Gradually, my husband changed. When I listened to the recording of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, he listened as well. When I read the Fa aloud to him, he wasn’t appalled. Sometimes when he invited friends over for dinner, I wanted to clarify the truth to them, he said, “Don’t do it. Let me handle it.”
He helped them quit the CCP and its youth organizations. He didn’t object to me doing truth-clarification, hanging banners, and putting up posters. Sometimes he also went with me to distribute brochures. When he ate out and heard people say something bad about Falun Dafa, he would argue with them and even got angry, saying, “Who dares to say Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is not good?”
When my husband was hospitalized in the Second Hospital of Harbin Medical University in 2014, he told a patient who shared the room with him, “You should learn Falun Dafa. Unfortunately, I can’t stop smoking and drinking, so I keep going to the hospital.” The patient who was next to him was a patient with cerebral thrombosis. He couldn’t speak and take care of himself. His wife and son were agitated, and the two of them were always angry.
I was pleasant and energetic. I didn’t have a good night’s rest and had to take care of my husband who had an esophageal ligation operation. He was often very irritable got angry with me, but I didn’t pay much attention. I took care of him, without any complaints. Lying on the floor in the corridor at night, I couldn’t sleep especially in the hot days. It was impossible to do the exercises so I could only read the Fa for a while. He stayed there for more than two weeks.
Only then did I realize that Falun Dafa is extraordinary. Master is always caring for his disciples! The patient's wife asked me, “How can you have such a positive attitude?” “That’s because I have a belief! I believe in Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance!”
“If it weren’t for Falun Dafa,” I said, “and I didn’t follow the teachings of my Master to be a good person, I would be like you too!”
I clarified the truth, including about organ harvesting of living Falun Dafa practitioners for profit. She quit the Party and I told her to remember “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance is good.”
Master said,
“When I was born, many Gods came down with me. From then on, this happened every year and Gods have been coming down. By the time I started to teach the Fa, those Gods came down like snowflakes—it was just that many. I calculated their ages now, and from when I started to spread the Fa till now, they would be young people around twenty-five years old, many of whom really have not been saved. They were all Gods, coming down to Earth, and they scattered to all areas of the world.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference,” Team Blue Translation)
My daughter is a child of this age, and I have a responsibility to bring her up well. She often read the Fa with me. She could recite Hong Yin. At night we went out together to distribute Dafa informational materials, put up posters and hang banners. Sometimes I looked around when putting up posters, and she said she would do it. Then she boldly said, “Look at you! You’re scaring yourself!” She wasn’t afraid. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance was deeply rooted in her heart.
I used to focus on my child’s school performance, but now, I pay more attention to her conduct. I installed Master’s teachings on her cellular phone so that she could listen to the Fa whenever she had the time. I often reminded her to clarify the truth to her classmates. With wisdom, she helped them know the truth, and some quit the CCP.
When she went to the university, she said, “Mom, I don’t know why, but one day, I realized that one must have a belief. I calmed my mind and read through all of Master’s teachings.” When she finished, her body was purified. From then on, her hands and feet no longer felt cold.
During her five years of university life, she was not only respected by seven classmates in her room, but also by other classmates in the other rooms. They liked to associate with her. She was the head of the dormitory. She cared about her classmates and helped them solve problems in life and study, treating everyone as if she were their big sister. When classmates had problems and discussed with their mothers, they usually said, “Go ask your elder sister.”
Master said,
“To consummate, obtaining Buddha’s fruitLet hardship then be treated as your joyTo work the body—hardship it is notThe hardest is to cultivate the heart”
(“Tempering You Will,” Hong Yin, Translation Version C)
Making efforts and trying to be a good person, my daughter was blessed! When she was about to graduate, she passed her English fourth level test which she was pleasantly surprised because she didn't make as much effort as the other children. When she graduated in June, she was fortunate enough to find a good job at a place near home, which was my wish. She said, “Mom, I found the job by myself and you and dad didn't need to spend any money.” Indeed, when some parents asked her, “How much money did your mom spend to find you a job?” She said, “We didn't spend any money.”
I told my daughter to work hard and be responsible. Her manager saw that she couldn't go home for lunch, so he ordered her a meal. When she just began the job, her colleague always asked her to help her, and her tone of speech was blunt. My daughter did many tasks for her.
While my daughter was working she continued studying. In November 2018, she got admitted to a master's program. While she was busy with her exam, I happened to be busy with delivering the 2019 Dafa calendars with fellow practitioners and didn't take care of her. She also won second place in the entrance exam. She said the first place was only one point more than her. Her teachers and colleagues commented, “You scored so high. But we didn't see you study that much!”
My daughter's oral English was very good, and since her colleagues commented that she created a lot of benefits for the department, although originally the department director didn't want to accept any graduate students, he made an exception for her. My daughter successfully passed the professional doctor's certificate in June 2019.